to the world maybe i am just somebody but to somebody i am his world (really??)

This past two days..i sleep only 3 hours in the morning.
wuaaaaaaahhhhhhh (yawning) luckily "funny" accompanied me during my tired, desperate moment working on my thesis.
so..what's the related between the title with what I write here??? I just want to say, I am glad to have a friend like him..a friend like him nowdays is very rare.
He was postponed his sleeping time, because he knows I'm working for my thesis..so till I msg him that I done doing my thesis, he still woke up..
and..early in the morning..I had come to the conclusion, that he came home in the right time!

..what ever..

it's their life, it's their choice..it's up to them.
all i want they are happy, but if the condition like this, though i thought it's not the "perfect"
but what can i say, i think i'm hoping too much, i think i ask for much, higher than they could do.
So..what ever, what way they choose, i leave to them.
Seeing them like this only make my heart broken. i do what i can do, the rest is up to them!
but i pray for the good, that they can show their love each other.

KISAH ROMANTIS

my favorite song (this month)...sang by Glen Fredly, that are known as a musician who sing a sad song, but not this time!

mengejar dirimu takkan ada habisnya
membuat diriku menggila
bila hati ini menjatuhkan pilihan
apapun akan kulewati
hari ini sayang sangat penting bagiku
kau jawaban yg aku cari
kisah hari ini kan ku bagi denganmu
dengarlah sayang kali ini
permintaanku padamu
reff:
dan dengarlah sayangku
aku mohon kau menikah denganku
ya hiduplah denganku
berbagi kisah hidup berdua
cincin ini sayang terukirkan namamu
begitu juga di hatiku
hujan warna-warni kata orang tak mungkin
namun itu mungkin bagiku
sebuah tanda cintaku

as a girl i wonder, is there any romantic guy who dare to ask (will you marry me) just like Glen? hehehe..it's too good to be true?
anyway yesterday was my "suitor" birthday...wish you all the best, but sorry to say i don't feel the same and i don't have a heart to love you as you do..and everytime i saw your eyes, i feel guilty. Coz' your eyes telling millions thing!
life is a mystery but i believe too that we write our own story and everytime i think i know the end. I don't!

..tired, sleppy, but it's worthed

..I'm sleepy coz i don't have enough sleep but the amazing thing i feel so fresh this morning and walking very fast to office. But after lunch when my stomach is full i just noticed i feel sleepy, i hope i don't fall asleep at my desk. ....the reason i woke this morning, too early was i try to beat myself, i mean the laziness. The teacher encourage me to finish my thesis as soon as possible..so been working till 86 pages...semangat..semangat !!! today got time to check some interesting website, first website is owned by my friends, or i think so since i don't know for sure, when i had meet her, perhaps on cyber world. She is a writer and been published some novels for teenager consumption, but even i'm no longer (sometimes i pretend to be) teenager, i like to read her novel, i mean her site, not yet buy her novel

lukisan hujan

Second the blog, I completely dunno her, because i get the link from

Roy

her blog

is tipically girl blog, with lot of topics talking bout love and romance and boys (dream man)..yes tweenty something (SINGLE) but be happy because always have a romance.

..busy entertaint friendzzz

From monday up today, my friendzzz visiting me, it was surprising me, because these friends are been a while I din't meet them.
Today my friend Vany Nihon, I call him that way, because he's so crazy with Nipon/Japan stuff n always asking my news with the words, genki? the short from genki desuka?
He just finishing his study at Kroningen Netherland (i hope this is the right spell), coming and we got lunch together.
So happy to see them, because what makes you happy when you are tweenty something and single? you are sorounding by friends which we can share our experience. We are laugh together since our problem is the same, "beating ourselves". The key to be survive in this world is beat yourself !! the same topic I discuss with Roy earlier this morning.

Thanks friends...

botanical garden BOGOR part 2

more picture at Kebun Raya Bogor...

Buitenzorg (Bogor)

Last saturday got a chance to visit Kebun Raya Bogor (botanical garden). By train me and Bo went there, and only spend money 2000 rupiahs from depok to buy an economic class train and then 1000 rupiahs for "angkutan kota" or small car (public transportation car). To enter Kebun Raya every person should pay 5.500, so the total is 8.500 to breath deeply (the air still good) and spoil your eyes 'coz everywhere you look all green (big trees n flowers).

