..Lovely Monday..

..It's Monday and I feel G R E A T..
yesterday was my Bro wedding's anniversary..and again I forgot to bring camera to capture the "moment" so early in the morning the activity was begun. We went to church and this time was at Katedral because Mom's choir participate on Morning Mash then I meet my Bro and his wife there..his hair needs to cut off I think.
Then we had lunch together, my first Bro and his family also there. We ate Pizza, the only Italian food that I like!! then my sis in law family join us (full team) ..oh yeah we had lunch at Artha Gading Mall again, since the park still free.
After lunch I visited my Bro's house, he's living in Menteng Metropolitan, then I went to Yudi's house, his house near Senen Station. Finally I know where my Brothers lives!!
So here I'm early in the morning without taking bad (hehehehe) I go to office. 7:24 AM I have arrived in the office..

what is all about

I just recovered from my illness..since last Thursday I was sick and I've had leave my job for two days. Kinna lazy to start all over again..so this morning I just type something in my blog. It's good finally I could write something and read something. Back to the days when I was sick, my mom borrow a catholic magazine. I read a lot to kill my times since the TV program wasn't good, everytime I push one channel comes up Cut Keke story or Nia Daniati story.. is it so hard to maintain marriage relationship?

Talking about found out one good man sometimes it could be an interesting topic, but sometimes it could be so nasty.. what if don't think, don't feel and don't act? A desperate and hopeless girl I become. You know..when I was sick I was thinking much and everything become so heavy in my mind, I realize we can't live alone in this world, especially when you are sick, you need someone to be there, a person who cares about you and a person who can cheer you up.

I have one right now..but for how long? Life is uncertain some said like that but if we believe in Jesus there's always a hope and life is always certain.. Just begins everything in the name of HIM.

Team Work..day third June, 13 2005 at Ayung river Ubud, Bali

Bali 11-14 June 2005

..about him..

If I should describe him in one word, definetly I'll say he is amazing. He drove thousand kilometres early in the morning to drove me to airport. I think that's one thing that could melt my heart, too bad we are not in the same team.
In this way, I couldn't ask for more. Usually I will ask, Dear God, could you change into..bla..bla..but this time I don't, I enjoyed the time we spend..maybe I had give up to searched and hope. I only closed my eyes and make a wish, Dear God, would you give me a strength to accept everything that I can't change and to change everything that I could change and I could always feel the beauty in every thing that you gave me. He came in his strange way..so I start to miss that?

TerreCalde

Two weeks ago I have an offer from someone to be the reporter. What I did was simple just send an essay or writing talk about what happen in my country. When I heard this news I don't really take seriously since I have an offer from someone that I know in cyber world, but nowdays everything done by computer, the old fashion way like meet somebody in the train, bus, or maybe mall are no longer easily happen, since now everybody suspicious with stranger.

In short, I talk with this man a couple times via YM then here I go..my name is written in their website, and my report is in there too.

take a look on http://www.terrecalde.it/indonesia/Henny%20Report%20June%209.htm

Jalani aja yang di depan Mata!

Semalam ga sengaja ketemu teman, dia cerita ga betah kerja di tempat yang sekarang, merasa tertipu karena bayaran yang kecil dan kerjaan yang banyak. Life is unfair..emang betul, kadang kita terkaget-kaget kalau membandingkan diri dengan gaji teman-teman yang lain, rasanya koq mereka dengan mudah dapat kerjaan dan gaji yang banyak just because she's pretty or just because she's born in rich family.

Sementara 'we' yang lahir dari keluarga yang biasa-biasa dan punya tampang yang biasa-biasa aja, memulai segala sesuatu dengan susah payah. Cari kerjaan, akhirnya dapat setelah melalui berkali-kali interview, terus giliran dah kerja dan mau lanjutin kuliah..harus cari duit sendiri untuk membiayai kuliah. Ehmm ga gampang kan??

Tapi gue teringat dengan kata-kata seorang kandidat Doktor bidang keuangan yang gue wawancara untuk skripsi gue "Saya sekolah, yang saya cari tantangannya", kalau gue, sekolah selain untuk kemajuan diri sendiri dan mungkin karir juga cari teman baru yang be there di saat senang dan susah, I am looking for a TRUE Friend! dan bukannya sebelum gue kuliah gue ga menemui, ada donk tapi gue mau nambah deretan (list) teman-teman baru.

Sampai disini tujuan gue dah tercapai!

So, I think once we heard an advice from a fool, kita jadi ikut-ikutan bodoh. Gue teringat sebuah lagu yang gue lupa siapa yang nyanyi -- I don't wanna take an advice from a fool.

Now..I try to used my brain. Gue pikir ini hidup gue. Melihat ke atas itu penting so we know our position, but don't look up on the sky too long. We should be thankfull, at least we got a job eventhough still not our best job. But we are trying to make our job looks fabulous and spend your money to help the poorer.

take a look on us, me and her wearing the same cardigan..smooth yellow. I think it's a great colour makes you look more younger!! this photo was taken using my camera phone last friday.

Pizza..

two slice of pizza, chicken soup, 6 piece of chicken wings and of course sprite. Pizza hut restaurant last Friday..my stomache is so full

WHAT'S NEXT ??

