causin's wedding

Some pictures from Anin's wedding sacrament..
This wedding ceremony was held in Javanese tradition.
Congratulations for both of them..
As I predict before, aunty gives me a question, when is my turn? and I said next year !! (though I dunno what's year)
I don't really bother it much since I know marriage sometimes can be easy and not easy..it's a matter of choice and time..

..thesis defended on dec, 10

Start from 3 AM in the morning I can't sleep anymore, I was so nervous with my big day, even I already doing some preparation but my body was so alert..
then..at 8 AM, my cell was ringing, mom called said she's waiting downstair..here we go the battle just start it. Some friends comming to watch my court..even mom was attending too, Tina, Salman, Jimmy, Peny, and Vanny were my supporter !
so..at 11 AM, the chief start the opening and then the examiner lecturer start questioning me some long questions..thank God I can answered all the question..and not long after that I was told that I passed the examination and graduated from Faculty of Social Science & Politics University of Indonesia.
and after that, party was held by my brother we ate at Italian restaurant for lunch, and my cell start beeping some of my friends send congrutulation wishing...
Thanks God once again and thanks friend for the support & prayer, and to my family I love you much..your support was my motivation and inspired me to achieve what I always want it !

..my heart pump-in

3 days start from now I will have a big day, Saturday comes so fast..tik..tik..tik the clock can't stop it. Everybody told me that everything is gonna be okay, my friends, my parents, I hope everything will be running so smooth. Oh can't wait any longer...
so this time just prepare the best I can do, the rest is I put on HIS hand.

down, desperate, hate..(the negative emotion)

After thinking over and over, and trying to see in the bright side, but today I feel I lost my patience ! I think I lost all motivation to work on this company, everything seems so unpleasure, I start to think that my job always repeating, and lack of new chalenge and journey !
so today my negative emotions seems winning my day, and I hate to tell everybody about that !
It seems I should rewind my mind, what's the main reason I still stay in this job :
1. I still working on my thesis and not yet graduated 2. no other job offer to me 3. hoping that I can continue my study abroad 4. maybe I could have a good refference by knowing a good professor and dean.
I think the most reason I still stay is not yet graduate and for study abroad !

the SUN rise next to my apartment

If is not because I'm writing my thesis I'm gonna miss this remarkable VIEW..wooow...at 6.15 in the morning..
each morning i woke up in the hurry, never have time to see the sun rise..
each morning i woke up with so many list to do..never have time to thank that today the sun rise once more..

mothers n daughters...

we are daughters and mothers..
we give and take but you give me more than I do..
you keep me warm with your love..
you always told that sky is the limit..
and i learn from you mother is a full time job and never be over till it's over..
i love you..

Last night i go for shopping for mom birthday presents, I start with a plan buy mom a white clotch and ended with a cream hand bag. I know recently she got a hard time, understanding my dad is never an easy way, she wants to make sure everything is happy, we (her children), daughter in law and grand son always taking your time too much. But you know Mom everything that you do is right, but sometimes we see it in another point of view, sorry for making you dissapointed..don't stop giving your love.

Dolce Vita

...yeah it's about my thesis, yesterday i meet my dean and she said, one week from now i have to finished my thesis..
ooh my heart start pounding, since soon i have to put a bachelor degree after my last name.
he e ehhehe..this is what i'm waiting for, but when finally comes in front of me, i feel exiting and a little scared.
and last night instead of doing my thesis, i watch bewitched n while you are sleeping. The second movie is one of my favorite..everytime i watch this movie i never see it completely, and last night too, half part yes, but then i feel asleep.
so..today and 2morrow will keep myself avere entusiasmo ! working on my thesis..

43 things to do?? I think 25 is more than enough !!

Early this morning i've seen a blog called 43 things.com, there I find people put their things to do, plan, and wishes. Well I don't think that my list will be that long...

so let's see how long is gonna be my list :
1. finish my thesis
2. praying more..specially rosary
3. go traveling to KL & Illigan (meet my lovely sis)
4. having serious relationship (commited)
5. spent my time more for mom n dad (family)
6. saying i love you more to people i care about
7. in love n being loved by a man which is the same faith with me
8. deposit my money
9. donate more
10. buy an electronic stuff (digital camera, TV flat, web cam ext.)
11. better job with more money
13. learn italy
14. study or working abroad
15. read more n watch less
16. exercise more
17. start my own family
18. doing volunteer
19. buy a car
20. having my own business
21. live in a house with good temperature n good neighborhood
22. surrounded by family n good friends
what else?? that's all i think at this moment..

how bout you??

Mr Right VS mr RIGHT now

Masih topik tentang yang berhubungan dengan cinta, suka atau tidak, mau tidak mau hidup itu indah kalau kita punya banyak cinta yang bisa dibagikan ke banyak orang.
Memutar rekaman kaset kehidupan gue, banyak banget di tahun ini gue kenal sama orang, baik yang menarik, yang menyebalkan, dan juga yang memang mengharuskan gue kenal tuh orang! but betul kalo friendship is hard to find karena ga banyak yang terus bertahan "sepanjang waktu".
Loh sebenarnya gue mau cerita tentang mr right now kan, heeeh Mr. Right Now menurut gue itu seseorang yang karena berbagai alasan dan keadaan membuat gue bertemu dengannya. Adakalanya gue bersamanya pada hitungan minggu, bulan dan juga tahun! me and him sharing manis dan pahitnya hidup ini. Bisa aja karena sesuatu hal kita berpisah! dan kemudian I meet another Mr. Right now, so gue akan pilih mr right now then mr. right karena gue masih bingung mendeskripsikan MR. RIGHT, apakah mr right itu orang yang almost sempurna? atau karena itu mr. khayalan? But I learn apa yang menurut gue "right" ternyata orang itu tidak memandang gue ms. right, dan kadang yang gue pandang sebelah mata, malah he is mr. right now.
so don't expect much and don't hurry, but don't go slowly !

tell me quando..quando

This post is inspired by the song title "quando" by michael buble..recently almost everyday I heard this music played by local radio.

