write our own story

"i believe we write our own story and each time we know the end we don't"

...just when I know this gonna be last..it wont..just when I predict this gonna be the end, it wont stop. Just when I hope this gonna be followed with beautiful things it turn out to be nothing..

i learn to dream and to achieve my dream, but i learn in the same time "don't hope too much" there so many factors in life that 1 + 1 many times never 2.

.....if we know nothing 'bout life..we need to raise our hand to ask God for his mercy and providance...

>> this posting is dedicate to all my friend and my future friends..if you wish to be my future friend message me at zita.henny@gmail.com have a nice day !

...THE WEDDING DATE

This post was inspired by the wedding date movie.
A friend recommended this movie..and last night I watched it. In one of the scene, the girl which is Kat realized, her ex-fiancee only a jerk that don't deserved her love, her respect at all..and it takes 7 years to understand it!
Kat trying hard to impress her family and of course her ex, by bringing an eligible bachelor home!
(hell) I've been in that position, and the only reason why I did that, I want him to respect me, and I don't want him to feel sorry and I want him to regret because he dumped me.

But I learn yesterday, the truth is he's just a jerk, he just a coward and he never learn anything..and the only reason we separated is he don't deserved to have me!

I'm so J A D E D today..

..so jaded today..the works is so boring..upss can't say that, i love my work but sometime I wanna escape from routine work!
that's all

..start my own business

..noone introduce this business, though I know it's good to make some cash money besides my salary, all I need just call my friends, my mother's friends and show them the catalogue.
can you guess what is the business? my business is selling oriflame products or in other words direct selling plus multi level marketing.
...but here, I never plan to make my own group in short periods. Then..as time goes, I have one downline, and last month in just two weeks, I make profit 17, 600 + 26, 144 rupiahs, plus 50% discount for one product and one free product with the noted, the price not more than 50,000 rupiahs.

...I want to thanks to Rosa for her patient to assist me in this business. From zero to profit!
just showing the catalogue and sell and sell..

r o m a n c i a...........romance

internet romance? it's for real?
yesterday he's so angry because I didn't replied so soon. Each day I learn something about his character, about his attitude!
knowing someone out there thinking about me makes me Happy.
Maybe I'm just curious, maybe this not gonna be a long lasting relationship but maybe we can make it if we try..
in life full of options, and full of path way to go.. i take every step with positive mind!
just wait and see...

it's time for exhale..

how many years i know the truth? how many years more i know the second truth
i don't count the time, but i'm surprised the way i found out the truth!.........
apa yang udah terjadi di belakang ga usah ditengok-tengok..it's time for me to exhale.
ternyata ooh ternyata..
dia hanya sepenggal kisah..
yang hanya untuk dilupakan..
listen to your heart..even it seems unfair..but it is very worth it

..driving a car..

my Dad allowed me to bring his car, then I drove from home to office, with parents n uncle. Thanx uncle for the lesson! it's save..and I can manage my car very well, and of course God bless me!
it's a nice..nice journey driving at 6.40 AM in Jakarta..

woowww pegel..but FUN

yesterday first day joining fitness club..it's FUN specially my first experience on fitness equipment!
I'll do it for more than one hour and yesterday I have a personal "trainer", a sweet boy with red t'shirt! hehehe..if he comes everyday, i'll go everyday too, and he said bye-bye to me when he went home. A new friendship just begins!
Tanti pick me up when the training is over, will come back again soon sweety!

my NEW ROOM and my new DREAM ho..ho..ho

saturday, 6 August 2005
Finally I made my mind, last saturday, early in morning I move to other room. Still in the same house but my new room bigger than the old one.


sunday, 7 August 2005
I want to realize my dream participated in one beauty contest, not yet happen but I make a first move, by taking close-up picture at mall. He hee..he..just see the result!!
Tanti comes visited me too in the afternoon, she asked me to pick-up her goods at ofice, she's no longer in Pasca. Just wish you all the best..my lovely friend, I miss YOU!

..a k u hari i n i..

*pagi ini ga enak badan, hidung berlendir, mata berat banget,
*perut aga mules
*rasanya dingin, padahal AC-nya cuma 28 deg C
*buka email ga ada yang menarik
*lapar..masih nunggu office boy beliin makanan
*malezz kerja
*pengennya tidur
*gejala PMS
*i wanna go home

HARI KESEL SEDUNIA..kali yeeee

sebenarnya mo nulis hari ini hari ngeselin. Eiit tapi ga boleh ngomong gini..soalnya udah banyak dikasih ama Tuhan yang indah-indah..anggap aja hari ini hari LATIHAN MEMANJANGKAN KESABARAN...

sabaaaaaaaaaaaaaar suburrrrrr!!

