it's time for exhale..

how many years i know the truth? how many years more i know the second truth
i don't count the time, but i'm surprised the way i found out the truth!.........
apa yang udah terjadi di belakang ga usah ditengok-tengok..it's time for me to exhale.
ternyata ooh ternyata..
dia hanya sepenggal kisah..
yang hanya untuk dilupakan..
listen to your heart..even it seems unfair..but it is very worth it

..driving a car..

my Dad allowed me to bring his car, then I drove from home to office, with parents n uncle. Thanx uncle for the lesson! it's save..and I can manage my car very well, and of course God bless me!
it's a nice..nice journey driving at 6.40 AM in Jakarta..

woowww pegel..but FUN

yesterday first day joining fitness club..it's FUN specially my first experience on fitness equipment!
I'll do it for more than one hour and yesterday I have a personal "trainer", a sweet boy with red t'shirt! hehehe..if he comes everyday, i'll go everyday too, and he said bye-bye to me when he went home. A new friendship just begins!
Tanti pick me up when the training is over, will come back again soon sweety!

my NEW ROOM and my new DREAM ho..ho..ho

saturday, 6 August 2005
Finally I made my mind, last saturday, early in morning I move to other room. Still in the same house but my new room bigger than the old one.


sunday, 7 August 2005
I want to realize my dream participated in one beauty contest, not yet happen but I make a first move, by taking close-up picture at mall. He hee..he..just see the result!!
Tanti comes visited me too in the afternoon, she asked me to pick-up her goods at ofice, she's no longer in Pasca. Just wish you all the best..my lovely friend, I miss YOU!

..a k u hari i n i..

*pagi ini ga enak badan, hidung berlendir, mata berat banget,
*perut aga mules
*rasanya dingin, padahal AC-nya cuma 28 deg C
*buka email ga ada yang menarik
*lapar..masih nunggu office boy beliin makanan
*malezz kerja
*pengennya tidur
*gejala PMS
*i wanna go home

HARI KESEL SEDUNIA..kali yeeee

sebenarnya mo nulis hari ini hari ngeselin. Eiit tapi ga boleh ngomong gini..soalnya udah banyak dikasih ama Tuhan yang indah-indah..anggap aja hari ini hari LATIHAN MEMANJANGKAN KESABARAN...

sabaaaaaaaaaaaaaar suburrrrrr!!

Friday

menikmati hidup..enjoy every minute i spent with friends and family.
I've been showing my emotions, and now just continuing my life..
though sometimes i get tired but don't wanna give up

..i don't know nothing 'bout love

i thought when i get older, i will know more bout love, i will be more experience.."love doesn't make you smart", wise men said that. so when love hit me, i'm not well prepare but do love needs a reason? do i need a reason to love someone?

the song from counting crows were so nice to listen, see the lyrics.. even this (boys) band are not prepare when love comes!!! boys said woman are feel more than think, but once they (boys) fall in love..they go mad too.

So she said what's the problem baby--What's the problem I don't know--Well maybe I'm in love (love)--Think about it every time--I think about it--Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this--Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love) Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on --Turn a little faster--Come on, come on--The world will follow after
Come on, come on-- Cause everybody's after love
So I said I'm a snowball running-- Running down into the spring that's coming all this love Melting under blue skies--Belting out sunlight-- Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender-- To the strawberry ice cream--Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
We're accidentally in love --Accidentally in love

..you cant stop me to love you

I think love is a beautiful feelings towards that person whom u like with whom u like spending time with whom ur looking for whose every act u like whose presence always run in ur mind and without him/her u can't live.

M : and I want to say you I have same feelings for you
M : I love you
M : It doesn’t matter for me that u love me or not
M : caz It doesn’t necessary that a person whom I love will also love me definitely
but I must tell you, u can't stop me to love you
M : u know
M : Distance doesn't matter for me
M : I have lot of gals over here in Sydney
M : but I just looking for same feelings as u have
M : I never feel in love b4
M : Even I don’t have any GF b4
M : I know u wouldn’t believe me
M : I know its just our 2nd meeting
M : but I don’t think that it matters to say someone love
M : That’s it I want to say you
M : May be u'll not talk to me anymore

I aggreed with his definition about love..sometimes love can be so complicated but many times love is so simple. I'm happy to find out there's someone out there falling in love with me..the true happiness is whoever is happy will make others happy, too

another quotation from 'M'

"first looking first talking is enough to like someone"
"sometimes we know someone in first time and sometimes we take whole life to understand someone"

YEAH..LA..LA..LA

Wednesday afternoon my boss is out of office..so I could do anything else except finishing works.
Last night got so weird dream..i'm crying a loud. Awww..I don't know what's the meaning of my dream. My friend said, usually if you cry it means you'll be 'happy' in reality, is it so??
I do hope, because when you happy you can do everything.
so now start to singing...

