back on track

back on track..
that's what i do during this week, still i can't make any decission as i want to do, but indeed i make a good decission, and i'm happy for that.
last weekend i was feeling bad, as i move too fast but he didn't but now i'm the one who held the key. if he's leaving me, no problem, because i know i've done my best.
and by the way i like this quotation...
Don't marry the person you think you can live with; marry only the individual you think you can't live without. James C. Dobson

..........once i make a mistake..

kuman di tepi laut tampak, gajah di pelupuk mata tidak terlihat. pernah dengar kan peribahasa ini.
i know i make a mistake just like another gurl, and if i could turn the time i prefer to seal my lips instead of saying that words. i will rather lay back and relax and enjoy the time spent together.
..and now after what happen what should i do next?
i think the only solutions is being a calm girl, don't push too much, after all i know that i've done the best thing.
so now just wait and see and believe in time, with hope that time will bring me the good one.
i'm sure will....

So it is.........?

i must let my friend continue his life.
one day without his news, his voice (the way he called me sayang sangat pas!)
we know something growing inside but too bad he doesn't want to comprimized
and i should decide, i can't continue waiting on his list.
so even it breaks my heart, the choose are made.
although part of my mind still questioning if i stay could he try?
but i know that i will be proud because there were times when he belongs to me, when we share the laughter and tears together.

..saying goodbye is never an easy way to do

almost cried when i heard you say you want to stay besides me forever (sampai kapanpun)....

i never thought i'll be able to say good bye but last time i saw you, i said that and the cost for that? i broke my heart too.

there's a cost for everything, if i stay and choose you, i lost something and if i choose to say good bye i lost the best thing in my life.

i choose to leave, even this good bye never an easy way to made, but what is life after all? hidup adalah pilihan..life is a choice!

No need credit card

Senin lalu tagihan kartu kredit datang. Minimum ammount, 50,000 IDR. Total ammount 120,000 IDR untuk keanggotaan selama setahun, dengan bunga 3,25%
Selama gue punya kartu kredit, hanya 3 atau 4 kali gue pakai, selebihnya always used debet card. Tanpa berpikir panjang, gue tutup aja itu kartu. Ketika gue telpon CS BII, di tanya mengapa ibu mau menutup kartunya? alasannya... saya tidak butuh mba (dan jawaban ini sangat memuaskan mba CS) terbukti tidak ada lagi pertanyaan tambahan.
Tahun 2006 ini bentar lagi usai, bisa ngga yah dalam 4 bulan gue nabung 4 juta untuk jalan-jalan ke KL dan Sin or at least Singapore dulu. hehe..
I wish gue punya 100 juta aja, gue mau invest aja.. masukan dalam deposito atau main dalam danareksa.
Kapan yah tabungan gue bisa segitu????

thank God i found you..

if you keeping me warm each and every night i'll be alright !
and now i'm thankfull because i found you here, completed my whole life. looking back the years, now i realized something happen in the purpose.
even masih belum jelas kapan dan bagaimana paling tidak satu tahapan telah usai, yaitu pacaran di dunia maya. Huahaha..so finally he's back to the country where poverty is the common things.
tahapan-tahapan yang laen sepertinya lebih simple, just wait and relax everything is gonna be okay! that's what i believe, i know that i don't expect much but i love the way he smile, his tender voice can make me smile too. i enjoy his companion but i know he can make me feel 'burn' and it's enough for me.