Tell me when will you be mine/Tell me quando quando quando/We can share a love devine/Please don't make me wait again/When will you say yes to me/Tell me quando quando quando/You mean happiness to me/Oh my love please tell me when...

thanks for making my day looks great, thanks for saying i'm almost perfect, (gee I never felt that way), i deliver a short prayer for you today..for your happiness.. maybe one fine day, when we finally aggreed to put behind our difference and just hold on to what we believe and being able to used the word us and no longer YOU and ME..
one sweet day..but quando..quando..

>>for the person that a minutes ago i said that i miss you

SELAMAT L E B A R A N

libur telah tiba..libur telah tiba..
senangnya..
gue mau pergi camping..wowwww..
I'll miss my time sitting in front of computer and browsing and waiting my buddy online buzz me and IM me..
haahhh..gonna eat..eat..and sleepping while holiday so till I'm back from my holiday you guys take care..!!
will be miss u

Thesis

It's enough bout script (THESIS) today..dizzy dizzy..tinggal tunggu perbaikan trus..ketik lagi yang perlu..trus sidang deeh. IS that so simple? maybe..if you think life is simple then it would be.
Pagi ini jalanan dah mulai sepiii..bentar lagi lebaran mungkin dah banyak orang mudik. Gue suka banget kalo pas lebaran Jakarta aga lengang bisa buat main bola kaki di jalan raya :-p hari Rabu mulai libur trus tanggal 9 Nopember masuk lagi..iih ngapain yaah gue..
Mba Ima sms tadi asking about my plan..aaaah mau dong pergi kemana gitu "killing my time"
sebelum kembali pusing lagi dengan skripsi..oh iya mesti ke rumah dosen, ambil revisi..aah kecil..pokoknya "fun-fun" and ga perlu mikir terlalu berat, beli VCD/DVD, novel, makanan kecil (foods) ?? shopping..shopping!!!

...............intersection road......

i believe there is a time to meet and to say goodbye.
i know in each of intersection..i will meet new people, some can be a potential friend, some were my old friend and more than one can be my candidate boy friends.
sometimes it started for a simple thing, a common background, common interest, something that we never expected before..
many times what we have been predicted before never happen, or getting worse..but many times what we never wish for...come to our way and bring so much joy and laughter !
so..the most important in relationship bukan berapa banyak kita putus, tapi berapa banyak kita bangkit lagi setelah kegagalan.

...love H U R T S

Last night I read a tabloid and one of the article is about LOVE HURT. It's an interesting article since some girls writing their experience about how love could be so "cruel" and after I read it comes to my mind to put in my blog.

For girls who just being dumped..once including me (hahahaa)..we don't need to feel the world is over, coz' there are so many-many girls out there had the same experience as we do or even worse than we have. All the girls who share her experience, all are pretty, all are smart, but in life remember theres is a time for everything. So for you who still sad, lost and hate your "ex boy friend" remember, everything comes in a purpose. Don't go sad and lost too long because the key reason why he dumped you was he don't deserve to have your love...

Here I quote what the girl's tabloid wrote

so..let's start experience number one:

"sehari sebelum putus dia bilang sayang banget pada saya eh..ngga tahunya besoknya dia langsung minta putus! saya baru tahu kalau ada orang ketiga. Setelah kejadian itu, kerjaan saya menangis dan menangis, mogok makan, sampai semua keluarga ikut turun tangan"

number two:

"tanpa firasat apapun, aku mengiyakan ajakan pacar buat ketemuan dan makan malam di sebuah restoran. Aku pikir bakal ada makan malam romantis, karena suasana kafenya romantis banget. Ternyata, begitu kami duduk dia langsung bilang kalau ngga bisa melanjutkan hubungan kami. Gubrak!"

number three:

"saya diputusin pacar seminggu sebelum ujian skripsi, tanpa alasan tidak jelas pula. Saya menangis semalaman, sampai-sampai teman sekos heboh"

see..boys sometimes dumped you in a silly reasons, but you can do the same too (dumped your boy friend) but...my advice (in this case I try to be expert !!)

for the girls who intend to dumped your Boy Friend just because you falling in love with someone else, please think over and over again...coz' once you make the "hole" in his heart, he might be forgive you but not forgotten. So make a good reason if you want to break up.

GAMBATTENE

--sedikiiiiit lagiiiii sampai deh di sidang !!!!!
--semangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttt
harus bikin abstrak, daftar isi, daftar pustaka, terus direvisi, terus sidang dech
iiccchhh cuma segini aja..
iccchhh ngeriiii
sidang gitu looh
abis lebaran maju sidang.
ayooooo lekas wujudkan
Gunakan waktu untuk hal-hal besar

.the words that i like to use recently

"walah"
"aaaah"
"ga penting"
"kesel"
"case closed"
"ada deh"
"setuju"
"where are you from"
one word that can describe my feeling now:
"kangen"

i miss you so bad !!

MY WEDDING INVITATION

HUAAAHAHAHA...
GOTCHA..
you thought it was real, huh..
today i post a bulletin boards on my friendster and at subject i said my wedding invitation..so the first person who believe my trick is my colleague.
there is a smile in my face...heheehe..you know guys if i want to get marry, i'll send you a real invitation not only on FS.
wekekekekehhh.
so today i meet a new online friend, and i found out he has a gift.
He said.."jangan mencari, let God arrange it for you" yeahhh let somebody find me, isn't?

to the world maybe i am just somebody but to somebody i am his world (really??)

This past two days..i sleep only 3 hours in the morning.
wuaaaaaaahhhhhhh (yawning) luckily "funny" accompanied me during my tired, desperate moment working on my thesis.
so..what's the related between the title with what I write here??? I just want to say, I am glad to have a friend like him..a friend like him nowdays is very rare.
He was postponed his sleeping time, because he knows I'm working for my thesis..so till I msg him that I done doing my thesis, he still woke up..
and..early in the morning..I had come to the conclusion, that he came home in the right time!

..what ever..

it's their life, it's their choice..it's up to them.
all i want they are happy, but if the condition like this, though i thought it's not the "perfect"
but what can i say, i think i'm hoping too much, i think i ask for much, higher than they could do.
So..what ever, what way they choose, i leave to them.
Seeing them like this only make my heart broken. i do what i can do, the rest is up to them!
but i pray for the good, that they can show their love each other.

