self portrait & on graduation day

Mountain Range..Pesona Alam--Bagedor

Sabtu lalu gue jalan-jalan ke Puncak, dan seneng banget bisa foto-foto di sana. Pemandangannya indah, tempatnya juga bersih. So if you want to go camping but don't want get wet and dirty, you could go to "Bagedor" Cisarua Puncak, located near from Taman Safari Cisarua this place I recommended if you want to spend your weekend with out door activities.
Besides that accross from Bagedor there are some villa in the area named Pesona Alam, but remember don't try asking to villager about Bagedor coz it useless no body know it so better asking where is Pesona Alam Villa, it's more famous. If you find that villa you will find Bagedor.

........Best Friend...

Last Tuesday I called my friend, and sad to find out she just had misscarried. She was so happy heared my news, I told her that I just have my graduation day.

Last year I have a big big lesson, what does a friend means? then how to maintain the ralationship. So I end-up with conclusion this relations sometimes bring you so much happines but sometimes bring you a problem. Life is a bunch of problems?

By the way, I have known Pinta since my college time, there were time when we so close, after we graduted and have a job we still seeing each other, then maybe because of her work, I remember she was so busy then she stop meet us, I have another friend whose name is Linda. For me Linda is like a sista...with her, I can throw my spirit of competition, so we put our relations first.

Well anyway our friendship nowdays going strong because we have through the years and problems, and this time she needs our support and prayer.

I think that's what friends are for.......for good times and bad times.

Although sometimes we fight and againts to each other but the ability to forgive and forget are the medicine to cure the hurted and dissapointed.

Friends Forever !!

Wednesday, 25 09:00 WIB

Di bus tadi pagi dalam perjalanan ke kantor dari rumah, gue berpikir untuk "absent" dari kantor. Cape banget man!! semalam keluar kantor jam 6 sore hujan terus hampir satu jam gue nungu bus ke rumah udah mau give up, last minute bus mayasari itu datang juga..akhirnya jam 8 malam gue sampai dengan selamat di rumah.

Terus ini pagi mau bangun rasanya maleeeeessss walhasil gue kesiangan, jam 6.30 baru keluar dari rumah..macet..cet untuk mencapai halte. Duduk di halte nunggu bus, sambil nyanyi berdoa menghilangkan kebete-an karena bus mayasari jurusan Depok ga muncul muncul. Srrrrrtttt tiba-tiba ada cewe maniz turun dari metromini looooh itu kan si Yuni..ternyata dia senyum ama bapak yang duduk di sebelah gue, terus dia nyadar kalo gue disitu. Ngobrol bentar terus bus dia datang duluan. Dari pembicaraan yang singkat gue tahu rumahnya di Kav. DKI...OOOo..

I was or still admiring his brother but never had a courage to..or at least trying to find information about her bro..wuaaaahhhh..

Many times our path cross, twice I remember but the last time I only shake his hand and smiling..I lost my bravery !! so until one day I decide to put her bro on black box, stop admiring him.

Pas dah dekat kantor gue baru inget hari ini gue beli kamera yang akan diantar siang nanti. Waaaah duitnya juga gue titip di kantor. Yahhh hilang nih bonus bulan ini, busyeeet jam brapa gue sampe kantor?? almost 9. Then when I arrive at office Ratih said she had put my presents card on the machine..it means absent gue ga merah.

Wooooooooo another surprise from God !!!

Thanks Father..

kadangkala hidup mengharuskanmu menangis...

Kadangkala hidup mengharuskanmu menangis tanpa sebab. Kau merasa sudah berbuat baik dan benar, tetapi masih banyak kritikan yang dialamatkan kepadamu. Kau mengira keputusan yang kau ambil sudah tepat, ternyata perkiraanmu keliru. Jangan putus asa! Bangkitlah!

Matahari tanpa sinar tidak layak di sebut matahari.Demikian juga dengan dirimu. Kau adalah matahari yang seharusnya memancarkan sinar, sekalipun mendung kelabu menutupi pandangan orang untuk melihat keindahan cahayamu. Anakku yang terkasih Aku sering melihat mu marah ketika kau melihat orang lain berhasil.
Untuk apa kau menginginkan keberhasilan orang lain?
Bukankah Aku telah menyediakan suksesmu sendiri?
Kau tidakpernah mengejarnya, jadi kau tidak pernah bisa memilikinya!
Matamu tidak terfokus kepada rancanganKU yang dahsyat atas hidupmu, melainkan tertuju kepada karyaKU yangluar biasa terhadap diri orang lain.
Jadilah seperti air. Selalu mengalir....melewati semua benda, menembus semua sisi dan tanpa batas. Anakku, jangan mau dikalahkan oleh keadaan, tetapi kalahkan keadaan !

