24 August 2006

the x-files..mantan mantan (tersayang)

a week full of temptation and so much fun :D & yes still i enjoy the game that continue playing :P
a long time ago after second broke up with the same (mantan) i prayed to God that i don't want to see him again not until i have a new bf. silly prayers isn't?
and then time brought me met a new guy that so nice, and we started to go dated and when finally he asked to be my bf, i feel i will make a bad decission if i stay with him. i didn't feel i miss him when he's not around, i feel we just stays as a friend. and as i predict before he will not waiting for long to find a new girl, but we still a good friend, we keep in touch and he played a good host when i visited him. isn't great? and then my notte mind curious to find out if i still in his heart or not, then i got conclusion he's move on and continue life. i'll be happy if he's happy specially when he's found out someone that could cherish him and love him as he want to be.
the other mantan..i have a short crush with more than one guy but now i don't feel it relevant to discuss it because we just go on dated and decide we can't move on to another level.
finally i met a new and old guy, i've known him before, and we try to go on date but until now we didn't go for a date :P
something that makes me dare to dream again, i miss him if he's not around, and i feel something the last time we meet before he's leaving..something that i can't described it (not yet)
sometimes i feel unsure but i never let my doubt wraped me, everytime i feel that way, i prefer to think positively. but temptation comes when we less expect it :P one day he said he feels unsure (ragu) because of that i realized i walk to fast and i leave him behind. he's a kind of person who starts falling in love in a slow way! and i'm a big believer that love at first sight can be happen!
and i think i meet someone that knocks me off. i finally found someone that i want to hug and be besides him each day. i try not to gave him attention because i don't want to start falling to him until i can't hide anymore that the feeling is going strong.

cinta itu seperti permainan menakutkan di pekan raya--sewaktu di dalamnya kau ingin keluar, dan ketika di luar kau ingin segera masuk kembali.
"rasanya amat menyenangkan bisa bersama seseorang yang membuatku tertarik tapi di sisi lain aku takut kau akan membuatku patah hati" (dikutip dari buku the ex-files mantan-mantan tersayang oleh Jane moore)

11 August 2006

great july, great sale, travel til you drop






not just sale, big discount held in july, since july is a summer, for most of the people living on earth, july is a love month, when love starts on summer and ended in winter? i hope not..not at all. remember positive thinking, you can be what ever you wanna be.
last july, i went traveling (which is one of my hobbies) with cousins and a friend of mine. jakarta tour, bogor, bandung tour and at the end of july i went to bogor again.

10 August 2006

...anything could happen...

What makes you feel comfort aja, it's fine with me honey. Trying to think positive in everything I do, I just enjoy the moment.
I don't know the future but I know, God will not give me anything I couldn't handle it. Gue rasa Tuhan membentuk gue dengan caranya, yang in time I will know it, dengan masalah-masalah yang gue temui, dengan pilihan-pilihan yang disediakan.
So, if you are the one, that I will choose, I believe we could work it out.
You are so vulnerable, so that's why I can't ask more and more. It's enough to be thankfull for everything happens in my life.
To where you are..I'm everything I am because you love me.
For made me woke up earlier, for calling me at 2 AM or 5 AM in the morning, for holding my hands in your arms, for kissing me and hugging me. For making me buying a new dress to attend some parties, for made me shampoo my hair everyday so you can sniff at, and for made me waiting your sms and calls, for every words 'sayang' that comes out from your lips, I cherish everything you gave to me.

07 August 2006

Hold on one more day..

aaaahhh..

satu hari lagi

bertahan

berpikir positif

membayangkan yang indah aja

full of love

i just want one more day dan seperti hari ini

my cell start beeping and I know someone out there miss me

aaah...

one more day

I wanna feel like this

forever....