KISAH ROMANTIS

my favorite song (this month)...sang by Glen Fredly, that are known as a musician who sing a sad song, but not this time!

mengejar dirimu takkan ada habisnya
membuat diriku menggila
bila hati ini menjatuhkan pilihan
apapun akan kulewati
hari ini sayang sangat penting bagiku
kau jawaban yg aku cari
kisah hari ini kan ku bagi denganmu
dengarlah sayang kali ini
permintaanku padamu
reff:
dan dengarlah sayangku
aku mohon kau menikah denganku
ya hiduplah denganku
berbagi kisah hidup berdua
cincin ini sayang terukirkan namamu
begitu juga di hatiku
hujan warna-warni kata orang tak mungkin
namun itu mungkin bagiku
sebuah tanda cintaku

as a girl i wonder, is there any romantic guy who dare to ask (will you marry me) just like Glen? hehehe..it's too good to be true?
anyway yesterday was my "suitor" birthday...wish you all the best, but sorry to say i don't feel the same and i don't have a heart to love you as you do..and everytime i saw your eyes, i feel guilty. Coz' your eyes telling millions thing!
life is a mystery but i believe too that we write our own story and everytime i think i know the end. I don't!

..tired, sleppy, but it's worthed

..I'm sleepy coz i don't have enough sleep but the amazing thing i feel so fresh this morning and walking very fast to office. But after lunch when my stomach is full i just noticed i feel sleepy, i hope i don't fall asleep at my desk. ....the reason i woke this morning, too early was i try to beat myself, i mean the laziness. The teacher encourage me to finish my thesis as soon as possible..so been working till 86 pages...semangat..semangat !!! today got time to check some interesting website, first website is owned by my friends, or i think so since i don't know for sure, when i had meet her, perhaps on cyber world. She is a writer and been published some novels for teenager consumption, but even i'm no longer (sometimes i pretend to be) teenager, i like to read her novel, i mean her site, not yet buy her novel

lukisan hujan

Second the blog, I completely dunno her, because i get the link from

Roy

her blog

is tipically girl blog, with lot of topics talking bout love and romance and boys (dream man)..yes tweenty something (SINGLE) but be happy because always have a romance.

..busy entertaint friendzzz

From monday up today, my friendzzz visiting me, it was surprising me, because these friends are been a while I din't meet them.
Today my friend Vany Nihon, I call him that way, because he's so crazy with Nipon/Japan stuff n always asking my news with the words, genki? the short from genki desuka?
He just finishing his study at Kroningen Netherland (i hope this is the right spell), coming and we got lunch together.
So happy to see them, because what makes you happy when you are tweenty something and single? you are sorounding by friends which we can share our experience. We are laugh together since our problem is the same, "beating ourselves". The key to be survive in this world is beat yourself !! the same topic I discuss with Roy earlier this morning.

Thanks friends...

botanical garden BOGOR part 2

more picture at Kebun Raya Bogor...

Buitenzorg (Bogor)

Last saturday got a chance to visit Kebun Raya Bogor (botanical garden). By train me and Bo went there, and only spend money 2000 rupiahs from depok to buy an economic class train and then 1000 rupiahs for "angkutan kota" or small car (public transportation car). To enter Kebun Raya every person should pay 5.500, so the total is 8.500 to breath deeply (the air still good) and spoil your eyes 'coz everywhere you look all green (big trees n flowers).

I put a little about the history of Kebun Raya Bogor :
Buitenzorg is the usual residence of the governor-general of the Dutch East Indies, and is further remarkable on account of its splendid botanical garden and for its popularity as a health resort. The botanic gardens are among the finest in the world; they originally formed a part of the park attached to the palace of the governor-general, and were established in 1817. Under J. S. Teysmann, who became hortulanus ~fl 1830, the collection was extended, and in 1868 was recognized as a government institution with a director. The palace of the governor-general was founded by Governor-General van Imhoff in 1744, and rebuilt after being destroyed by an earthquake in 1834. Buitenzorg is also the seat of the general secretary of the state railway and of the department of mines. Buitenzorg, which is called Bogor by the natives, was once the capital of the princess of Pajajaran.

..My Nemo is Coming..

Rasa penasaran itu udah hilang, it's about one man, yang dulu sempat bikin gue panasaran, kalo inget dulu..gue suka terima sms dari dia, sms yang gue pikir sekarang ga penting, tapi dulu jelas bikin gue “wondering”, bikin gue senang..hehehee..
Sampai akhirnya rasa penasaran itu tertutup dengan hal lain yang lebih penting, tertutup dengan nama-nama lain. Benar juga kalo hidup itu ga selamanya harus alur maju, kadang juga alur flashback, tapi waktu tetap jalan terus, cuma ‘emosi’ yang bikin kita ngerasa mundur.

So..this morning my ‘Nemo’ comes visiting me, I know dia juga penasaran, dan ga lebih dari itu! Gue bahkan dah melupakan dia..but I just being polite with a friend. Masih pagi baru juga 30 menit di kantor, eh my cell ringing “naughty girl” then I saw his name di layar cell gue…mmmm it’s nemo calling“halo” terus dia nanya dimana, yah di kantor dong, terus gue tanya mau kesini? Akhirnya gue pandu dia walau sempat kesasar juga..terus akhirnya gue samperin dia di mobil..begitu gue dah dekat mobilnya, dia keluar, terus salaman (though actually I like to kiss him on cheek) hehehe..

Ehh gue sempat masuk mobilnya juga siih..terus dia nunggu gue kerja, gue mesti ngetik surat dulu, terus gue ajak dia ke perpustakaan, gue tanya acaranya gimana, dia bilang janjian ama temannya di kemayoran. Gue tanya udah makan belum, katanya belum. Oke gue pilih tempat yang menurut gue nyaman, di atas kayaknya lucu juga (takor ooh takor). Kelihatannya siih dia senang banget (ciiieeeeeh) makan taoge goreng sama minum jus. Aaaah sebenarnya sih pengen berlama-lama tapi kan gue kerja.

