..Only time..

reading my blog again today, i can't believed i wrote those things in here. here is what i wrote a year ago.. many times what we have been predicted before never happen, or getting worse..but many times what we never wish for...come to our way and bring so much joy and laughter !
how come i've thought that way? perhaps it's called maturity? ketika kita bisa menertawakan apa yang telah kita alami di masa lalu.
only time who can heal our pain, and only time who can answer it, wethere we can forgive it or not. karena masih suasana lebaran, yang katanya bulan ramadhan dimana kita kembali ke fitrah (btw fitrah apa sih?) baiknya meminta maap dan memaapkan orang yang pernah menyakiti dan tersakiti, agar kita bisa membuat kesalahan yang sama? hehehe..
hmm..meminta maaf dan memaafkan sama sulitnya, karena ego kita, kalau nurutin ego pasti kita berpikir iih ngapain gue minta maaf sama dia or dia yang salah harusnya dia yang minta maaf. kalau kita punya banyak cinta kita bisa lebih mudah memaafkan orang lain. namun karena kita manusia yang mahluk egois yah begini lah kita, meminta maaf saja penuh pertimbangan dan prasangka.
But sebenarnya lebih baik mempunyai sikap tulus ketika kita memafkan bukan hanya lip service aja ketika kita meminta maaf dan meminta maaf.
maafin gue yah dengan segala kekurangan sebagai manusia.

adakah

adakah kutemui yang lain seindah bulan di waktu purnama?

adakah kudapatkan bila kuminta engkau di sisiku

seiring waktu yang terus melintas tanpa pernah berputar

kuingin engkau seperti teman seperjalanan

mengiringi setiap langkah kakiku

terus tanpa pernah lelah

mengayunkan kaki

kadang berjalan pelan, kadang berlari

jangan pernah berhenti

karena rasa itu terus bertumbuh

aku yang menyayangimu

100 % sure

Have you ever feel 100 % sure in making one decission?
Mungkin tidak perlu 100% yakin tapi lebih dari 65% yakin saja sudah cukup untuk membuat keputusan yang baik. I learn my lesson, don't make any decission that against your heart. Once your heart doubted it will lead you to bad choice.
Semua orang bisa memberikan masukan, saran dan pengalaman-pengalaman mereka, tapi in the end i listen to my heart.
Biar kata hati menjadi kompas dalam membuat pilihan!

..a long way to find the answer

i've been trying my best to make this relations stay on track but sometimes even a machine out of orders too. what about the heart of human? sometimes bleeding, sometimes colorfull, sometimes need to break to continue running.
i can fool everybody but i can't fool myself anylonger...
i need a time of my own, to listen my heart, so i can prepare for the next step.
why it takes me so long to have the answer of my questions and why now?

(stay committed to your decisions; but stay flexible in your approach)

good luck with your existing plan!

i believe something happen in purpose, it hurts a little when he said that things, it means he doesn't want to be included in my plan. but actions speaks louder than words. he can says a millions things about his plans but too late, he said that when the things already louzy. actually what is inside someone heart and mind it's the first time comes out from his/her mouth..
He's not trusting his heart to anyone.. and he doesn't want to get hurt anymore, but he did know.
and i learn a WOMAN SHOULD KNOW ... When to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...
this time i choose to walk away!