So this is love?

Dia katakan, punya pacar itu 'masalah' dan aku bilang tidak punya pacar juga masalah. As long as we lived there always been a trouble and problems to solved.
Last night I keep repeating what he said..the things that matters to me, important thing, something that nowdays people think it doesn't matters anymore. I hate to accept that he agreed with most of the people living in this world. But what can I do? if he thinks that way and keep asking that..he might be soon loosing me.
So this is love? when you love someone deeply and honestly? but for one reason you can't compromised anymore. It's not done yet..

U are my hopes & doubts

a little bit each day, everytime the doubts starting to control my emotions, i said a little prayer.
hoping that this hopes not ended hopelessly.
sometimes i was so sure with this feeling and sometimes i got weak when i see the future.
Oh..angel would you please lend me a wing so i could feel a little believe in my soul?
give me your wings so i could back to the future to see that this way is the right path for me?
i want a long lasting happiness..
but what's the meaning of happiness?

• if my family happy, then i can say i have a happy life?
• if i get the dreaming job?
• if i have much money to spend?
• if i have a handsome and loyal husband?
• if i have a beautiful house?
• if i have my own business?
• if i enjoy the time i spent with family and friends?

or maybe when i have a good health and job and still have a money in purse to spend?