During our conversations I don’t ask about his girlfriend or anything related to his love story, I don’t want to know!!!..we are just friend n I don’t think it’s matter for me to ask that. He said someday he wants to open "sekolah kepribadian" tapi bukan buat model..yang ini ngasih seminar-seminar to motivated people. I think di luar sana dah banyak deh seminar-seminar seperti ini! Good luck for the future!!

N i found out today, ternyata he’s not that damn good looking, but dia wangi, rapi, n nice wardrobe (a man that most of girls whish for) and he’s soft spoken. Satu lagi dia ga bisa nahan pipis (hehheehe) yang terakhir sama ama gue!Sementara gue hari ini malez pake alas bedak, malaz pake blush on..just the way Iam dengan dandanan yang minimalis, but I have a nice smile plus a good heart that’s what I think the most important thing in this world! A smile can tell many thing..can tell who you are

>>nemo is a character in cintapucino novel, which is one of my favorite novel. The novel is about a girl who obsessed with one man.

dying inside

i wanna touch you now and then make you mine till the end of my life.
i'm dying inside to wish that someday you'll be mine.
i'm afraid that one day i woke up and knowing you already tooken or i'm too late to have you.
i'm worry that i don't try harder to make you mine...
what a blue monday, wishing you are here, but in reality only me who dying inside.

this post is a picture of my heart (hati yang mengkronis)

picture of you..

..i know somebody who reads this post, will think i'm a religious girl, but this what happen to my life so far or at least yesterday. I accompanied my mom to sunday service..i have a strong wish to see "him" (can not mentioned his name yet) 'coz I dunno yet his name, though to know his name all i need just one single call to her sis!
....so long not to see him, but i dunno why i like him, i don't even know his name, his character, but i'm doing a "silent operation"...hehehehhe, my silent operation is PRAY. Then I asked to God, please let me see him once again, and let me know him. Soooo....it is shocked me 'coz after mass, when I try to look for food, God bring him right in front of me (oh my God) then I shake his hand..I really touch him, his palm!
......see.."His" plan is beautiful in time, but for those (including me) who not patient to see God working, will not understand that God need time too!!
.........Thanks God......

write our own story

"i believe we write our own story and each time we know the end we don't"

...just when I know this gonna be last..it wont..just when I predict this gonna be the end, it wont stop. Just when I hope this gonna be followed with beautiful things it turn out to be nothing..

i learn to dream and to achieve my dream, but i learn in the same time "don't hope too much" there so many factors in life that 1 + 1 many times never 2.

.....if we know nothing 'bout life..we need to raise our hand to ask God for his mercy and providance...

>> this posting is dedicate to all my friend and my future friends..if you wish to be my future friend message me at zita.henny@gmail.com have a nice day !

...THE WEDDING DATE

This post was inspired by the wedding date movie.
A friend recommended this movie..and last night I watched it. In one of the scene, the girl which is Kat realized, her ex-fiancee only a jerk that don't deserved her love, her respect at all..and it takes 7 years to understand it!
Kat trying hard to impress her family and of course her ex, by bringing an eligible bachelor home!
(hell) I've been in that position, and the only reason why I did that, I want him to respect me, and I don't want him to feel sorry and I want him to regret because he dumped me.

But I learn yesterday, the truth is he's just a jerk, he just a coward and he never learn anything..and the only reason we separated is he don't deserved to have me!

I'm so J A D E D today..

..so jaded today..the works is so boring..upss can't say that, i love my work but sometime I wanna escape from routine work!
that's all

..start my own business

..noone introduce this business, though I know it's good to make some cash money besides my salary, all I need just call my friends, my mother's friends and show them the catalogue.
can you guess what is the business? my business is selling oriflame products or in other words direct selling plus multi level marketing.
...but here, I never plan to make my own group in short periods. Then..as time goes, I have one downline, and last month in just two weeks, I make profit 17, 600 + 26, 144 rupiahs, plus 50% discount for one product and one free product with the noted, the price not more than 50,000 rupiahs.

...I want to thanks to Rosa for her patient to assist me in this business. From zero to profit!
just showing the catalogue and sell and sell..

r o m a n c i a...........romance

internet romance? it's for real?
yesterday he's so angry because I didn't replied so soon. Each day I learn something about his character, about his attitude!
knowing someone out there thinking about me makes me Happy.
Maybe I'm just curious, maybe this not gonna be a long lasting relationship but maybe we can make it if we try..
in life full of options, and full of path way to go.. i take every step with positive mind!
just wait and see...

it's time for exhale..

how many years i know the truth? how many years more i know the second truth
i don't count the time, but i'm surprised the way i found out the truth!.........
apa yang udah terjadi di belakang ga usah ditengok-tengok..it's time for me to exhale.
ternyata ooh ternyata..
dia hanya sepenggal kisah..
yang hanya untuk dilupakan..
listen to your heart..even it seems unfair..but it is very worth it

..driving a car..

my Dad allowed me to bring his car, then I drove from home to office, with parents n uncle. Thanx uncle for the lesson! it's save..and I can manage my car very well, and of course God bless me!
it's a nice..nice journey driving at 6.40 AM in Jakarta..

woowww pegel..but FUN

yesterday first day joining fitness club..it's FUN specially my first experience on fitness equipment!
I'll do it for more than one hour and yesterday I have a personal "trainer", a sweet boy with red t'shirt! hehehe..if he comes everyday, i'll go everyday too, and he said bye-bye to me when he went home. A new friendship just begins!
Tanti pick me up when the training is over, will come back again soon sweety!

my NEW ROOM and my new DREAM ho..ho..ho

saturday, 6 August 2005
Finally I made my mind, last saturday, early in morning I move to other room. Still in the same house but my new room bigger than the old one.


sunday, 7 August 2005
I want to realize my dream participated in one beauty contest, not yet happen but I make a first move, by taking close-up picture at mall. He hee..he..just see the result!!
Tanti comes visited me too in the afternoon, she asked me to pick-up her goods at ofice, she's no longer in Pasca. Just wish you all the best..my lovely friend, I miss YOU!

..a k u hari i n i..

