03 October 2005

KISAH ROMANTIS


my favorite song (this month)...sang by Glen Fredly, that are known as a musician who sing a sad song, but not this time!

mengejar dirimu takkan ada habisnya
membuat diriku menggila
bila hati ini menjatuhkan pilihan
apapun akan kulewati
hari ini sayang sangat penting bagiku
kau jawaban yg aku cari
kisah hari ini kan ku bagi denganmu
dengarlah sayang kali ini
permintaanku padamu
reff:
dan dengarlah sayangku
aku mohon kau menikah denganku
ya hiduplah denganku
berbagi kisah hidup berdua
cincin ini sayang terukirkan namamu
begitu juga di hatiku
hujan warna-warni kata orang tak mungkin
namun itu mungkin bagiku
sebuah tanda cintaku

as a girl i wonder, is there any romantic guy who dare to ask (will you marry me) just like Glen? hehehe..it's too good to be true?
anyway yesterday was my "suitor" birthday...wish you all the best, but sorry to say i don't feel the same and i don't have a heart to love you as you do..and everytime i saw your eyes, i feel guilty. Coz' your eyes telling millions thing!
life is a mystery but i believe too that we write our own story and everytime i think i know the end. I don't!

28 September 2005

..tired, sleppy, but it's worthed

..I'm sleepy coz i don't have enough sleep but the amazing thing i feel so fresh this morning and walking very fast to office. But after lunch when my stomach is full i just noticed i feel sleepy, i hope i don't fall asleep at my desk. ....the reason i woke this morning, too early was i try to beat myself, i mean the laziness. The teacher encourage me to finish my thesis as soon as possible..so been working till 86 pages...semangat..semangat !!! today got time to check some interesting website, first website is owned by my friends, or i think so since i don't know for sure, when i had meet her, perhaps on cyber world. She is a writer and been published some novels for teenager consumption, but even i'm no longer (sometimes i pretend to be) teenager, i like to read her novel, i mean her site, not yet buy her novel
  • lukisan hujan

  • Second the blog, I completely dunno her, because i get the link from
  • Roy

  • her blog
  • is tipically girl blog, with lot of topics talking bout love and romance and boys (dream man)..yes tweenty something (SINGLE) but be happy because always have a romance.

    27 September 2005

    ..busy entertaint friendzzz

    From monday up today, my friendzzz visiting me, it was surprising me, because these friends are been a while I din't meet them.
    Today my friend Vany Nihon, I call him that way, because he's so crazy with Nipon/Japan stuff n always asking my news with the words, genki? the short from genki desuka?
    He just finishing his study at Kroningen Netherland (i hope this is the right spell), coming and we got lunch together.
    So happy to see them, because what makes you happy when you are tweenty something and single? you are sorounding by friends which we can share our experience. We are laugh together since our problem is the same, "beating ourselves". The key to be survive in this world is beat yourself !! the same topic I discuss with Roy earlier this morning.

    Thanks friends...

    botanical garden BOGOR part 2





    more picture at Kebun Raya Bogor...

    Buitenzorg (Bogor)



    Last saturday got a chance to visit Kebun Raya Bogor (botanical garden). By train me and Bo went there, and only spend money 2000 rupiahs from depok to buy an economic class train and then 1000 rupiahs for "angkutan kota" or small car (public transportation car). To enter Kebun Raya every person should pay 5.500, so the total is 8.500 to breath deeply (the air still good) and spoil your eyes 'coz everywhere you look all green (big trees n flowers).

    I put a little about the history of Kebun Raya Bogor :
    Buitenzorg is the usual residence of the governor-general of the Dutch East Indies, and is further remarkable on account of its splendid botanical garden and for its popularity as a health resort. The botanic gardens are among the finest in the world; they originally formed a part of the park attached to the palace of the governor-general, and were established in 1817. Under J. S. Teysmann, who became hortulanus ~fl 1830, the collection was extended, and in 1868 was recognized as a government institution with a director. The palace of the governor-general was founded by Governor-General van Imhoff in 1744, and rebuilt after being destroyed by an earthquake in 1834. Buitenzorg is also the seat of the general secretary of the state railway and of the department of mines. Buitenzorg, which is called Bogor by the natives, was once the capital of the princess of Pajajaran
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    21 September 2005

    ..My Nemo is Coming..

    Rasa penasaran itu udah hilang, it's about one man, yang dulu sempat bikin gue panasaran, kalo inget dulu..gue suka terima sms dari dia, sms yang gue pikir sekarang ga penting, tapi dulu jelas bikin gue “wondering”, bikin gue senang..hehehee..
    Sampai akhirnya rasa penasaran itu tertutup dengan hal lain yang lebih penting, tertutup dengan nama-nama lain. Benar juga kalo hidup itu ga selamanya harus alur maju, kadang juga alur flashback, tapi waktu tetap jalan terus, cuma ‘emosi’ yang bikin kita ngerasa mundur.

    So..this morning my ‘Nemo’ comes visiting me, I know dia juga penasaran, dan ga lebih dari itu! Gue bahkan dah melupakan dia..but I just being polite with a friend. Masih pagi baru juga 30 menit di kantor, eh my cell ringing “naughty girl” then I saw his name di layar cell gue…mmmm it’s nemo calling“halo” terus dia nanya dimana, yah di kantor dong, terus gue tanya mau kesini? Akhirnya gue pandu dia walau sempat kesasar juga..terus akhirnya gue samperin dia di mobil..begitu gue dah dekat mobilnya, dia keluar, terus salaman (though actually I like to kiss him on cheek) hehehe..


    Ehh gue sempat masuk mobilnya juga siih..terus dia nunggu gue kerja, gue mesti ngetik surat dulu, terus gue ajak dia ke perpustakaan, gue tanya acaranya gimana, dia bilang janjian ama temannya di kemayoran. Gue tanya udah makan belum, katanya belum. Oke gue pilih tempat yang menurut gue nyaman, di atas kayaknya lucu juga (takor ooh takor). Kelihatannya siih dia senang banget (ciiieeeeeh) makan taoge goreng sama minum jus. Aaaah sebenarnya sih pengen berlama-lama tapi kan gue kerja.

    During our conversations I don’t ask about his girlfriend or anything related to his love story, I don’t want to know!!!..we are just friend n I don’t think it’s matter for me to ask that. He said someday he wants to open "sekolah kepribadian" tapi bukan buat model..yang ini ngasih seminar-seminar to motivated people. I think di luar sana dah banyak deh seminar-seminar seperti ini! Good luck for the future!!

    N i found out today, ternyata he’s not that damn good looking, but dia wangi, rapi, n nice wardrobe (a man that most of girls whish for) and he’s soft spoken. Satu lagi dia ga bisa nahan pipis (hehheehe) yang terakhir sama ama gue!Sementara gue hari ini malez pake alas bedak, malaz pake blush on..just the way Iam dengan dandanan yang minimalis, but I have a nice smile plus a good heart that’s what I think the most important thing in this world! A smile can tell many thing..can tell who you are

    >>nemo is a character in cintapucino novel, which is one of my favorite novel. The novel is about a girl who obsessed with one man.