Hey, baby my nose is getting big/I noticed it be growing when I been telling them fibs/Now you say your trust's getting weaker/Probably coz my lies just started getting deeper/And the reason for my confession is that I learn my lesson/And I really think you have to know the truth/Because I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more/But after I did it I don't know what I did it forI admit that I have been a little immature/Fucking with your heart like I was the predator/In my book of lies I was the editor/And the author I forged my signature/And now I apologise for what I did to you/Cos what you did to me I did to you

--try to pleased my heart, because all my friends has just finished their thesis--

my lucky day..tUesDay??

hi there..you got a nice smile, as i saw your pic. Another introduction, another try. One thing in my mind I'm tired of another introduction. But remember of looking a job, you try..and try..untill u succeded..it's better to try it or you'll regreat it.
when you less expected it maybe the one you looking for..
just be optimistic

One Night at Kuta, Bali

This photo was taken by my friend..after doing rafting then visiting Antonio Blanco's Museum..we ate bebek goreng Bali..at one finest restaurant, actually not the food but the atmosphere that you can't forget..next to restaurant there is a field of rice.

Java from above..

I'm not sure with this mountain..but I think it is Bromo mountain.
I love if someday I climb or doing tracking in this mountain

Tanti's Birthday

It's so me..forgot to wish my best friend birthday. Yesterday was Tanti's Birthday and she asking me for a date (she treat me) then we have a dinner just the two of us in KFC. ha..ha.ha eventhough I knew she doesn't know when was my birthday because I keep changing my profile at Friendster..
...anyway it's good to spent sometime with girl friend, and the subject of our conversation still about unlucky love and a boy. You..who claims himself as a boy who happens to write this should be proud because we (girl) and I should confess that we always talking about you...guys..although I will denied it because this subject I had erased from my topic list of conversations.

ya..ya..ya..

about one 'good' man that i saw during the mass. he's got everything that all girls are wish. he's got a style, he's got the look, he's got a good career (i guess). but too bad all informations about him are blocked..or i never intended to search?
hmm..how are you georgeous ?
the fact is i couldn't blow him out of my mind..and just to see the way he move, it would be enough for me. yeah i'm one of his biggest fans. His secret admire. Have you ever be a secret admire just what i did now?

it's good just like one of my favorite song "just my imagination..running away with me.."

..Lovely Monday..

..It's Monday and I feel G R E A T..
yesterday was my Bro wedding's anniversary..and again I forgot to bring camera to capture the "moment" so early in the morning the activity was begun. We went to church and this time was at Katedral because Mom's choir participate on Morning Mash then I meet my Bro and his wife there..his hair needs to cut off I think.
Then we had lunch together, my first Bro and his family also there. We ate Pizza, the only Italian food that I like!! then my sis in law family join us (full team) ..oh yeah we had lunch at Artha Gading Mall again, since the park still free.
After lunch I visited my Bro's house, he's living in Menteng Metropolitan, then I went to Yudi's house, his house near Senen Station. Finally I know where my Brothers lives!!
So here I'm early in the morning without taking bad (hehehehe) I go to office. 7:24 AM I have arrived in the office..

what is all about

I just recovered from my illness..since last Thursday I was sick and I've had leave my job for two days. Kinna lazy to start all over again..so this morning I just type something in my blog. It's good finally I could write something and read something. Back to the days when I was sick, my mom borrow a catholic magazine. I read a lot to kill my times since the TV program wasn't good, everytime I push one channel comes up Cut Keke story or Nia Daniati story.. is it so hard to maintain marriage relationship?

Talking about found out one good man sometimes it could be an interesting topic, but sometimes it could be so nasty.. what if don't think, don't feel and don't act? A desperate and hopeless girl I become. You know..when I was sick I was thinking much and everything become so heavy in my mind, I realize we can't live alone in this world, especially when you are sick, you need someone to be there, a person who cares about you and a person who can cheer you up.

I have one right now..but for how long? Life is uncertain some said like that but if we believe in Jesus there's always a hope and life is always certain.. Just begins everything in the name of HIM.

Team Work..day third June, 13 2005 at Ayung river Ubud, Bali

Bali 11-14 June 2005

..about him..

If I should describe him in one word, definetly I'll say he is amazing. He drove thousand kilometres early in the morning to drove me to airport. I think that's one thing that could melt my heart, too bad we are not in the same team.
In this way, I couldn't ask for more. Usually I will ask, Dear God, could you change into..bla..bla..but this time I don't, I enjoyed the time we spend..maybe I had give up to searched and hope. I only closed my eyes and make a wish, Dear God, would you give me a strength to accept everything that I can't change and to change everything that I could change and I could always feel the beauty in every thing that you gave me. He came in his strange way..so I start to miss that?