*pagi ini ga enak badan, hidung berlendir, mata berat banget,
*perut aga mules
*rasanya dingin, padahal AC-nya cuma 28 deg C
*buka email ga ada yang menarik
*lapar..masih nunggu office boy beliin makanan
*malezz kerja
*pengennya tidur
*gejala PMS
*i wanna go home

HARI KESEL SEDUNIA..kali yeeee

sebenarnya mo nulis hari ini hari ngeselin. Eiit tapi ga boleh ngomong gini..soalnya udah banyak dikasih ama Tuhan yang indah-indah..anggap aja hari ini hari LATIHAN MEMANJANGKAN KESABARAN...

sabaaaaaaaaaaaaaar suburrrrrr!!

Friday

menikmati hidup..enjoy every minute i spent with friends and family.
I've been showing my emotions, and now just continuing my life..
though sometimes i get tired but don't wanna give up

..i don't know nothing 'bout love

i thought when i get older, i will know more bout love, i will be more experience.."love doesn't make you smart", wise men said that. so when love hit me, i'm not well prepare but do love needs a reason? do i need a reason to love someone?

the song from counting crows were so nice to listen, see the lyrics.. even this (boys) band are not prepare when love comes!!! boys said woman are feel more than think, but once they (boys) fall in love..they go mad too.

So she said what's the problem baby--What's the problem I don't know--Well maybe I'm in love (love)--Think about it every time--I think about it--Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this--Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love) Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on --Turn a little faster--Come on, come on--The world will follow after
Come on, come on-- Cause everybody's after love
So I said I'm a snowball running-- Running down into the spring that's coming all this love Melting under blue skies--Belting out sunlight-- Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender-- To the strawberry ice cream--Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
We're accidentally in love --Accidentally in love

..you cant stop me to love you

I think love is a beautiful feelings towards that person whom u like with whom u like spending time with whom ur looking for whose every act u like whose presence always run in ur mind and without him/her u can't live.

M : and I want to say you I have same feelings for you
M : I love you
M : It doesn’t matter for me that u love me or not
M : caz It doesn’t necessary that a person whom I love will also love me definitely
but I must tell you, u can't stop me to love you
M : u know
M : Distance doesn't matter for me
M : I have lot of gals over here in Sydney
M : but I just looking for same feelings as u have
M : I never feel in love b4
M : Even I don’t have any GF b4
M : I know u wouldn’t believe me
M : I know its just our 2nd meeting
M : but I don’t think that it matters to say someone love
M : That’s it I want to say you
M : May be u'll not talk to me anymore

I aggreed with his definition about love..sometimes love can be so complicated but many times love is so simple. I'm happy to find out there's someone out there falling in love with me..the true happiness is whoever is happy will make others happy, too

another quotation from 'M'

"first looking first talking is enough to like someone"
"sometimes we know someone in first time and sometimes we take whole life to understand someone"

YEAH..LA..LA..LA

Wednesday afternoon my boss is out of office..so I could do anything else except finishing works.
Last night got so weird dream..i'm crying a loud. Awww..I don't know what's the meaning of my dream. My friend said, usually if you cry it means you'll be 'happy' in reality, is it so??
I do hope, because when you happy you can do everything.
so now start to singing...

Hey, baby my nose is getting big/I noticed it be growing when I been telling them fibs/Now you say your trust's getting weaker/Probably coz my lies just started getting deeper/And the reason for my confession is that I learn my lesson/And I really think you have to know the truth/Because I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more/But after I did it I don't know what I did it forI admit that I have been a little immature/Fucking with your heart like I was the predator/In my book of lies I was the editor/And the author I forged my signature/And now I apologise for what I did to you/Cos what you did to me I did to you

--try to pleased my heart, because all my friends has just finished their thesis--

my lucky day..tUesDay??

hi there..you got a nice smile, as i saw your pic. Another introduction, another try. One thing in my mind I'm tired of another introduction. But remember of looking a job, you try..and try..untill u succeded..it's better to try it or you'll regreat it.
when you less expected it maybe the one you looking for..
just be optimistic

One Night at Kuta, Bali

This photo was taken by my friend..after doing rafting then visiting Antonio Blanco's Museum..we ate bebek goreng Bali..at one finest restaurant, actually not the food but the atmosphere that you can't forget..next to restaurant there is a field of rice.

Java from above..

I'm not sure with this mountain..but I think it is Bromo mountain.
I love if someday I climb or doing tracking in this mountain

Tanti's Birthday

It's so me..forgot to wish my best friend birthday. Yesterday was Tanti's Birthday and she asking me for a date (she treat me) then we have a dinner just the two of us in KFC. ha..ha.ha eventhough I knew she doesn't know when was my birthday because I keep changing my profile at Friendster..
...anyway it's good to spent sometime with girl friend, and the subject of our conversation still about unlucky love and a boy. You..who claims himself as a boy who happens to write this should be proud because we (girl) and I should confess that we always talking about you...guys..although I will denied it because this subject I had erased from my topic list of conversations.

ya..ya..ya..

about one 'good' man that i saw during the mass. he's got everything that all girls are wish. he's got a style, he's got the look, he's got a good career (i guess). but too bad all informations about him are blocked..or i never intended to search?
hmm..how are you georgeous ?
the fact is i couldn't blow him out of my mind..and just to see the way he move, it would be enough for me. yeah i'm one of his biggest fans. His secret admire. Have you ever be a secret admire just what i did now?

it's good just like one of my favorite song "just my imagination..running away with me.."

..Lovely Monday..

..It's Monday and I feel G R E A T..
yesterday was my Bro wedding's anniversary..and again I forgot to bring camera to capture the "moment" so early in the morning the activity was begun. We went to church and this time was at Katedral because Mom's choir participate on Morning Mash then I meet my Bro and his wife there..his hair needs to cut off I think.
Then we had lunch together, my first Bro and his family also there. We ate Pizza, the only Italian food that I like!! then my sis in law family join us (full team) ..oh yeah we had lunch at Artha Gading Mall again, since the park still free.
After lunch I visited my Bro's house, he's living in Menteng Metropolitan, then I went to Yudi's house, his house near Senen Station. Finally I know where my Brothers lives!!
So here I'm early in the morning without taking bad (hehehehe) I go to office. 7:24 AM I have arrived in the office..

what is all about

I just recovered from my illness..since last Thursday I was sick and I've had leave my job for two days. Kinna lazy to start all over again..so this morning I just type something in my blog. It's good finally I could write something and read something. Back to the days when I was sick, my mom borrow a catholic magazine. I read a lot to kill my times since the TV program wasn't good, everytime I push one channel comes up Cut Keke story or Nia Daniati story.. is it so hard to maintain marriage relationship?