    19 September 2005

    dying inside


    i wanna touch you now and then make you mine till the end of my life.
    i'm dying inside to wish that someday you'll be mine.
    i'm afraid that one day i woke up and knowing you already tooken or i'm too late to have you.
    i'm worry that i don't try harder to make you mine...
    what a blue monday, wishing you are here, but in reality only me who dying inside.

    this post is a picture of my heart (hati yang mengkronis)

    picture of you..

    ..i know somebody who reads this post, will think i'm a religious girl, but this what happen to my life so far or at least yesterday. I accompanied my mom to sunday service..i have a strong wish to see "him" (can not mentioned his name yet) 'coz I dunno yet his name, though to know his name all i need just one single call to her sis!
    ....so long not to see him, but i dunno why i like him, i don't even know his name, his character, but i'm doing a "silent operation"...hehehehhe, my silent operation is PRAY. Then I asked to God, please let me see him once again, and let me know him. Soooo....it is shocked me 'coz after mass, when I try to look for food, God bring him right in front of me (oh my God) then I shake his hand..I really touch him, his palm!
    ......see.."His" plan is beautiful in time, but for those (including me) who not patient to see God working, will not understand that God need time too!!
    .........Thanks God......

    16 September 2005

    write our own story

    "i believe we write our own story and each time we know the end we don't"
    ...just when I know this gonna be last..it wont..just when I predict this gonna be the end, it wont stop. Just when I hope this gonna be followed with beautiful things it turn out to be nothing..
    i learn to dream and to achieve my dream, but i learn in the same time "don't hope too much" there so many factors in life that 1 + 1 many times never 2.
    .....if we know nothing 'bout life..we need to raise our hand to ask God for his mercy and providance...
    >> this posting is dedicate to all my friend and my future friends..if you wish to be my future friend message me at zita.henny@gmail.com have a nice day !

    08 September 2005

    ...THE WEDDING DATE

    This post was inspired by the wedding date movie.
    A friend recommended this movie..and last night I watched it. In one of the scene, the girl which is Kat realized, her ex-fiancee only a jerk that don't deserved her love, her respect at all..and it takes 7 years to understand it!
    Kat trying hard to impress her family and of course her ex, by bringing an eligible bachelor home!

    (hell) I've been in that position, and the only reason why I did that, I want him to respect me, and I don't want him to feel sorry and I want him to regret because he dumped me.

    But I learn yesterday, the truth is he's just a jerk, he just a coward and he never learn anything..and the only reason we separated is he don't deserved to have me!

    07 September 2005

    I'm so J A D E D today..

    ..so jaded today..the works is so boring..upss can't say that, i love my work but sometime I wanna escape from routine work!
    that's all

    05 September 2005

    ..start my own business

    ..noone introduce this business, though I know it's good to make some cash money besides my salary, all I need just call my friends, my mother's friends and show them the catalogue.
    can you guess what is the business? my business is selling oriflame products or in other words direct selling plus multi level marketing.
    ...but here, I never plan to make my own group in short periods. Then..as time goes, I have one downline, and last month in just two weeks, I make profit 17, 600 + 26, 144 rupiahs, plus 50% discount for one product and one free product with the noted, the price not more than 50,000 rupiahs.

    ...I want to thanks to Rosa for her patient to assist me in this business. From zero to profit!
    just showing the catalogue and sell and sell..

    22 August 2005

    r o m a n c i a...........romance

    internet romance? it's for real?
    yesterday he's so angry because I didn't replied so soon. Each day I learn something about his character, about his attitude!
    knowing someone out there thinking about me makes me Happy.
    Maybe I'm just curious, maybe this not gonna be a long lasting relationship but maybe we can make it if we try..
    in life full of options, and full of path way to go.. i take every step with positive mind!
    just wait and see...

    15 August 2005

    it's time for exhale..

    how many years i know the truth? how many years more i know the second truth
    i don't count the time, but i'm surprised the way i found out the truth!.........
    apa yang udah terjadi di belakang ga usah ditengok-tengok..it's time for me to exhale.
    ternyata ooh ternyata..
    dia hanya sepenggal kisah..
    yang hanya untuk dilupakan..
    listen to your heart..even it seems unfair..but it is very worth it

    ..driving a car..

    my Dad allowed me to bring his car, then I drove from home to office, with parents n uncle. Thanx uncle for the lesson! it's save..and I can manage my car very well, and of course God bless me!
    it's a nice..nice journey driving at 6.40 AM in Jakarta..

    10 August 2005

    woowww pegel..but FUN

    yesterday first day joining fitness club..it's FUN specially my first experience on fitness equipment!
    I'll do it for more than one hour and yesterday I have a personal "trainer", a sweet boy with red t'shirt! hehehe..if he comes everyday, i'll go everyday too, and he said bye-bye to me when he went home. A new friendship just begins!
    Tanti pick me up when the training is over, will come back again soon sweety!

    08 August 2005

    my NEW ROOM and my new DREAM ho..ho..ho

    saturday, 6 August 2005
    Finally I made my mind, last saturday, early in morning I move to other room. Still in the same house but my new room bigger than the old one.


    sunday, 7 August 2005
    I want to realize my dream participated in one beauty contest, not yet happen but I make a first move, by taking close-up picture at mall. He hee..he..just see the result!!
    Tanti comes visited me too in the afternoon, she asked me to pick-up her goods at ofice, she's no longer in Pasca. Just wish you all the best..my lovely friend, I miss YOU!

    04 August 2005

    ..a k u hari i n i..

    *pagi ini ga enak badan, hidung berlendir, mata berat banget,
    *perut aga mules
    *rasanya dingin, padahal AC-nya cuma 28 deg C
    *buka email ga ada yang menarik
    *lapar..masih nunggu office boy beliin makanan
    *malezz kerja
    *pengennya tidur
    *gejala PMS
    *i wanna go home

    29 July 2005

    HARI KESEL SEDUNIA..kali yeeee

    sebenarnya mo nulis hari ini hari ngeselin. Eiit tapi ga boleh ngomong gini..soalnya udah banyak dikasih ama Tuhan yang indah-indah..anggap aja hari ini hari LATIHAN MEMANJANGKAN KESABARAN...
    sabaaaaaaaaaaaaaar suburrrrrr!!