Friday

menikmati hidup..enjoy every minute i spent with friends and family.
I've been showing my emotions, and now just continuing my life..
though sometimes i get tired but don't wanna give up

..i don't know nothing 'bout love

i thought when i get older, i will know more bout love, i will be more experience.."love doesn't make you smart", wise men said that. so when love hit me, i'm not well prepare but do love needs a reason? do i need a reason to love someone?

the song from counting crows were so nice to listen, see the lyrics.. even this (boys) band are not prepare when love comes!!! boys said woman are feel more than think, but once they (boys) fall in love..they go mad too.

So she said what's the problem baby--What's the problem I don't know--Well maybe I'm in love (love)--Think about it every time--I think about it--Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this--Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love) Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on --Turn a little faster--Come on, come on--The world will follow after
Come on, come on-- Cause everybody's after love
So I said I'm a snowball running-- Running down into the spring that's coming all this love Melting under blue skies--Belting out sunlight-- Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender-- To the strawberry ice cream--Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
We're accidentally in love --Accidentally in love

..you cant stop me to love you

I think love is a beautiful feelings towards that person whom u like with whom u like spending time with whom ur looking for whose every act u like whose presence always run in ur mind and without him/her u can't live.

M : and I want to say you I have same feelings for you
M : I love you
M : It doesn’t matter for me that u love me or not
M : caz It doesn’t necessary that a person whom I love will also love me definitely
but I must tell you, u can't stop me to love you
M : u know
M : Distance doesn't matter for me
M : I have lot of gals over here in Sydney
M : but I just looking for same feelings as u have
M : I never feel in love b4
M : Even I don’t have any GF b4
M : I know u wouldn’t believe me
M : I know its just our 2nd meeting
M : but I don’t think that it matters to say someone love
M : That’s it I want to say you
M : May be u'll not talk to me anymore

I aggreed with his definition about love..sometimes love can be so complicated but many times love is so simple. I'm happy to find out there's someone out there falling in love with me..the true happiness is whoever is happy will make others happy, too

another quotation from 'M'

"first looking first talking is enough to like someone"
"sometimes we know someone in first time and sometimes we take whole life to understand someone"

YEAH..LA..LA..LA

Wednesday afternoon my boss is out of office..so I could do anything else except finishing works.
Last night got so weird dream..i'm crying a loud. Awww..I don't know what's the meaning of my dream. My friend said, usually if you cry it means you'll be 'happy' in reality, is it so??
I do hope, because when you happy you can do everything.
so now start to singing...

Hey, baby my nose is getting big/I noticed it be growing when I been telling them fibs/Now you say your trust's getting weaker/Probably coz my lies just started getting deeper/And the reason for my confession is that I learn my lesson/And I really think you have to know the truth/Because I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more/But after I did it I don't know what I did it forI admit that I have been a little immature/Fucking with your heart like I was the predator/In my book of lies I was the editor/And the author I forged my signature/And now I apologise for what I did to you/Cos what you did to me I did to you

--try to pleased my heart, because all my friends has just finished their thesis--

my lucky day..tUesDay??

hi there..you got a nice smile, as i saw your pic. Another introduction, another try. One thing in my mind I'm tired of another introduction. But remember of looking a job, you try..and try..untill u succeded..it's better to try it or you'll regreat it.
when you less expected it maybe the one you looking for..
just be optimistic

One Night at Kuta, Bali

This photo was taken by my friend..after doing rafting then visiting Antonio Blanco's Museum..we ate bebek goreng Bali..at one finest restaurant, actually not the food but the atmosphere that you can't forget..next to restaurant there is a field of rice.

Java from above..

I'm not sure with this mountain..but I think it is Bromo mountain.
I love if someday I climb or doing tracking in this mountain

Tanti's Birthday

It's so me..forgot to wish my best friend birthday. Yesterday was Tanti's Birthday and she asking me for a date (she treat me) then we have a dinner just the two of us in KFC. ha..ha.ha eventhough I knew she doesn't know when was my birthday because I keep changing my profile at Friendster..
...anyway it's good to spent sometime with girl friend, and the subject of our conversation still about unlucky love and a boy. You..who claims himself as a boy who happens to write this should be proud because we (girl) and I should confess that we always talking about you...guys..although I will denied it because this subject I had erased from my topic list of conversations.

ya..ya..ya..

about one 'good' man that i saw during the mass. he's got everything that all girls are wish. he's got a style, he's got the look, he's got a good career (i guess). but too bad all informations about him are blocked..or i never intended to search?
hmm..how are you georgeous ?
the fact is i couldn't blow him out of my mind..and just to see the way he move, it would be enough for me. yeah i'm one of his biggest fans. His secret admire. Have you ever be a secret admire just what i did now?

it's good just like one of my favorite song "just my imagination..running away with me.."