Talking about found out one good man sometimes it could be an interesting topic, but sometimes it could be so nasty.. what if don't think, don't feel and don't act? A desperate and hopeless girl I become. You know..when I was sick I was thinking much and everything become so heavy in my mind, I realize we can't live alone in this world, especially when you are sick, you need someone to be there, a person who cares about you and a person who can cheer you up.

I have one right now..but for how long? Life is uncertain some said like that but if we believe in Jesus there's always a hope and life is always certain.. Just begins everything in the name of HIM.

Team Work..day third June, 13 2005 at Ayung river Ubud, Bali

Bali 11-14 June 2005

..about him..

If I should describe him in one word, definetly I'll say he is amazing. He drove thousand kilometres early in the morning to drove me to airport. I think that's one thing that could melt my heart, too bad we are not in the same team.
In this way, I couldn't ask for more. Usually I will ask, Dear God, could you change into..bla..bla..but this time I don't, I enjoyed the time we spend..maybe I had give up to searched and hope. I only closed my eyes and make a wish, Dear God, would you give me a strength to accept everything that I can't change and to change everything that I could change and I could always feel the beauty in every thing that you gave me. He came in his strange way..so I start to miss that?

TerreCalde

Two weeks ago I have an offer from someone to be the reporter. What I did was simple just send an essay or writing talk about what happen in my country. When I heard this news I don't really take seriously since I have an offer from someone that I know in cyber world, but nowdays everything done by computer, the old fashion way like meet somebody in the train, bus, or maybe mall are no longer easily happen, since now everybody suspicious with stranger.

In short, I talk with this man a couple times via YM then here I go..my name is written in their website, and my report is in there too.

take a look on http://www.terrecalde.it/indonesia/Henny%20Report%20June%209.htm

Jalani aja yang di depan Mata!

Semalam ga sengaja ketemu teman, dia cerita ga betah kerja di tempat yang sekarang, merasa tertipu karena bayaran yang kecil dan kerjaan yang banyak. Life is unfair..emang betul, kadang kita terkaget-kaget kalau membandingkan diri dengan gaji teman-teman yang lain, rasanya koq mereka dengan mudah dapat kerjaan dan gaji yang banyak just because she's pretty or just because she's born in rich family.

Sementara 'we' yang lahir dari keluarga yang biasa-biasa dan punya tampang yang biasa-biasa aja, memulai segala sesuatu dengan susah payah. Cari kerjaan, akhirnya dapat setelah melalui berkali-kali interview, terus giliran dah kerja dan mau lanjutin kuliah..harus cari duit sendiri untuk membiayai kuliah. Ehmm ga gampang kan??

Tapi gue teringat dengan kata-kata seorang kandidat Doktor bidang keuangan yang gue wawancara untuk skripsi gue "Saya sekolah, yang saya cari tantangannya", kalau gue, sekolah selain untuk kemajuan diri sendiri dan mungkin karir juga cari teman baru yang be there di saat senang dan susah, I am looking for a TRUE Friend! dan bukannya sebelum gue kuliah gue ga menemui, ada donk tapi gue mau nambah deretan (list) teman-teman baru.

Sampai disini tujuan gue dah tercapai!

So, I think once we heard an advice from a fool, kita jadi ikut-ikutan bodoh. Gue teringat sebuah lagu yang gue lupa siapa yang nyanyi -- I don't wanna take an advice from a fool.

Now..I try to used my brain. Gue pikir ini hidup gue. Melihat ke atas itu penting so we know our position, but don't look up on the sky too long. We should be thankfull, at least we got a job eventhough still not our best job. But we are trying to make our job looks fabulous and spend your money to help the poorer.

take a look on us, me and her wearing the same cardigan..smooth yellow. I think it's a great colour makes you look more younger!! this photo was taken using my camera phone last friday.

Pizza..

two slice of pizza, chicken soup, 6 piece of chicken wings and of course sprite. Pizza hut restaurant last Friday..my stomache is so full

WHAT'S NEXT ??

..what do I do next, after completing my study here at University of Indonesia? I have a job now, but my job is far away from home, if I coming back to parents house, everyday I should discover thousands of kilometer to reach my office. The sallary after all, I think it's not enough, since now I (almost) hold bachelor degree.
I was thinking to continue my study for master degree, if this way I choose, so I have to stay here for at least..till next year, after really completing my study and got bonus from company, then say goodbye.
Some job I read now, nothing impress me much, there's one, but the competition is tight. I need a reference letter after all to continue my study, next.
Let's put behind about having my own family, should wait till the time is right..

It's been a while

June is coming, next month July 22nd is Bo birthday, before that I have to submit my thesis.
Thinking bout thesis making me headache, recently I have a flu that's because I force myself hard and because I'm no good in manage time..
Today..I've done my paper for final examination, hoping that I have a good mark in two subject left. Yeah hoping for the best!!

Morning, Surya asking me when I'm gonna married..well recently I got so many question asking about one subject marriage. Whenever I asked that question to myself, I have many reasons to postponed that subject.. Three years ago, I have a reason to postponed till my study finish, I promise start to think about that, after completing my thesis, but now, I have another reason, I want to focus on career since I have a big opportunity in one condition should be single!!

I believe every thing has a purpose..it's not right too, if you marry someone because you tired being alone, because after getting a permanent job next is time to marry? or because someone loves you then you think you won't get better than him, or maybe because every one (your friends), all are married now, or because you don't know what you want in life.
I dunno when I'm gonna find one person that match for me, many times that I meet someone new and trying to build relations, I always gives my best time, best I could do and hoping he's the "one" the best for the last. Maybe I should not hoping too much in next relations, not expecting much in return!

...my days..my hours for you friends...

from minutes turns hours, from hours turns to days..my time for you friends..my time for my family, my time for my work, my time for my study.