I put a little about the history of Kebun Raya Bogor :
Buitenzorg is the usual residence of the governor-general of the Dutch East Indies, and is further remarkable on account of its splendid botanical garden and for its popularity as a health resort. The botanic gardens are among the finest in the world; they originally formed a part of the park attached to the palace of the governor-general, and were established in 1817. Under J. S. Teysmann, who became hortulanus ~fl 1830, the collection was extended, and in 1868 was recognized as a government institution with a director. The palace of the governor-general was founded by Governor-General van Imhoff in 1744, and rebuilt after being destroyed by an earthquake in 1834. Buitenzorg is also the seat of the general secretary of the state railway and of the department of mines. Buitenzorg, which is called Bogor by the natives, was once the capital of the princess of Pajajaran.

..My Nemo is Coming..

Rasa penasaran itu udah hilang, it's about one man, yang dulu sempat bikin gue panasaran, kalo inget dulu..gue suka terima sms dari dia, sms yang gue pikir sekarang ga penting, tapi dulu jelas bikin gue “wondering”, bikin gue senang..hehehee..
Sampai akhirnya rasa penasaran itu tertutup dengan hal lain yang lebih penting, tertutup dengan nama-nama lain. Benar juga kalo hidup itu ga selamanya harus alur maju, kadang juga alur flashback, tapi waktu tetap jalan terus, cuma ‘emosi’ yang bikin kita ngerasa mundur.

So..this morning my ‘Nemo’ comes visiting me, I know dia juga penasaran, dan ga lebih dari itu! Gue bahkan dah melupakan dia..but I just being polite with a friend. Masih pagi baru juga 30 menit di kantor, eh my cell ringing “naughty girl” then I saw his name di layar cell gue…mmmm it’s nemo calling“halo” terus dia nanya dimana, yah di kantor dong, terus gue tanya mau kesini? Akhirnya gue pandu dia walau sempat kesasar juga..terus akhirnya gue samperin dia di mobil..begitu gue dah dekat mobilnya, dia keluar, terus salaman (though actually I like to kiss him on cheek) hehehe..

Ehh gue sempat masuk mobilnya juga siih..terus dia nunggu gue kerja, gue mesti ngetik surat dulu, terus gue ajak dia ke perpustakaan, gue tanya acaranya gimana, dia bilang janjian ama temannya di kemayoran. Gue tanya udah makan belum, katanya belum. Oke gue pilih tempat yang menurut gue nyaman, di atas kayaknya lucu juga (takor ooh takor). Kelihatannya siih dia senang banget (ciiieeeeeh) makan taoge goreng sama minum jus. Aaaah sebenarnya sih pengen berlama-lama tapi kan gue kerja.

During our conversations I don’t ask about his girlfriend or anything related to his love story, I don’t want to know!!!..we are just friend n I don’t think it’s matter for me to ask that. He said someday he wants to open "sekolah kepribadian" tapi bukan buat model..yang ini ngasih seminar-seminar to motivated people. I think di luar sana dah banyak deh seminar-seminar seperti ini! Good luck for the future!!

N i found out today, ternyata he’s not that damn good looking, but dia wangi, rapi, n nice wardrobe (a man that most of girls whish for) and he’s soft spoken. Satu lagi dia ga bisa nahan pipis (hehheehe) yang terakhir sama ama gue!Sementara gue hari ini malez pake alas bedak, malaz pake blush on..just the way Iam dengan dandanan yang minimalis, but I have a nice smile plus a good heart that’s what I think the most important thing in this world! A smile can tell many thing..can tell who you are

>>nemo is a character in cintapucino novel, which is one of my favorite novel. The novel is about a girl who obsessed with one man.

dying inside

i wanna touch you now and then make you mine till the end of my life.
i'm dying inside to wish that someday you'll be mine.
i'm afraid that one day i woke up and knowing you already tooken or i'm too late to have you.
i'm worry that i don't try harder to make you mine...
what a blue monday, wishing you are here, but in reality only me who dying inside.

this post is a picture of my heart (hati yang mengkronis)

picture of you..

..i know somebody who reads this post, will think i'm a religious girl, but this what happen to my life so far or at least yesterday. I accompanied my mom to sunday service..i have a strong wish to see "him" (can not mentioned his name yet) 'coz I dunno yet his name, though to know his name all i need just one single call to her sis!
....so long not to see him, but i dunno why i like him, i don't even know his name, his character, but i'm doing a "silent operation"...hehehehhe, my silent operation is PRAY. Then I asked to God, please let me see him once again, and let me know him. Soooo....it is shocked me 'coz after mass, when I try to look for food, God bring him right in front of me (oh my God) then I shake his hand..I really touch him, his palm!
......see.."His" plan is beautiful in time, but for those (including me) who not patient to see God working, will not understand that God need time too!!
.........Thanks God......

write our own story

"i believe we write our own story and each time we know the end we don't"

...just when I know this gonna be last..it wont..just when I predict this gonna be the end, it wont stop. Just when I hope this gonna be followed with beautiful things it turn out to be nothing..

i learn to dream and to achieve my dream, but i learn in the same time "don't hope too much" there so many factors in life that 1 + 1 many times never 2.