    22 July 2005

    Friday


    menikmati hidup..enjoy every minute i spent with friends and family.
    I've been showing my emotions, and now just continuing my life..
    though sometimes i get tired but don't wanna give up

    20 July 2005

    ..i don't know nothing 'bout love

    i thought when i get older, i will know more bout love, i will be more experience.."love doesn't make you smart", wise men said that. so when love hit me, i'm not well prepare but do love needs a reason? do i need a reason to love someone?

    the song from counting crows were so nice to listen, see the lyrics.. even this (boys) band are not prepare when love comes!!! boys said woman are feel more than think, but once they (boys) fall in love..they go mad too.

    So she said what's the problem baby--What's the problem I don't know--Well maybe I'm in love (love)--Think about it every time--I think about it--Can't stop thinking 'bout it
    How much longer will it take to cure this--Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love) Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
    Come on, come on --Turn a little faster--Come on, come on--The world will follow after
    Come on, come on-- Cause everybody's after love
    So I said I'm a snowball running-- Running down into the spring that's coming all this love Melting under blue skies--Belting out sunlight-- Shimmering love
    Well baby I surrender-- To the strawberry ice cream--Never ever end of all this love
    Well I didn't mean to do it
    But there's no escaping your love
    We're accidentally in love --Accidentally in love

    15 July 2005

    ..you cant stop me to love you

    I think love is a beautiful feelings towards that person whom u like with whom u like spending time with whom ur looking for whose every act u like whose presence always run in ur mind and without him/her u can't live.

    M : and I want to say you I have same feelings for you
    M : I love you
    M : It doesn’t matter for me that u love me or not
    M : caz It doesn’t necessary that a person whom I love will also love me definitely
    but I must tell you, u can't stop me to love you
    M : u know
    M : Distance doesn't matter for me
    M : I have lot of gals over here in Sydney
    M : but I just looking for same feelings as u have
    M : I never feel in love b4
    M : Even I don’t have any GF b4
    M : I know u wouldn’t believe me
    M : I know its just our 2nd meeting
    M : but I don’t think that it matters to say someone love
    M : That’s it I want to say you
    M : May be u'll not talk to me anymore
    I aggreed with his definition about love..sometimes love can be so complicated but many times love is so simple. I'm happy to find out there's someone out there falling in love with me..the true happiness is whoever is happy will make others happy, too
    another quotation from 'M'
    "first looking first talking is enough to like someone"
    "sometimes we know someone in first time and sometimes we take whole life to understand someone"

    13 July 2005

    YEAH..LA..LA..LA

    Wednesday afternoon my boss is out of office..so I could do anything else except finishing works.
    Last night got so weird dream..i'm crying a loud. Awww..I don't know what's the meaning of my dream. My friend said, usually if you cry it means you'll be 'happy' in reality, is it so??
    I do hope, because when you happy you can do everything.
    so now start to singing...

    Hey, baby my nose is getting big/I noticed it be growing when I been telling them fibs/Now you say your trust's getting weaker/Probably coz my lies just started getting deeper/And the reason for my confession is that I learn my lesson/And I really think you have to know the truth/Because I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more/But after I did it I don't know what I did it forI admit that I have been a little immature/Fucking with your heart like I was the predator/In my book of lies I was the editor/And the author I forged my signature/And now I apologise for what I did to you/Cos what you did to me I did to you
    --try to pleased my heart, because all my friends has just finished their thesis--

    12 July 2005

    my lucky day..tUesDay??

    hi there..you got a nice smile, as i saw your pic. Another introduction, another try. One thing in my mind I'm tired of another introduction. But remember of looking a job, you try..and try..untill u succeded..it's better to try it or you'll regreat it.
    when you less expected it maybe the one you looking for..
    just be optimistic

    30 June 2005

    One Night at Kuta, Bali



    This photo was taken by my friend..after doing rafting then visiting Antonio Blanco's Museum..we ate bebek goreng Bali..at one finest restaurant, actually not the food but the atmosphere that you can't forget..next to restaurant there is a field of rice.

    29 June 2005

    Java from above..


    I'm not sure with this mountain..but I think it is Bromo mountain.
    I love if someday I climb or doing tracking in this mountain

    Tanti's Birthday

    It's so me..forgot to wish my best friend birthday. Yesterday was Tanti's Birthday and she asking me for a date (she treat me) then we have a dinner just the two of us in KFC. ha..ha.ha eventhough I knew she doesn't know when was my birthday because I keep changing my profile at Friendster..
    ...anyway it's good to spent sometime with girl friend, and the subject of our conversation still about unlucky love and a boy. You..who claims himself as a boy who happens to write this should be proud because we (girl) and I should confess that we always talking about you...guys..although I will denied it because this subject I had erased from my topic list of conversations.

    28 June 2005

    ya..ya..ya..

    about one 'good' man that i saw during the mass. he's got everything that all girls are wish. he's got a style, he's got the look, he's got a good career (i guess). but too bad all informations about him are blocked..or i never intended to search?
    hmm..how are you georgeous ?
    the fact is i couldn't blow him out of my mind..and just to see the way he move, it would be enough for me. yeah i'm one of his biggest fans. His secret admire. Have you ever be a secret admire just what i did now?
    it's good just like one of my favorite song "just my imagination..running away with me.."

    27 June 2005

    ..Lovely Monday..

    ..It's Monday and I feel G R E A T..
    yesterday was my Bro wedding's anniversary..and again I forgot to bring camera to capture the "moment" so early in the morning the activity was begun. We went to church and this time was at Katedral because Mom's choir participate on Morning Mash then I meet my Bro and his wife there..his hair needs to cut off I think.
    Then we had lunch together, my first Bro and his family also there. We ate Pizza, the only Italian food that I like!! then my sis in law family join us (full team) ..oh yeah we had lunch at Artha Gading Mall again, since the park still free.
    After lunch I visited my Bro's house, he's living in Menteng Metropolitan, then I went to Yudi's house, his house near Senen Station. Finally I know where my Brothers lives!!
    So here I'm early in the morning without taking bad (hehehehe) I go to office. 7:24 AM I have arrived in the office..

    23 June 2005

    what is all about

    I just recovered from my illness..since last Thursday I was sick and I've had leave my job for two days. Kinna lazy to start all over again..so this morning I just type something in my blog. It's good finally I could write something and read something. Back to the days when I was sick, my mom borrow a catholic magazine. I read a lot to kill my times since the TV program wasn't good, everytime I push one channel comes up Cut Keke story or Nia Daniati story.. is it so hard to maintain marriage relationship?
    Talking about found out one good man sometimes it could be an interesting topic, but sometimes it could be so nasty.. what if don't think, don't feel and don't act? A desperate and hopeless girl I become. You know..when I was sick I was thinking much and everything become so heavy in my mind, I realize we can't live alone in this world, especially when you are sick, you need someone to be there, a person who cares about you and a person who can cheer you up.
    I have one right now..but for how long? Life is uncertain some said like that but if we believe in Jesus there's always a hope and life is always certain.. Just begins everything in the name of HIM.

    16 June 2005

    Team Work..day third June, 13 2005 at Ayung river Ubud, Bali
    Bali 11-14 June 2005

    15 June 2005

    ..about him..