Yesterday, finnally the package that Irene sent to me arrived, I should pay for 5,000 rupiahs for that. I found out 2 pages of letters, a broche, a bottle of parfume and 2 photos, also the pendant, and DVD of J LO..yeah this actress is one of Irene's favorite.

Recently I put my time writing thesis in the end of the line, because I used my time to provide carring and support to my friends.

When you are away from family, the person that help you out, and gives you a support is a friend. When you are away from home, you will realize the meaning of having a friend....

wedding party..!!

I don't hate wedding party but I just don't really like attending it!
sabtu dan minggu kemaren, sibuk menghadiri resepsi pernikahan, hari Sabtu nemenin Uli, hari Minggunya resepsinya temen kantor. Kalau melihat proses mereka "berjodoh" cukup unik..tapi ga ada yang mengejutkan kecuali pemberitahuannya yang mendadak. From the first moment "they" meet, there is a butterflies in her eyes..yup I can tell you that, because I just knew when two people are match together.
next saturday and sunday, got invitation to the wedding party again..ooooh tired..should booked my hours minimum 4 hours..and I hate that, since I'm not yet write my thesis. OOOH temptation, I should manage my time..and for that I put all in the end of the line
Semangat...SKRIPSI

..a POEM from a friend..

From: Sobin
Tuesday, May 17, 2005 11:06:00 AM
Subject: Hi u got a wonderful smile !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Message:
well u got a smile like sunflower
u got a smile like the rainbow in sky after rain
u got the smile that inspires me to be a poet
u got a smile like my friend henny
thanks for ur smile and always smile
bye

The Best in Me

From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine

You touched my hand

And I knew that this was gonna be our time

I don't ever wanna lose this feeling

I don't wanna spend a moment apart

'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do

That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

Every day that I'm here with youI know that it feels right

And I've just got to be near you every day and every night

And you know that we belong together

It just had to be you and me

It was funny, suddenly at noon, sitting in my room, I miss him..the feeling is deep, and all I can do is say a little prayer for him..if maybe one day our path cross I hope I could be able to show my feeling.

..My feeling..

..this morning I meet Tanti again, she ask me to meet ! well gue sebenarnya mau aja ketemu, tapi honestly gue males kalo mendiskusikan love game, and being in love, or broken heart..shortly love matters..I'm not in the mood to discuss this matter.

Sorry friend..recently I'm kinna allergic to this, although I like to watch drama or romantic movie..but doesn't meant I can stand with all your story. But I promise you, I have two good ears and one big heart for you..

hidup kan bukan melulu mengenai cinta walaupun love make the world goes around!!

..yessss peace begins with a smile!!, when you got angry, but then you look a piece of smile on someone face, your HEART becomes melt..so don't underestimate the price of a SMILE...

..HAPPY face and big SMILE..thanks Pak Teguh..and thanks friends for the friendship that you give, and for a surprise..I put this on my blog, with a hope when I grow old, I could still see this smile, and remember the happy moments during my class at Penulisan Media Humas..

an advice from a friend..

Dearest girl friend..

I'm sorry I can't always besides you when you needed me..I remember many time you ask me for lunch and I can't full fill, or you want to tell your story, but I don't have time to listen.
Friend, in life not everything we wish for we can get..in life we need miracle, faith, and dream to go on from day to another day, above all we need God to make everything stays on track.

When you think something is the end, sometimes it only the beginning..one thing that I will never bored to reminds you..DON'T LET GO your FAITH, because you will need faith when life seems so unfair..you need faith to make a decission..you need faith to stay HAPPY..

>>for tanty "all happiness is in the mind"

say hello...say goodbye...

..in any relations there will be time to say hello and to say goodbye. The most hard part is when you decide to say goodbye, but some parts of your heart still hoping there will be time to say hello again....

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done it get hard but it won’t take away my love I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

(3 Doors Down)

Tas Favoritmu Cirikan Minat Karirmu

dicuplik dari hanyawanita.com

Perempuan yang menyukai tas besar yang muat segala barang biasanya memandang hidup itu mengalir lancar laksana air. Sama seperti bagaimana dia mengisi 'kantong ajaib' khas Dorameon ini dengan semua kebutuhan, jika ada keperluan mendadak si penyuka big bags tak merasa panik.

Terkait karir, penggemar tas besar akan meraih puncak kesenangan di bidang pekerjaan yang memberikan tingkat fleksibilitas tinggi. Dia bisa mengatur waktu antara pekerjaan dan 'karirnya' sebagai ibu rumah tangga, mengantar-jemput anak sekolah.Penyuka big bags cocok bekerja di bidang yang membutuhkan analisis dan pemikiran mendalam, seperti ahli statistik, atau bahkan pakar komputer yang andal. Nah, dia juga bisa menjadi jurnalis atau wartawan yang tangguh, atau peneliti yang tekun, bahkan membuka jasa konsultan atau PR (public relation). Jika kebetulan ada bakat membuat kerajinan tangan atau meracik perhiasan, si pencinta tas besar bakalan betah dan umumnya sukses.

Atau jika berani memulai bisnis sendiri, seperti menjadi instruktur olehraga, ikut MLM, menjadi agen asuransi, bisa dilakukan. Karena kepiawaian dalam berbicara ditunjang kemampuan manajerial yang oke, si ratu tas besar juga cocok lho jadi seorang manajer penjualan.

Karena sifatnya yang tak suka dikekang, si penyuka tas besar lebih suka diberi kebebasan waktu dalam berkarya. Falsafah bekerja '9 to 5' tak begitu cocok untuknya, karena perempuan karir ini lebih suka result oriented. Kelebihan lainnya adalah, ratu tas besar mampu membuat keputusan penting secara bijak, meski tak ada pimpinan. Apalagi jika dia mendapat mandat penuh dari atasan.

..i think that's me.. :~P

April, 27 2005

last night around 10 pm Irene start to wish me happy birthday in advance, Arlind which is my sista, sms me too (our birthday is come), then Fred (my buddy) called me after 12 pm, "what a surprise from you..after all those year you still remember my b'day"..Ito called me with his sleepy voice (thanks) then Boru and Yulia, wish me, they are my pad friends..Bung Ray sms me too.."your sms is beautiful"

Morning comes my other buddy, Maradona sms me with his new number, after that i received sms from MOMMY, and then Dina (my junor high school best friend) sms me with words "hello beautiful" hehehe..then at office I start to call Tegar, my buddy which is we born in the same date but different year..and my mom call me..Yeah a HAPPY DAY

FRIENDZZZ thanks for remember my b'day..I feel great and hope till afternoon and night I will have another surprise from a person called FRIENDS, you guys are so special to ME..