Anakku yang terkasih.. Jangan sakit hati ketika kau ditegur, padahal kau merasa sudah mengerjakan yang terbaik. Sakit hati itu hanya akan membuat tidurmu tidak nyenyak dan perasaaanmu tidak nyaman. Buanglah itu dari hatimu dan pikiranmu!
Kuasailah dirimu sedemikian rupa hingga kamu bisa mengatasi perasaan diperlakukan tidak adil, dilecehkan, diremehkan ataupun dikhianati oleh sesamamu.
Bukankah memang untuk itu kau hidup? Untuk melihat kenyataan bahwa didunia ini yang paling mengerti perasaanmu dan menerimadirimu apa adanya hanya AKU? Jauhilah segala bentuk kemarahan, tetapi jangan jauhi AKU! AnakKu, ingatlah hal ini baik - baik. Aku selalu membuka tanganKu lebar- lebar untuk memberimu rasa aman, kapanpun kau membutuhkannya. Aku senantiasa menyiapkan bahu untuk tempat kepalamu bersandar dan mencurahkan tangis. Aku melakukannya karena Aku sungguh - sungguh pedulipadamu !!!

Ayah yang selalu mengasihimu...TUHAN

wisuda..

Dear Bloggers,

Next February 4th I will graduated from faculty of Comunication Science..and today I have a card invitation to attend the graduation ceremonial.
As soon as receiving the invitation card suddenly I remember the moment (2004) I think when a boy who that time have "crush" on me asking me to come to his graduation ceremony. I was so speechless cause he asked me to come to his city which is about 3 hours from where I live ! it's just a memory flash..and I never show up anyway coz I feel so indifferent. I don't think I have helped him during his study..ggggrrr..grrrr...and what should I do when I meet his family?
so this year I open with graduating from my college and then find a new job and hubby maybe?
wish me luck bloggers...

the hero would Be You

tahun baru, new resolutions, karir baru, new hair cut, new boy friend..everything is new?
i love 2005 but 2005 was over..and fourth day in a new year..
let's back to 2005 ...
tahun lalu tiba-tiba someone from the past, actually i never get to know him so well..asking me for second chance. i don't answer him that time but if he push me to answer i'll say there's no second chance, the last time i gave the second chance to a boy it's 3 years ago..waaaah..
then during last month i meet very interesting guy (stranger), the last one living so far..hmmmm
then third days in new year someone (my old buddy) proposed me by ym..hahhh!! asking to marry me, perlu brapa lama pendekatan? hoooooo..
well, i think i get chrush to someone, although i hate this feeling, coz he's not by my side..but i still can't move his face from my mind.

YEAR'S-end TRIP

from west java till east java..from 23 till 27 December by road. Start 5 AM in the morning my trip is begins. Here some pictures I took during my trip.
* statue of Sukarno (the first president of Republic of Indonesia)
* Sukarno's monument
* Goa Maria Poh Sarang
* Cookies market at Klaten

pictures from my thesis final defend

December 10, 2005 start from 10.30 AM, then at 11.00 AM thesis presentation begins..
this pictures was taken by my friend, vanny or i used to call him vanny-san. all i can say thanks for coming friends, thanks for everything..you makes my life bright !

causin's wedding

Some pictures from Anin's wedding sacrament..
This wedding ceremony was held in Javanese tradition.
Congratulations for both of them..
As I predict before, aunty gives me a question, when is my turn? and I said next year !! (though I dunno what's year)
I don't really bother it much since I know marriage sometimes can be easy and not easy..it's a matter of choice and time..

..thesis defended on dec, 10

Start from 3 AM in the morning I can't sleep anymore, I was so nervous with my big day, even I already doing some preparation but my body was so alert..
then..at 8 AM, my cell was ringing, mom called said she's waiting downstair..here we go the battle just start it. Some friends comming to watch my court..even mom was attending too, Tina, Salman, Jimmy, Peny, and Vanny were my supporter !
so..at 11 AM, the chief start the opening and then the examiner lecturer start questioning me some long questions..thank God I can answered all the question..and not long after that I was told that I passed the examination and graduated from Faculty of Social Science & Politics University of Indonesia.
and after that, party was held by my brother we ate at Italian restaurant for lunch, and my cell start beeping some of my friends send congrutulation wishing...
Thanks God once again and thanks friend for the support & prayer, and to my family I love you much..your support was my motivation and inspired me to achieve what I always want it !

..my heart pump-in

3 days start from now I will have a big day, Saturday comes so fast..tik..tik..tik the clock can't stop it. Everybody told me that everything is gonna be okay, my friends, my parents, I hope everything will be running so smooth. Oh can't wait any longer...
so this time just prepare the best I can do, the rest is I put on HIS hand.

down, desperate, hate..(the negative emotion)

After thinking over and over, and trying to see in the bright side, but today I feel I lost my patience ! I think I lost all motivation to work on this company, everything seems so unpleasure, I start to think that my job always repeating, and lack of new chalenge and journey !
so today my negative emotions seems winning my day, and I hate to tell everybody about that !
It seems I should rewind my mind, what's the main reason I still stay in this job :
1. I still working on my thesis and not yet graduated 2. no other job offer to me 3. hoping that I can continue my study abroad 4. maybe I could have a good refference by knowing a good professor and dean.
I think the most reason I still stay is not yet graduate and for study abroad !

the SUN rise next to my apartment

If is not because I'm writing my thesis I'm gonna miss this remarkable VIEW..wooow...at 6.15 in the morning..
each morning i woke up in the hurry, never have time to see the sun rise..
each morning i woke up with so many list to do..never have time to thank that today the sun rise once more..

mothers n daughters...

we are daughters and mothers..
we give and take but you give me more than I do..
you keep me warm with your love..
you always told that sky is the limit..
and i learn from you mother is a full time job and never be over till it's over..
i love you..