    If I should describe him in one word, definetly I'll say he is amazing. He drove thousand kilometres early in the morning to drove me to airport. I think that's one thing that could melt my heart, too bad we are not in the same team.
    In this way, I couldn't ask for more. Usually I will ask, Dear God, could you change into..bla..bla..but this time I don't, I enjoyed the time we spend..maybe I had give up to searched and hope. I only closed my eyes and make a wish, Dear God, would you give me a strength to accept everything that I can't change and to change everything that I could change and I could always feel the beauty in every thing that you gave me. He came in his strange way..so I start to miss that?

    10 June 2005

    TerreCalde

    Two weeks ago I have an offer from someone to be the reporter. What I did was simple just send an essay or writing talk about what happen in my country. When I heard this news I don't really take seriously since I have an offer from someone that I know in cyber world, but nowdays everything done by computer, the old fashion way like meet somebody in the train, bus, or maybe mall are no longer easily happen, since now everybody suspicious with stranger.
    In short, I talk with this man a couple times via YM then here I go..my name is written in their website, and my report is in there too.

    08 June 2005

    Jalani aja yang di depan Mata!

    Semalam ga sengaja ketemu teman, dia cerita ga betah kerja di tempat yang sekarang, merasa tertipu karena bayaran yang kecil dan kerjaan yang banyak. Life is unfair..emang betul, kadang kita terkaget-kaget kalau membandingkan diri dengan gaji teman-teman yang lain, rasanya koq mereka dengan mudah dapat kerjaan dan gaji yang banyak just because she's pretty or just because she's born in rich family.
    Sementara 'we' yang lahir dari keluarga yang biasa-biasa dan punya tampang yang biasa-biasa aja, memulai segala sesuatu dengan susah payah. Cari kerjaan, akhirnya dapat setelah melalui berkali-kali interview, terus giliran dah kerja dan mau lanjutin kuliah..harus cari duit sendiri untuk membiayai kuliah. Ehmm ga gampang kan??
    Tapi gue teringat dengan kata-kata seorang kandidat Doktor bidang keuangan yang gue wawancara untuk skripsi gue "Saya sekolah, yang saya cari tantangannya", kalau gue, sekolah selain untuk kemajuan diri sendiri dan mungkin karir juga cari teman baru yang be there di saat senang dan susah, I am looking for a TRUE Friend! dan bukannya sebelum gue kuliah gue ga menemui, ada donk tapi gue mau nambah deretan (list) teman-teman baru.
    Sampai disini tujuan gue dah tercapai!
    So, I think once we heard an advice from a fool, kita jadi ikut-ikutan bodoh. Gue teringat sebuah lagu yang gue lupa siapa yang nyanyi -- I don't wanna take an advice from a fool.
    Now..I try to used my brain. Gue pikir ini hidup gue. Melihat ke atas itu penting so we know our position, but don't look up on the sky too long. We should be thankfull, at least we got a job eventhough still not our best job. But we are trying to make our job looks fabulous and spend your money to help the poorer.

    06 June 2005

    take a look on us, me and her wearing the same cardigan..smooth yellow. I think it's a great colour makes you look more younger!! this photo was taken using my camera phone last friday.

    Pizza..

    two slice of pizza, chicken soup, 6 piece of chicken wings and of course sprite. Pizza hut restaurant last Friday..my stomache is so full

    03 June 2005

    WHAT'S NEXT ??

    ..what do I do next, after completing my study here at University of Indonesia? I have a job now, but my job is far away from home, if I coming back to parents house, everyday I should discover thousands of kilometer to reach my office. The sallary after all, I think it's not enough, since now I (almost) hold bachelor degree.
    I was thinking to continue my study for master degree, if this way I choose, so I have to stay here for at least..till next year, after really completing my study and got bonus from company, then say goodbye.
    Some job I read now, nothing impress me much, there's one, but the competition is tight. I need a reference letter after all to continue my study, next.
    Let's put behind about having my own family, should wait till the time is right..

    02 June 2005

    It's been a while

    June is coming, next month July 22nd is Bo birthday, before that I have to submit my thesis.
    Thinking bout thesis making me headache, recently I have a flu that's because I force myself hard and because I'm no good in manage time..
    Today..I've done my paper for final examination, hoping that I have a good mark in two subject left. Yeah hoping for the best!!

    Morning, Surya asking me when I'm gonna married..well recently I got so many question asking about one subject marriage. Whenever I asked that question to myself, I have many reasons to postponed that subject.. Three years ago, I have a reason to postponed till my study finish, I promise start to think about that, after completing my thesis, but now, I have another reason, I want to focus on career since I have a big opportunity in one condition should be single!!

    I believe every thing has a purpose..it's not right too, if you marry someone because you tired being alone, because after getting a permanent job next is time to marry? or because someone loves you then you think you won't get better than him, or maybe because every one (your friends), all are married now, or because you don't know what you want in life.
    I dunno when I'm gonna find one person that match for me, many times that I meet someone new and trying to build relations, I always gives my best time, best I could do and hoping he's the "one" the best for the last. Maybe I should not hoping too much in next relations, not expecting much in return!

    27 May 2005

    ...my days..my hours for you friends...

    from minutes turns hours, from hours turns to days..my time for you friends..my time for my family, my time for my work, my time for my study.
    Yesterday, finnally the package that Irene sent to me arrived, I should pay for 5,000 rupiahs for that. I found out 2 pages of letters, a broche, a bottle of parfume and 2 photos, also the pendant, and DVD of J LO..yeah this actress is one of Irene's favorite.
    Recently I put my time writing thesis in the end of the line, because I used my time to provide carring and support to my friends.
    When you are away from family, the person that help you out, and gives you a support is a friend. When you are away from home, you will realize the meaning of having a friend....

    wedding party..!!

    I don't hate wedding party but I just don't really like attending it!
    sabtu dan minggu kemaren, sibuk menghadiri resepsi pernikahan, hari Sabtu nemenin Uli, hari Minggunya resepsinya temen kantor. Kalau melihat proses mereka "berjodoh" cukup unik..tapi ga ada yang mengejutkan kecuali pemberitahuannya yang mendadak. From the first moment "they" meet, there is a butterflies in her eyes..yup I can tell you that, because I just knew when two people are match together.
    next saturday and sunday, got invitation to the wedding party again..ooooh tired..should booked my hours minimum 4 hours..and I hate that, since I'm not yet write my thesis. OOOH temptation, I should manage my time..and for that I put all in the end of the line
    Semangat...SKRIPSI

    17 May 2005

    ..a POEM from a friend..

