15 December 2004

A minus

....unbelievable.. A minus for this..
Dua Hari Menjelang Lebaran
Sinar matahari dengan malu-malu mulai memperlihatkan keindahan sinarnya, menembus tirai tipis yang terpasang di daun jendela. Hari baru telah datang, dan semua kegiatan akan segera dimulai dalam hitungan menit demi menit. Kusingkirkan selimut, kurentangkan kedua tangan selebar-lebarnya dan mulut terbuka menguap.

Segera kuraih handuk, kuambil peralatan mandi, dan melangkah menuju kamar mandi. Sepuluh menit kemudian, keluar dari kamar mandi, tubuh terasa segar terkena guyuran air dan kulit terasa lembab karena telah dibersihkan dengan sabun mandi, siap memulai aktivitas selanjutnya. Pagi ini agenda harianku adalah pergi ke kantor, bekerja, dan kemudian sepulang bekerja langung menuju rumah untuk berlibur.

Liburan memang sudah membayangi hariku, hanya perlu menjalani delapan jam dan selanjutnya bebas. Tidak ada kewajiban pergi ke kantor untuk bekerja, tidak ada kuliah dan tidak perlu bangun pagi selama seminggu. Ide-ide sudah bermunculan memenuhi kepala, apa yang akan kulakukan selama seminggu nanti.

Namun sayang, lamunanku harus terputus karena ojek motor yang membawaku menuju kantor telah sampai di pelataran parkir depan kantor. Suasana di pelataran parkir tidak seperti biasanya, kali ini tidak nampak satupun mobil walau waktu telah menunjukkan pukul sembilan pagi.

Suasana di dalam kantor sama senyapnya dengan keadaan di luar. Beberapa teman telah mengambil cuti, dan yang tersisa belum semuanya hadir. Segera ku menuju ruanganku untuk menaruh tas kantor di dalam laci meja, dan kemudian mulai membuka berkas-berkas yang telah menanti untuk diselesaikan.

Tak terasa 20 menit telah berlalu, dua lembar surat telah selesai kuketik dan selama itu tidak ada satupun telepon masuk mengganggu pekerjaanku. Mulai aku menyadari bahwa dua hari menjelang lebaran, rupanya membuat orang sibuk menyiapkan datangnya lebaran, dan melupakan sementara pekerjaan. Apalagi besok adalah hari terakhir berpuasa, tentunya banyak yang memakai hari ini untuk berbelanja kebutuhan merayakan hari Lebaran.

Pikiranku kembali melayang, jauh ke masa lalu, mengingat makna lebaran sewaktu aku masih berusia tujuh atau delapan tahun. Lebaran di masa lalu, berarti memakai baju baru, memasak ketupat, membuat kue-kue kering yang enak, dan bersalam-salaman, meminta maaf di hari Raya. Betapa menyenangkan masa lalu, semuanya kelihatan indah dan polos. Tiba-tiba terdengar suara Manajer Personalia dari intercom yang mengatakan, bahwa kantor hanya akan buka setengah hari untuk hari ini dan karyawan diperbolehkan meninggalkan kantor jam satu nanti.

Melonjak kegirangan hati ini mendengar berita tersebut, segera kuraih gagang telepon dan menelepon ke rumah, meminta dijemput pukul dua nanti. Tak sabar hati ini, menunggu jam dua. Pikiranku kembali melambung, menuju sebuah kebun teh di kawasan Puncak, dimana terdapat sebuah vila mungil dengan tiga kamar tidur, sebuah taman yang ditumbuhi bunga mawar merah dan ditengah taman ada pancuran air yang terbuat dari bambu kuning, dan kolam ikan mas. Tempat yang sangat kurindukan untuk menghabiskan liburan, jauh dari keramaian kota dan hawa yang masih sejuk bebas dari asap kendaraan bermotor dan asap pabrik.

14 December 2004

Minggu-minggu Tersibuk dimulai lagi...

sebentar lagi ujian akhir, ga terasa tahun udah mau berganti lagi, umur berkurang lagi.
semester ini ujian setelah natal..huh..sebel..walau ga semua mata kuliah ujian tertulis, tetap aja beraaaaaaaaat bikin tugas. Dimulai lagi deh masa-masa kurang tidur, kamar tidur berantakan, buku-buku bertebaran diseluruh penjuru kamar, peper ooh peper.

pengennya tanggal 20 Desember tugas dah kelar tapi rasanya pesimis..karena setiap Sabtu kumpul ngerjain tugas kelompok. Hikss hikkss sedih..kapan waktu santai nih??

satu tugas selesai, sudah menanti yang lain..weeeh mana ga ada libur natal lagi..kalo tgl 24 ga libur gue mau meliburkan diri nih... bolos kerja :P

13 December 2004

Happines and Sadness

Saat bahagia membawa canda dan tawa, saat sedih membuatmu menangis dan semakin kuat. Seperti matahari yang selalu bersinar dan malam menggantikan siang. Cerita kehidupan berputar...




Life is Beautiful
Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind.
Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind...
Life can be blissful and happy and free...
Life can put beauty in the things that you see...
Life can place challenges right at your feet...
Life can make good of the hardships we meet...
Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin...
Life can reward those determined to win...
Life can be hurtful and not always fair...
Life can surround you with people who care...
Life clearly does offer its Up and its Downs...
Life's days can bring you both smiles and frowns...
Life teaches us to take the good with the bad...
Life is a mixture of happy and sad...

Life is beautiful if you want it that way...