..what do I do next, after completing my study here at University of Indonesia? I have a job now, but my job is far away from home, if I coming back to parents house, everyday I should discover thousands of kilometer to reach my office. The sallary after all, I think it's not enough, since now I (almost) hold bachelor degree.
I was thinking to continue my study for master degree, if this way I choose, so I have to stay here for at least..till next year, after really completing my study and got bonus from company, then say goodbye.
Some job I read now, nothing impress me much, there's one, but the competition is tight. I need a reference letter after all to continue my study, next.
Let's put behind about having my own family, should wait till the time is right..

It's been a while

June is coming, next month July 22nd is Bo birthday, before that I have to submit my thesis.
Thinking bout thesis making me headache, recently I have a flu that's because I force myself hard and because I'm no good in manage time..
Today..I've done my paper for final examination, hoping that I have a good mark in two subject left. Yeah hoping for the best!!

Morning, Surya asking me when I'm gonna married..well recently I got so many question asking about one subject marriage. Whenever I asked that question to myself, I have many reasons to postponed that subject.. Three years ago, I have a reason to postponed till my study finish, I promise start to think about that, after completing my thesis, but now, I have another reason, I want to focus on career since I have a big opportunity in one condition should be single!!

I believe every thing has a purpose..it's not right too, if you marry someone because you tired being alone, because after getting a permanent job next is time to marry? or because someone loves you then you think you won't get better than him, or maybe because every one (your friends), all are married now, or because you don't know what you want in life.
I dunno when I'm gonna find one person that match for me, many times that I meet someone new and trying to build relations, I always gives my best time, best I could do and hoping he's the "one" the best for the last. Maybe I should not hoping too much in next relations, not expecting much in return!

...my days..my hours for you friends...

from minutes turns hours, from hours turns to days..my time for you friends..my time for my family, my time for my work, my time for my study.

Yesterday, finnally the package that Irene sent to me arrived, I should pay for 5,000 rupiahs for that. I found out 2 pages of letters, a broche, a bottle of parfume and 2 photos, also the pendant, and DVD of J LO..yeah this actress is one of Irene's favorite.

Recently I put my time writing thesis in the end of the line, because I used my time to provide carring and support to my friends.

When you are away from family, the person that help you out, and gives you a support is a friend. When you are away from home, you will realize the meaning of having a friend....

wedding party..!!

I don't hate wedding party but I just don't really like attending it!
sabtu dan minggu kemaren, sibuk menghadiri resepsi pernikahan, hari Sabtu nemenin Uli, hari Minggunya resepsinya temen kantor. Kalau melihat proses mereka "berjodoh" cukup unik..tapi ga ada yang mengejutkan kecuali pemberitahuannya yang mendadak. From the first moment "they" meet, there is a butterflies in her eyes..yup I can tell you that, because I just knew when two people are match together.
next saturday and sunday, got invitation to the wedding party again..ooooh tired..should booked my hours minimum 4 hours..and I hate that, since I'm not yet write my thesis. OOOH temptation, I should manage my time..and for that I put all in the end of the line
Semangat...SKRIPSI

..a POEM from a friend..

From: Sobin
Tuesday, May 17, 2005 11:06:00 AM
Subject: Hi u got a wonderful smile !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Message:
well u got a smile like sunflower
u got a smile like the rainbow in sky after rain
u got the smile that inspires me to be a poet
u got a smile like my friend henny
thanks for ur smile and always smile
bye

The Best in Me

From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine

You touched my hand

And I knew that this was gonna be our time

I don't ever wanna lose this feeling

I don't wanna spend a moment apart

'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do

That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

Every day that I'm here with youI know that it feels right

And I've just got to be near you every day and every night

And you know that we belong together

It just had to be you and me

It was funny, suddenly at noon, sitting in my room, I miss him..the feeling is deep, and all I can do is say a little prayer for him..if maybe one day our path cross I hope I could be able to show my feeling.

..My feeling..

..this morning I meet Tanti again, she ask me to meet ! well gue sebenarnya mau aja ketemu, tapi honestly gue males kalo mendiskusikan love game, and being in love, or broken heart..shortly love matters..I'm not in the mood to discuss this matter.

Sorry friend..recently I'm kinna allergic to this, although I like to watch drama or romantic movie..but doesn't meant I can stand with all your story. But I promise you, I have two good ears and one big heart for you..

hidup kan bukan melulu mengenai cinta walaupun love make the world goes around!!

..yessss peace begins with a smile!!, when you got angry, but then you look a piece of smile on someone face, your HEART becomes melt..so don't underestimate the price of a SMILE...

..HAPPY face and big SMILE..thanks Pak Teguh..and thanks friends for the friendship that you give, and for a surprise..I put this on my blog, with a hope when I grow old, I could still see this smile, and remember the happy moments during my class at Penulisan Media Humas..

an advice from a friend..

Dearest girl friend..

I'm sorry I can't always besides you when you needed me..I remember many time you ask me for lunch and I can't full fill, or you want to tell your story, but I don't have time to listen.
Friend, in life not everything we wish for we can get..in life we need miracle, faith, and dream to go on from day to another day, above all we need God to make everything stays on track.

When you think something is the end, sometimes it only the beginning..one thing that I will never bored to reminds you..DON'T LET GO your FAITH, because you will need faith when life seems so unfair..you need faith to make a decission..you need faith to stay HAPPY..

>>for tanty "all happiness is in the mind"

say hello...say goodbye...

..in any relations there will be time to say hello and to say goodbye. The most hard part is when you decide to say goodbye, but some parts of your heart still hoping there will be time to say hello again....

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done it get hard but it won’t take away my love I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

(3 Doors Down)