    From: Sobin
    Tuesday, May 17, 2005 11:06:00 AM
    Subject: Hi u got a wonderful smile !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Message:
    well u got a smile like sunflower

    u got a smile like the rainbow in sky after rain
    u got the smile that inspires me to be a poet
    u got a smile like my friend henny
    thanks for ur smile and always smile
    bye

    The Best in Me

    From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine
    You touched my hand
    And I knew that this was gonna be our time
    I don't ever wanna lose this feeling
    I don't wanna spend a moment apart
    'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
    That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
    Every day that I'm here with youI know that it feels right
    And I've just got to be near you every day and every night
    And you know that we belong together
    It just had to be you and me
    It was funny, suddenly at noon, sitting in my room, I miss him..the feeling is deep, and all I can do is say a little prayer for him..if maybe one day our path cross I hope I could be able to show my feeling.

    13 May 2005

    ..My feeling..

    ..this morning I meet Tanti again, she ask me to meet ! well gue sebenarnya mau aja ketemu, tapi honestly gue males kalo mendiskusikan love game, and being in love, or broken heart..shortly love matters..I'm not in the mood to discuss this matter.
    Sorry friend..recently I'm kinna allergic to this, although I like to watch drama or romantic movie..but doesn't meant I can stand with all your story. But I promise you, I have two good ears and one big heart for you..
    hidup kan bukan melulu mengenai cinta walaupun love make the world goes around!!
    ..yessss peace begins with a smile!!, when you got angry, but then you look a piece of smile on someone face, your HEART becomes melt..so don't underestimate the price of a SMILE...
    ..HAPPY face and big SMILE..thanks Pak Teguh..and thanks friends for the friendship that you give, and for a surprise..I put this on my blog, with a hope when I grow old, I could still see this smile, and remember the happy moments during my class at Penulisan Media Humas..

    11 May 2005

    an advice from a friend..

    Dearest girl friend..

    I'm sorry I can't always besides you when you needed me..I remember many time you ask me for lunch and I can't full fill, or you want to tell your story, but I don't have time to listen.
    Friend, in life not everything we wish for we can get..in life we need miracle, faith, and dream to go on from day to another day, above all we need God to make everything stays on track.

    When you think something is the end, sometimes it only the beginning..one thing that I will never bored to reminds you..DON'T LET GO your FAITH, because you will need faith when life seems so unfair..you need faith to make a decission..you need faith to stay HAPPY..

    >>for tanty "all happiness is in the mind"

    06 May 2005

    say hello...say goodbye...

    ..in any relations there will be time to say hello and to say goodbye. The most hard part is when you decide to say goodbye, but some parts of your heart still hoping there will be time to say hello again....

    A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
    A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
    But all the miles had separate
    They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
    I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
    I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
    I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
    And tonight it’s only you and me
    The miles just keep rollin as the people either way to say hello
    I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go
    I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
    I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
    I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
    And tonight girl it’s only you and me
    Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
    And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done it get hard but it won’t take away my love I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
    I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
    I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
    And tonight girl it’s only you and me

    (3 Doors Down)

    29 April 2005

    Tas Favoritmu Cirikan Minat Karirmu

    dicuplik dari hanyawanita.com

    Perempuan yang menyukai tas besar yang muat segala barang biasanya memandang hidup itu mengalir lancar laksana air. Sama seperti bagaimana dia mengisi 'kantong ajaib' khas Dorameon ini dengan semua kebutuhan, jika ada keperluan mendadak si penyuka big bags tak merasa panik.

    Terkait karir, penggemar tas besar akan meraih puncak kesenangan di bidang pekerjaan yang memberikan tingkat fleksibilitas tinggi. Dia bisa mengatur waktu antara pekerjaan dan 'karirnya' sebagai ibu rumah tangga, mengantar-jemput anak sekolah.Penyuka big bags cocok bekerja di bidang yang membutuhkan analisis dan pemikiran mendalam, seperti ahli statistik, atau bahkan pakar komputer yang andal. Nah, dia juga bisa menjadi jurnalis atau wartawan yang tangguh, atau peneliti yang tekun, bahkan membuka jasa konsultan atau PR (public relation). Jika kebetulan ada bakat membuat kerajinan tangan atau meracik perhiasan, si pencinta tas besar bakalan betah dan umumnya sukses.
    Atau jika berani memulai bisnis sendiri, seperti menjadi instruktur olehraga, ikut MLM, menjadi agen asuransi, bisa dilakukan. Karena kepiawaian dalam berbicara ditunjang kemampuan manajerial yang oke, si ratu tas besar juga cocok lho jadi seorang manajer penjualan.
    Karena sifatnya yang tak suka dikekang, si penyuka tas besar lebih suka diberi kebebasan waktu dalam berkarya. Falsafah bekerja '9 to 5' tak begitu cocok untuknya, karena perempuan karir ini lebih suka result oriented. Kelebihan lainnya adalah, ratu tas besar mampu membuat keputusan penting secara bijak, meski tak ada pimpinan. Apalagi jika dia mendapat mandat penuh dari atasan.
    ..i think that's me.. :~P

    27 April 2005

    April, 27 2005

    last night around 10 pm Irene start to wish me happy birthday in advance, Arlind which is my sista, sms me too (our birthday is come), then Fred (my buddy) called me after 12 pm, "what a surprise from you..after all those year you still remember my b'day"..Ito called me with his sleepy voice (thanks) then Boru and Yulia, wish me, they are my pad friends..Bung Ray sms me too.."your sms is beautiful"
    Morning comes my other buddy, Maradona sms me with his new number, after that i received sms from MOMMY, and then Dina (my junor high school best friend) sms me with words "hello beautiful" hehehe..then at office I start to call Tegar, my buddy which is we born in the same date but different year..and my mom call me..Yeah a HAPPY DAY
    FRIENDZZZ thanks for remember my b'day..I feel great and hope till afternoon and night I will have another surprise from a person called FRIENDS, you guys are so special to ME..
    ..happy birthday to me..happy birthday to me..blow out the candle, make a wish and eat the cake..(No real cake for today)

    26 April 2005

    RAINBOW by South Border

    Fallin' out, fallin' in
    Nothing's sure in this world no, no
    Breakin' out, breakin' in
    Never knowin' what lies ahead
    We can really never tell it all no, no, no
    Say goodbye, say hello
    To a lover or friend
    Sometimes we never could understand
    Why some things begin then just end
    We can really never tell it all no, no, no
    But oh, can't you see
    That no matter what happens
    Life goes on and on
    So baby, just/please smile
    Coz im always around you
    And ill make you see how beautiful
    Life is for you and me
    Take a little time baby
    See the butterflies color's
    Listen to the birds that were sent
    To sing for me and you
    Can you feel me
    This is such a wonderful place to be
    Even if there is pain now
    Everything would be all right
    For as long as the world still turns
    There will be night and day
    Can you hear me
    There's a rainbow always after the rain
    Ohh, whoa
    Hittin' high, hittin' low
    Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah
    Getting warm, getting cold
    Weather could be so good or bad
    But baby this is life now don't get mad no, no, no
    Coz oh, cant you see
    That no matter what happens
    Life goes on and on
    So baby, please smile
    Coz im always around you
    And ill make you see how beautiful
    Life is for you and me
    Life's full of challenges
    Not all the time we get what we want
    But don't despair my dear coz I know now
    You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm
    Coz you're strong my faith in you is clear
    So ill say once again this worlds wonderful and
    Let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful
    Ohhhh