Last night i go for shopping for mom birthday presents, I start with a plan buy mom a white clotch and ended with a cream hand bag. I know recently she got a hard time, understanding my dad is never an easy way, she wants to make sure everything is happy, we (her children), daughter in law and grand son always taking your time too much. But you know Mom everything that you do is right, but sometimes we see it in another point of view, sorry for making you dissapointed..don't stop giving your love.

Dolce Vita

...yeah it's about my thesis, yesterday i meet my dean and she said, one week from now i have to finished my thesis..
ooh my heart start pounding, since soon i have to put a bachelor degree after my last name.
he e ehhehe..this is what i'm waiting for, but when finally comes in front of me, i feel exiting and a little scared.
and last night instead of doing my thesis, i watch bewitched n while you are sleeping. The second movie is one of my favorite..everytime i watch this movie i never see it completely, and last night too, half part yes, but then i feel asleep.
so..today and 2morrow will keep myself avere entusiasmo ! working on my thesis..

43 things to do?? I think 25 is more than enough !!

Early this morning i've seen a blog called 43 things.com, there I find people put their things to do, plan, and wishes. Well I don't think that my list will be that long...

so let's see how long is gonna be my list :
1. finish my thesis
2. praying more..specially rosary
3. go traveling to KL & Illigan (meet my lovely sis)
4. having serious relationship (commited)
5. spent my time more for mom n dad (family)
6. saying i love you more to people i care about
7. in love n being loved by a man which is the same faith with me
8. deposit my money
9. donate more
10. buy an electronic stuff (digital camera, TV flat, web cam ext.)
11. better job with more money
13. learn italy
14. study or working abroad
15. read more n watch less
16. exercise more
17. start my own family
18. doing volunteer
19. buy a car
20. having my own business
21. live in a house with good temperature n good neighborhood
22. surrounded by family n good friends
what else?? that's all i think at this moment..

how bout you??

Mr Right VS mr RIGHT now

Masih topik tentang yang berhubungan dengan cinta, suka atau tidak, mau tidak mau hidup itu indah kalau kita punya banyak cinta yang bisa dibagikan ke banyak orang.
Memutar rekaman kaset kehidupan gue, banyak banget di tahun ini gue kenal sama orang, baik yang menarik, yang menyebalkan, dan juga yang memang mengharuskan gue kenal tuh orang! but betul kalo friendship is hard to find karena ga banyak yang terus bertahan "sepanjang waktu".
Loh sebenarnya gue mau cerita tentang mr right now kan, heeeh Mr. Right Now menurut gue itu seseorang yang karena berbagai alasan dan keadaan membuat gue bertemu dengannya. Adakalanya gue bersamanya pada hitungan minggu, bulan dan juga tahun! me and him sharing manis dan pahitnya hidup ini. Bisa aja karena sesuatu hal kita berpisah! dan kemudian I meet another Mr. Right now, so gue akan pilih mr right now then mr. right karena gue masih bingung mendeskripsikan MR. RIGHT, apakah mr right itu orang yang almost sempurna? atau karena itu mr. khayalan? But I learn apa yang menurut gue "right" ternyata orang itu tidak memandang gue ms. right, dan kadang yang gue pandang sebelah mata, malah he is mr. right now.
so don't expect much and don't hurry, but don't go slowly !

tell me quando..quando

This post is inspired by the song title "quando" by michael buble..recently almost everyday I heard this music played by local radio.

Tell me when will you be mine/Tell me quando quando quando/We can share a love devine/Please don't make me wait again/When will you say yes to me/Tell me quando quando quando/You mean happiness to me/Oh my love please tell me when...

thanks for making my day looks great, thanks for saying i'm almost perfect, (gee I never felt that way), i deliver a short prayer for you today..for your happiness.. maybe one fine day, when we finally aggreed to put behind our difference and just hold on to what we believe and being able to used the word us and no longer YOU and ME..
one sweet day..but quando..quando..

>>for the person that a minutes ago i said that i miss you

SELAMAT L E B A R A N

libur telah tiba..libur telah tiba..
senangnya..
gue mau pergi camping..wowwww..
I'll miss my time sitting in front of computer and browsing and waiting my buddy online buzz me and IM me..
haahhh..gonna eat..eat..and sleepping while holiday so till I'm back from my holiday you guys take care..!!
will be miss u