.....if we know nothing 'bout life..we need to raise our hand to ask God for his mercy and providance...

>> this posting is dedicate to all my friend and my future friends..if you wish to be my future friend message me at zita.henny@gmail.com have a nice day !

...THE WEDDING DATE

This post was inspired by the wedding date movie.
A friend recommended this movie..and last night I watched it. In one of the scene, the girl which is Kat realized, her ex-fiancee only a jerk that don't deserved her love, her respect at all..and it takes 7 years to understand it!
Kat trying hard to impress her family and of course her ex, by bringing an eligible bachelor home!
(hell) I've been in that position, and the only reason why I did that, I want him to respect me, and I don't want him to feel sorry and I want him to regret because he dumped me.

But I learn yesterday, the truth is he's just a jerk, he just a coward and he never learn anything..and the only reason we separated is he don't deserved to have me!

I'm so J A D E D today..

..so jaded today..the works is so boring..upss can't say that, i love my work but sometime I wanna escape from routine work!
that's all

..start my own business

..noone introduce this business, though I know it's good to make some cash money besides my salary, all I need just call my friends, my mother's friends and show them the catalogue.
can you guess what is the business? my business is selling oriflame products or in other words direct selling plus multi level marketing.
...but here, I never plan to make my own group in short periods. Then..as time goes, I have one downline, and last month in just two weeks, I make profit 17, 600 + 26, 144 rupiahs, plus 50% discount for one product and one free product with the noted, the price not more than 50,000 rupiahs.

...I want to thanks to Rosa for her patient to assist me in this business. From zero to profit!
just showing the catalogue and sell and sell..

r o m a n c i a...........romance

internet romance? it's for real?
yesterday he's so angry because I didn't replied so soon. Each day I learn something about his character, about his attitude!
knowing someone out there thinking about me makes me Happy.
Maybe I'm just curious, maybe this not gonna be a long lasting relationship but maybe we can make it if we try..
in life full of options, and full of path way to go.. i take every step with positive mind!
just wait and see...

it's time for exhale..

how many years i know the truth? how many years more i know the second truth
i don't count the time, but i'm surprised the way i found out the truth!.........
apa yang udah terjadi di belakang ga usah ditengok-tengok..it's time for me to exhale.
ternyata ooh ternyata..
dia hanya sepenggal kisah..
yang hanya untuk dilupakan..
listen to your heart..even it seems unfair..but it is very worth it

..driving a car..

my Dad allowed me to bring his car, then I drove from home to office, with parents n uncle. Thanx uncle for the lesson! it's save..and I can manage my car very well, and of course God bless me!
it's a nice..nice journey driving at 6.40 AM in Jakarta..

woowww pegel..but FUN

yesterday first day joining fitness club..it's FUN specially my first experience on fitness equipment!
I'll do it for more than one hour and yesterday I have a personal "trainer", a sweet boy with red t'shirt! hehehe..if he comes everyday, i'll go everyday too, and he said bye-bye to me when he went home. A new friendship just begins!
Tanti pick me up when the training is over, will come back again soon sweety!

my NEW ROOM and my new DREAM ho..ho..ho

saturday, 6 August 2005
Finally I made my mind, last saturday, early in morning I move to other room. Still in the same house but my new room bigger than the old one.


sunday, 7 August 2005
I want to realize my dream participated in one beauty contest, not yet happen but I make a first move, by taking close-up picture at mall. He hee..he..just see the result!!
Tanti comes visited me too in the afternoon, she asked me to pick-up her goods at ofice, she's no longer in Pasca. Just wish you all the best..my lovely friend, I miss YOU!

..a k u hari i n i..

*pagi ini ga enak badan, hidung berlendir, mata berat banget,
*perut aga mules
*rasanya dingin, padahal AC-nya cuma 28 deg C
*buka email ga ada yang menarik
*lapar..masih nunggu office boy beliin makanan
*malezz kerja
*pengennya tidur
*gejala PMS
*i wanna go home