    There's a rainbow always after the rain

    Monday

    ..every person has their own problem, big, small, medium. It doesn't matter the size, because a problem still a problem it waits us to solve them. Problem make us worried and because we worry much, we start to doubt our faith.
    Talking about faith, got interesting conversation last night. My friend telling me about her problem (big problem) and in the end she starts to doubt her faith. For me faith isn't just about we believe to God, but when we believe to ourselves that's also a faith.
    When you start to analyze life, when you start to doubt what you believe it will makes you weak. Often times we don't know God's plan, many times we wait till we are dying but still God don't give an answer.
    But when we start to discuss or telling our problem, we realize that everybody has their own problem. We can only doing the best thing, and wait for the best, although when we do something still we don't know if what we do is the best THING!
    ..I know I couldn't give a good answer to your question, but I have two ears and one heart to listen your problem..

    14 April 2005

    ..a b o u t LOVE

    yup..i'm going to write bout love.. some said love conquers all, others said love is not enough.
    for me????? to deal with love you must Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts.
    often times, i love someone but that person refused it or someone loves me but i don't feel that way. so i think, if someone loves you it's not so special but if you love someone that is special. Because if you wished to be loved, love..

    07 April 2005

    I'll Do Anything FOR U

    Anything for you
    Though you're not here
    Since you said we're through
    It seems like years
    Time keeps draggin' on and on
    And forever's been and gone
    Still I can't figure what went wrong

    I'd still do anything for you
    I'll play your game
    You hurt me through and through
    But you can have your way
    I can pretend each time I see you
    That I don't care and I don't need you
    And, though you'll never see me cryin'
    You know, inside, I feel like dying

    And I'd do anything for you
    In spite of it all
    I've learned so much from you
    You made me strong
    But don't you ever think that I don't love you
    That, for one minute, I forgot you
    But, sometimes, things don't work out right
    And (I) just have to say goodbye

    I hope you find someone to please you
    Someone who'll care and never leave you
    But, if that someone ever hurts you
    You just might need a friend to turn to

    And I'd do anything for you
    I'll give you up
    If that's what I should do
    To make you happy
    Don't you ever think that I don't love you
    That, for one minute, I forgot you
    But, sometimes, things don't work out right
    And (I) just have to say goodbye

    some can work this thing out but some failed... to bad we are not in the same team. But I would not regret the past, just closed another chapter of my life and begins with the new one!
    I let you go..

    04 April 2005


    When I heard about his illness and after that I start to receive a sms, told that he was died (rumor), I do not really pay attention to that. I think he is old anyway, what can you expect from a person in 84 years of age. Till it really happen, that he is gone, I heard this news when I attend a morning mass, last Sunday. Oh God I feel pain in my heart. He is a great person, a great Pope. He fought till the very last minute of his life.

    by eyank

    Be Not Afraid

    Christ at the center of all things was a theme to which John Paul II returned until the very end of his life and which served as his unceasing prayer for the church and the world. On Oct. 22, 1978, only a few days after his election as pontiff of the Roman Catholic Church, Pope John Paul II called upon the world: "Be not afraid. Open wide the doors to Christ. To his saving power upon the boundaries of states, economic and political systems, the vast fields of culture, civilization and development. Do not be afraid.

    An atheist's tribute to the good shepherd
    I’m 60, a man who long ago stopped believing in God, the types of God fashioned by man, the type of God believed in by John Paul II. But, on this day of grief, April 3, 2005, I honor, in my own way the passing of this great man.

    Even an atheist must honor a man like John Paul II. This man, this pope, lived the ideals that he professed, the ideals of Christianity, and did so aggressively. No sitting in Rome for John Paul II. He traveled the world with relentlessness; he movingly kissed the soil of each new land arrived at. He reached out to the sick, the poor, the dispossessed. He lectured the rich and powerful. He was conservative in the finest sense of that word, even for me a liberal, for he loved sinners and forgave them even while setting, through his agenda, very strict standards.

    His conservatism never seemed ugly, punitive, unforgiving. What stunning leadership. He fought communism and I wonder if the full story of his leadership against that doctrine will ever be fully known? A son of Poland, perhaps her greatest, his life span had allowed him to see close up the evils of the 20th Century’s enslaving doctrines.

    He used that insight wisely and relentlessly. Across the globe, wherever he went, the faithful would gather to catch a glimpse of this man who spoke of a better world. And so, even non-believers like me mourn his passing. We join the ranks of those who will miss him. And we smile with appreciation knowing that stubborn and skeptical though we may be, John Paul viewed people like us with love, tolerance and above all faith. He,through the experience of his decades, knew that ultimately faith is so much stronger than doubt. He was and will remain the good shepherd. —Peter Twomey, Marshfield, MA
    (taken from http://www.msnbc.msn.com/)

    31 March 2005


    I believe that nothing in life is Unimportant...
    by eyank

    Doing The Best Thing..

    Time will never come back! what i have is now (today), yesterday is the past, and tomorrow is too uncertainty. But I know, what goes around comes around...
    Yesterday, I'm browsing some website, and I found very interesting quotation:
    Work like you don't need the money
    Love like you've never been hurt
    Dance like nobody's watching
    Sing like nobody's listening
    Live like it's heaven on Earth

    The first time I read that, I said it's impossible!! but after deep thought, I know that is what Gandhi, Mother Theresa did it..even when they are not in earth anymore but time has written their name in the stone.

    If we put our name in the sand, the wind will easily blow out, but if our name written on the stone, wind can't take anywhere...

    28 March 2005

    Someone That I Used To Love

    When I wake up each morning/Trying to find myself/And if I'm ever the least unsure/I always remind myself/Though you're someone in this world/That I'll always choose to love/From now on You're only someone That I used to love

    As for me, it's getting down/To the last unspoken part/When you must begin to ease The pain of a broken heart/Tell me why should I even care/If I have to lose your love/From now on you're only someone That I used to love

    I wish it was enough for you/All the love I had to give/And I did my best to keep you satisfied/I guess you'll never know/How much I tried, I really tried/And if ever our paths should cross again/Well, you won't find me/Being the one to get lost again/Once I had so much to give/But you just refused my love/From now on you're only someone That I used to love

    And I did my best to keep you satisfied/I guess you'll never know How much I tried, I really tried/And if ever our paths should cross again/Well, you won't find me Being the one to get lost again/Once I had so much to give/But you just refused my love/From now on you're only someone That I used to love

    Tonight you're someone in this world/That I'll always choose to love/From now on you're only someone That I used to love/Hoo, from now on you're only someone That I used to love

    Easter Blessing..