..happy birthday to me..happy birthday to me..blow out the candle, make a wish and eat the cake..(No real cake for today)

RAINBOW by South Border

Fallin' out, fallin' in

Nothing's sure in this world no, no

Breakin' out, breakin' in

Never knowin' what lies ahead

We can really never tell it all no, no, no

Say goodbye, say hello

To a lover or friend

Sometimes we never could understand

Why some things begin then just end

We can really never tell it all no, no, no

But oh, can't you see

That no matter what happens

Life goes on and on

So baby, just/please smile

Coz im always around you

And ill make you see how beautiful

Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby

See the butterflies color's

Listen to the birds that were sent

To sing for me and you

Can you feel me

This is such a wonderful place to be

Even if there is pain now

Everything would be all right

For as long as the world still turns

There will be night and day

Can you hear me

There's a rainbow always after the rain

Ohh, whoa

Hittin' high, hittin' low

Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah

Getting warm, getting cold

Weather could be so good or bad

But baby this is life now don't get mad no, no, no

Coz oh, cant you see

That no matter what happens

Life goes on and on

So baby, please smile

Coz im always around you

And ill make you see how beautiful

Life is for you and me

Life's full of challenges

Not all the time we get what we want

But don't despair my dear coz I know now

You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm

Coz you're strong my faith in you is clear

So ill say once again this worlds wonderful and

Let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful

Ohhhh

There's a rainbow always after the rain

Monday

..every person has their own problem, big, small, medium. It doesn't matter the size, because a problem still a problem it waits us to solve them. Problem make us worried and because we worry much, we start to doubt our faith.

Talking about faith, got interesting conversation last night. My friend telling me about her problem (big problem) and in the end she starts to doubt her faith. For me faith isn't just about we believe to God, but when we believe to ourselves that's also a faith.

When you start to analyze life, when you start to doubt what you believe it will makes you weak. Often times we don't know God's plan, many times we wait till we are dying but still God don't give an answer.

But when we start to discuss or telling our problem, we realize that everybody has their own problem. We can only doing the best thing, and wait for the best, although when we do something still we don't know if what we do is the best THING!

..I know I couldn't give a good answer to your question, but I have two ears and one heart to listen your problem..

..a b o u t LOVE

yup..i'm going to write bout love.. some said love conquers all, others said love is not enough.
for me????? to deal with love you must Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts.
often times, i love someone but that person refused it or someone loves me but i don't feel that way. so i think, if someone loves you it's not so special but if you love someone that is special. Because if you wished to be loved, love..

I'll Do Anything FOR U

Anything for you
Though you're not here
Since you said we're through
It seems like years
Time keeps draggin' on and on
And forever's been and gone
Still I can't figure what went wrong

I'd still do anything for you
I'll play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way
I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And, though you'll never see me cryin'
You know, inside, I feel like dying

And I'd do anything for you
In spite of it all
I've learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don't you ever think that I don't love you
That, for one minute, I forgot you
But, sometimes, things don't work out right
And (I) just have to say goodbye

I hope you find someone to please you
Someone who'll care and never leave you
But, if that someone ever hurts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And I'd do anything for you
I'll give you up
If that's what I should do
To make you happy
Don't you ever think that I don't love you
That, for one minute, I forgot you
But, sometimes, things don't work out right
And (I) just have to say goodbye

some can work this thing out but some failed... to bad we are not in the same team. But I would not regret the past, just closed another chapter of my life and begins with the new one!
I let you go..

When I heard about his illness and after that I start to receive a sms, told that he was died (rumor), I do not really pay attention to that. I think he is old anyway, what can you expect from a person in 84 years of age. Till it really happen, that he is gone, I heard this news when I attend a morning mass, last Sunday. Oh God I feel pain in my heart. He is a great person, a great Pope. He fought till the very last minute of his life.

by eyank

Be Not Afraid

Christ at the center of all things was a theme to which John Paul II returned until the very end of his life and which served as his unceasing prayer for the church and the world. On Oct. 22, 1978, only a few days after his election as pontiff of the Roman Catholic Church, Pope John Paul II called upon the world: "Be not afraid. Open wide the doors to Christ. To his saving power upon the boundaries of states, economic and political systems, the vast fields of culture, civilization and development. Do not be afraid.

An atheist's tribute to the good shepherd
I’m 60, a man who long ago stopped believing in God, the types of God fashioned by man, the type of God believed in by John Paul II. But, on this day of grief, April 3, 2005, I honor, in my own way the passing of this great man.

Even an atheist must honor a man like John Paul II. This man, this pope, lived the ideals that he professed, the ideals of Christianity, and did so aggressively. No sitting in Rome for John Paul II. He traveled the world with relentlessness; he movingly kissed the soil of each new land arrived at. He reached out to the sick, the poor, the dispossessed. He lectured the rich and powerful. He was conservative in the finest sense of that word, even for me a liberal, for he loved sinners and forgave them even while setting, through his agenda, very strict standards.

His conservatism never seemed ugly, punitive, unforgiving. What stunning leadership. He fought communism and I wonder if the full story of his leadership against that doctrine will ever be fully known? A son of Poland, perhaps her greatest, his life span had allowed him to see close up the evils of the 20th Century’s enslaving doctrines.

He used that insight wisely and relentlessly. Across the globe, wherever he went, the faithful would gather to catch a glimpse of this man who spoke of a better world. And so, even non-believers like me mourn his passing. We join the ranks of those who will miss him. And we smile with appreciation knowing that stubborn and skeptical though we may be, John Paul viewed people like us with love, tolerance and above all faith. He,through the experience of his decades, knew that ultimately faith is so much stronger than doubt. He was and will remain the good shepherd. —Peter Twomey, Marshfield, MA
(taken from http://www.msnbc.msn.com/)