    Wooww..it sounds that God hear my plea. This I called an Easter Blessing.
    I take this life by making one small step each day I woke up. My life is like a serendipity, this is true. Though I want him, but consider the depths between us, I never ask for more and I never expected too much.
    So..if this is my cross, I take that risk, I'm trying to build the bridge between us..
    Xmas, New Year, His B'day, Valentines Day, Easter Day..it's a blessed from up above for me and him.

    23 March 2005

    Between Friendzz

    About me and friendzz..
    I'm not sure, what should i put in this blog, the last time i try to write bout "time", I couldn't publish my post.
    I want to tell a story bout God's Two Boxes, I received this story this morning, on my email box.

    I have in my hands two boxes, Which God gave me to hold.
    He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box, And all your joys in the gold."
    I heeded His words, and in the two boxes, Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
    But though the gold became heavier each day, The black was as light as before.
    With curiosity, I opened the black, I wanted to find out why, And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,Which my sorrows had fallen out by.
    I showed the hole to God, and mused,"I wonder where my sorrows could be!"He smiled a gentle smile and said,"My child, they're all here with me."
    I asked God, why He gave me the boxes, Why the gold and the black with the hole?
    "My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings, The black is for you to let go and let GOD ."

    After I read that, I begins to count my blessings, my first blessing this morning, I woke up in healthy body then my second blessings I arrived save in the office, then it's a blessings, I can chat with two my lovely bestfriends, and in the lunch time..It's a blessing that, finally I can call him. The Blessing still continue..
    I believe if I put all my problems in God's boxes, his hands will carry me out of my problem.
    He sent an angel, call friendz..to help me out and solve my problem, to motivate me, to stand besides me, so I don't feel lonely...

    21 March 2005

    Manage my Time

    Though just have a few time, but i want to put something on my blog..
    I want, one day, if my script (skripsi) get done... i want to looking back at my "busy" time,
    When every minutes of my time seems so precious.

    17 March 2005

    Soulmate

    What is a soulmate?
    "A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks."
    Somedays ago, my friend told me, her soulmate could be He or She.
    I think it's true..because I realize, that a soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.
    For other person, we could be a soulmate or even an angel.
    Yes, we are an angel with one wing, we can only fly if we hold each other wings.
    Today, I have found out my soulmate and my angel..

    In time of trouble I will turn on you (irene) asking your wing, so we could fly together.
    In the hard time, I found out that God always carry me out, he always send his angel..

    15 March 2005

    I can’t stop lovin’ you

    There’s a time and place for everything, for everyone
    We can push with all our might, but nothin’s gonna come
    Oh no, nothin’s gonna change
    And if I asked you not to try
    Oh could you let it be

    I wanna hold you and say
    We can’t throw this all away
    Tell me you won’t go, you won’t go
    Do you have to hear me say

    I can’t stop lovin’ you
    And no matter what I say or do
    You know my heart is true, oh I can’t stop loving you

    You can change your friends, your place in life
    You can change your mind, we can change the way we say
    And do anytime Oh no, but I think you’ll find
    That when you look inside your heart
    Oh baby, I’ll be there, yeah

    Hold on I’m holding on Baby,
    just come on, come on, come on
    I just wanna hear you say
    I can’t stop lovin’ you
    And no matter what you say or do
    You know my heart is true, oh I can’t stop lovin’ you
    Oh, I’m so twisted and tied

    And all I remember
    Was how hard we tried
    Only to surrender
    And when it’s over I know how it’s gonna be
    And true love will never die
    No, not fade away And I can’t stop lovin’ you

    No matter what I say or do
    You know my heart is true, oh I can’t stop lovin’ you
    And I know what I got to do
    Hey ray, what you said is true I can’t stop lovin’ you, oh Oh,
    I can’t stop lovin’ you

    14 March 2005


    It's me on monday afternoon, using bang Idon's camera
    by eyank

    HAVE YOU EVER ?

    Have you ever been just sitting there and all of a sudden you feel like doing something nice for someone you care for? THAT'S GOD talking to you through the Holy Spirit.

    Have you ever been down and out and nobody seems to be around for you to talk to? THAT'S GOD wanting you to talk to Him.

    Have you ever been thinking about somebody that you haven't seen in a long time and then next thing you know you see them or receive a phone call from them?
    THAT'S GOD. There is no such thing as coincidence.

    Have you ever received something wonderful that you didn't even ask for, like money in the mail, a debt that had mysteriously been cleared, or a coupon to a department store where you had just seen something you needed, but couldn't afford?
    THAT'S GOD knowing the desires of your heart.

    Have you ever been in a situation and you had no clue how it was going to get better, how the hurting would stop, how the pain would ease, but now you look back on it. . .. THAT'S GOD passing us through tribulation to see a brighter day

    A Great Week

    Mayla Hubahib Colance, or Irene..
    Look I'm trying to write in English, though it's not easy, cause been so long not to use english in my daily conversation. Hope u can understand that.
    All I can say, that last week I have a great time, because you are there..
    You are a nice person, and thanks for mention my name in your blog :)
    Thanks for adding some comments to my blog, and thanks for writing a poetry for me. That's one thing in common..
    Thanks for the picture of Christian Bautista, I guess I don't want to grow old because of him :P
    and thanks for being my friend!
    I hope we could meet in person..

    09 March 2005

    DO NOT FOLLOW ME I'M LOST TOO

    when i'm in hurry to office this morning, it's late actually, in the crowded street, right in front of me i saw that sign (Do not Follow me, I'm Lost too) huaahhaa...

    03 March 2005


    "What is hope?
    Hope is wishing for a thing to come true;
    faith is believing that it will come true."

    by eyank

    "Do Not Be Discouraged If Your Plans Do Not Succeed The First Time.

    "Do Not Be Discouraged If Your Plans Do Not Succeed The First Time. No One Learns To Walk By Taking Only One Step."

    maunya serba cepat, ga perlu revisi, langsung di-approve, dan langsung dapat dosen pembimbing. tapi itu kan mau gue :P
    kenyataannya, mesti revisi, dan blum tentu juga abis revisi langsung di-approve, nikmatin aja kali yee..

    02 March 2005

    Good News

    not just good but great news..
    I'm so happy to hear that..
    I believe in every path that you choose, you get the best and you can make it into the BEST
    and you always get my support in every way that you choose.

    28 February 2005

    Kapan yaah

    Terima kasih Tuhan saya punya teman-teman yang menyenangkan, punya teman-teman yang mau mendengarkan, punya teman-teman yang memperhatikan dan menguatkan.
    Ketika hidup seperti....................
    ketika lelah menunggu...............
    ketika ga tau mesti mengambil keputusan..........
    ketika sangat-sangat bosan....
    kau ingatkan masih ada satu kata..BERSYUKUR..
    bahwa:
    masih bisa merasakan hidup
    masih diberi kesempatan menunggu (walau tak tahu kapan dapat jawabannya)
    masih diberi pilihan
    masih diberi rutinitas,,,,,,
    above all Tuhan meminta kita menunggu karena mempunyai alasan.

    TEA, toast and Honey, make it SUNNY in the rainy d a y..
    by eyank

    26 February 2005


    (sosrowijayan) 30 Jan'05
    by eyank

    25 February 2005

    WHEN TIME TO c h o o s e

    Here I'm in the moment to choose
    When time to choose comes, yang ada ga segampang bayangan tapi ga sesulit yang dibayangin
    LOOOHH? maksudnya gimana nih
    kalo ada 2 pilihan: A dan B
    tetap masih ada pilihan ke 3
    dan pilihan itu adalah tidak memilih A dan B atau malah memilih kedua-duanya.
    Kalo tidak memilih A dan B, sounds fair for A and B, but not for me..
    Kalo memilih kedua-duanya naah ini baru fair for me, tapi ga buat A & B (but who cares bout that) as long as make me happy....
    so selfish!!

    22 February 2005

    CinTapuccino

    GRRRRR..
    baru baca kata pengantarnya aja dah gue banget..quarter life crisis..
    baca ini novel bikin gue bisa berdamai dengan "keinginan hati" dan mempercayai segala sesuatu ada waktunya juga mempercayai proses.
    Toh kalo jodoh, ada aja jalannya untuk ketemu!!
    setiap orang mempunyai kisah cinta sendiri dan itulah indahnya hidup..
    Ga selamanya yang namanya obsesi itu berarti negatif.
    1. Apakah gue pernah mempunyai seorang "nemo" ? YUP..
    2. Apakah gue pernah menjadi "rahmi" ? sure, I was..(and don't like it)
    3. Apakah masih terobsesi dengan seseorang? yeaah

    15 February 2005


    CINTA itu tidak datang atas unsur paksaan atau suatu alasan, tapi CINTA hanya akan datang tanpa kita tahu Kedatangannya..
    by eyank

    14 February 2005

    Love Takes Time

    Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others including Love.
    One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left.

    Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment. When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help.
    Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

    Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.
    Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness, let me go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"
    Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!
    Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you."

    It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that Love even forgot to ask the elder her name.
    When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Love, realizing how much Love owed the elder, asked Knowledge, another elder, " Who helped me?"
    "It was Time," Knowledge answered.
    "Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
    Knowledge smiled with great Wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

    07 February 2005

    I really care bout YOU

    Aneh..
    awalnya I can't go on another day without thinking about you, seing you, and hear your voice
    selalu menantikan kesempatan bertemu..
    dan kini..malah lega melihatmu tidak berada disampingku..
    walau aku masih merindu tapi aku lega.
    Mungkin..
    aku mulai terbiasa tanpamu, tanpa percakapan yang hangat, tanpa kata-katamu yang merindu.
    Aaaggghh..senangnya mempunyai waktu sendiri tanpa memikirkanmu.
    Aagghh leganya..
    I CARE BOUT YOU BUT NOT SURE YET!

    01 February 2005

    Yogyakarta 28 - 30 januari 2005

    jam 6.15 dah di Cengkareng, padahal pesawatnya baru jam 9 take off..weh suwi men.
    "monggo, malioboro, alun-alun, pathuk, taman sari", kata bang becak..eehhmm ini bener-bener yogya, kota yang ngangenin.
    Hari pertama tiba, my schedule, makan (laper dari jam 5 dah pergi dari Depok), trus check in dan nyekar ke mbah putri dan om, sebelah selatan yogya... don't see my family there because my uncle have to go to city soon! then go to Salam (daerah Magelang) menghadiri acara siraman nuke dan nemenin midodareni..
    Jam 20.30 dijemput lagi dan lgs menuju hotel, eeh sempat juga muter-muter nyari toko buah yg masih buka (walah) ternyata bu nuke, lupa blum beli buah buat persembahan. Trus sampai hotel, ganti baju, dan jalan ke malioboro, nyari makanan buat temen-temen yg baru aja datang..lesehan di malioboro, sumpah bakal kecewa, ga enak, dan mahal, disitu harga ayam goreng bisa 9000..lohhh!! ini kan jogja bukan jakarta..jelas mahal banget! tapiii mas pengamennya boleh juga..heuhehhee..mitra bestari ampe speechles, jadi mo request satu lagu neeh.
    Sabtu pagi..ke pemberkatan nuke di salam, foto-foto dan kemudian pulang ke sosrowijayan, terus ke kota gede, cari perak, beli cincin terus ke kasongan lihat pernak-pernik, kalo dah punya rumah sendiri pengen juga nih dekor dengan pernak-pernik yang cute dan etnik. Malam ke resepsi di Balai Sinta...foto-foto..emang cewe-cewe ini banci kamera semua ga nahan liat ada kamera!!
    Malam minggu, ke alun-alun ngidul, niatnya mo buktiin jalan lurus melewati dua pohon beringin tapi ga pada punya nyali, ramai banget di lapangan, dah deh ga usah ntar malah nubruk orang!!!Weeh ramenya alun-alun..berderet penjual wedang ronde, akhirnya lesehan di tikar pesen wedang ronde (cukup 2000 saja semangkuk kecil), ngobrool sambil liat orang-orang yg pada nyasar lewatin pohon beringin then go home sleep tight! (Ngantuuk berat)
    Minggu pagi, jam 10..ke Taman Sari naik becak pulang pergi 10 ribu! rutenya sosrowijayan-taman sari-jalan pathuk-es eni. Selama 3 hari disana langganan di es eni, cukup murah untuk ukuran jakarta terus ditambah banyak pilihan makanan dan lumayan bersih!
    Sore, yang lain pada lanjut ke malioboro ngeborong oleh-oleh but I stay at hotel..malezzz hehehe tidur aja ahhhh...malioboro dah sering banget gue ukur panjangnya, lagian nyokap n bokap baru aja dari yogya, ga perlu beli oleh-oleh kan (males apa duit dah abis??) :P
    Jam 5 sore, siap ke airpot, wah pulang lagi deh ke Jakarta!!!

    Please dech..

    ..please deh..don't asked me with that silly question "kamu kenapa?"
    ... please give me S P A C E..
    Please jangan suka mau tau urusan orang lain, semisal curi-curi liat ada apa di monitor gue.. ini udah yang sekian kali nich..dan kali yang terakhir, I will scream louder!!! and if you read this stop doing that thing!!!
    gue paling ga suka sama orang yang pengen bangeeeeet tau urusan orang lain!
    SO WHAT ? yang penting be responsible khan..
    PLEASE STOP DOING THAT THING...