08 December 2004


tibalah saatnya penilaian performance kerja. Sounds good so far, although I just got average but it's fine for me. They said I go along with my job description and I got 3 items that above from average.
by eyank

Jangan Berpikir Terlalu Dalam

Hidup itu lebih "indah" bila dijalani.
Jangan menganalisa hidup ini..apa yang sudah terjadi terima saja, dan anggaplah bahwa itu bagian dari suatu kehidupan.

The big things appears because of the small one

Ide besar muncul dari ide-ide yang sebenarnya sederhana..

Kalau kau menganalisa hidup ini, dan terus mencari jawabannya, kau mungkin bisa mendapatkan jawaban yang memunculkan pertanyaan lain..begitu terus hingga akhirnya kau sadari hidup bukan hanya untuk mencari jawaban.

So it's better to make some action rather than discuss about life :)

I write this, not because I don't like with your question, tetapi karena hidup ini lebih indah bila kau menikmati saja apa yang hidup berikan untukmu.

Life just gives you time and space, it's up to you to fill it...

07 December 2004

Take Two Lemons and Make Lemonade

I like this story much, so I would like to share it with others...
let's go make an action, fill in our life and you'll surprised with the result...



(By Elaine L. Galit)

Our house invariably had an aroma of "home." Scents like the mouthwateringzest of frying onions at dinner time, and crisp vanilla spice that wafted through the rooms during the day. But after six months wading through the loneliness of widowhood, I realized I didn't like the whiff of sad staleness now permeating the house.
I'd drifted through those last months as though half of me was missing. Not strange, I suppose, after forty years of marriage to the same man. But a day arrived when I realized I had to decide what the rest of my life would belike. Did I want to wander the empty rooms being half a person, or did I want to get out and see if I couldn't become whole again? And if I did want to repair my psyche, how would I go about achieving this metamorphosis?

My children and grandchildren helped me decide."You love to write, Mom," they chorused.

"Write a book."Write a book? I thought. At my age?

But how many times had I told my children to live their dream? It wasstrange, however, to realize I might be able to live my old dream; a visionswallowed up for so many years with housework, husband and children.
Not that I would change a minute of it; that was my life and I loved it.But it wasn't my destiny anymore, and, as the homily goes, the sooner I realized it the better. Time has a way of slip-sliding through your life and before you know it, your children are married and have children of theirown.
Let's face it, if life is made up of seasons I've got autumn challenging me,I thought. Did I want to find out what else life could possibly contain for me, or windup a shriveled, bitter old person? That question made me shudder. I'd always been an active optimist. Over the years when my children jumped from sports to dance and back again, I'd volunteered for everything from Girl Scouts,through mentoring youngsters, to vice president or secretary of the many clubs and organizations I'd joined.
Then, for eighteen years I'd run my own business, a candy and gift shop. Later I'd handled events and promotions for a local bookstore. I had what is now referred to as "life experiences."

So, did I want to start an other business? Volunteer somewhere? When my husband was alive, I'd published a few articles in various magazines. However, my children were correct; I'd always wanted to write a book. Before I had a chance to dwell in other areas, a new world opened up.

An editor, hearing about my desire to link my love of children with my love of Houston, approached me through a mutual friend. Would I write about Houston and what children could see and do in my city? Interesting - I'd tossed adesire into the universe and an answer had drifted down. Without anywarning, I had my chance to write that book. From then on, my life took off in another direction.

I spoke with a good friend and we tossed around ideas. Before I knew it, we were on our way. We'd write a special book. Forget the lists, we'd base ourbook on the core curriculum here in Houston. We researched, interviewed and photographed our way though museums, parks, science exhibits and the manyhidden treasures to be found in our city.
When the book was published, I glowed with pride and my children stifled"I-told-you-sos." But I was even more thrilled when a national bookstorechain named us "Authors of the Month" in our area, and a major literary group asked us to be featured authors for their annual literacy event.
Before we knew it, we had a second contract, and my world and work continued to expand. At the same time, trying for a social life and further development of my"right brain," I went to Sedona, Arizona, for an Elderhostel art sampler.While watercolor wasn't my thing, I loved working with colored pencils. Backin town, I joined an Artist's Way group facilitated by my co author and began colored pencil painting.
Once again the universe sent help in the form of a supportive and synergistic group of people who are not only talented, butshare their love of art and joy of living. At the urging of one of theartists in the group, I agreed to enter a local art show. To my great surprise, I won three ribbons and sold a painting. I could have stayed at home and felt sorry for myself.
Thank goodness I didn't. Oh, don't get me wrong; I did stay at home, but it wasn't to moan about my loss, but rather to work at fulfilling my life's dream.
While doing so, I was also filling my life with something meaningful.I've always known we have many choices in this world. The trick is to select correctly; don't opt to drain life, choose to fulfill life.

As I write this, I'm pursuing both my writing and art careers. And loving every minute of it.Yes, the fall season of life is a challenge. But I realize that when those lemons start falling from the trees in summer, it's wise to collect them. Autumn, especially here in Houston, is still hot. What better than to mix some lemonade with ice tea and sip while working on the latest project?

Action, the joy of living life, throws winter far into the future.

01 December 2004


To Be With You

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

Chorus

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you



What have I got to do to make you love me?
What have I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you are not there

I WANT YOU....

I want you to know, that I let you go not just because I don't love you
I want you to realize that one day in the past you really bright my life
I want you to think that life is sweet even if I'm not there

I want you to see that I care in my own way...
I want you to smile when you see me although we're not lover anymore
I want you to forgive me for not being there when you needed me..
I want you to understand that you can have a happines without me..

11 November 2004

SELAMAT LEBARAN SELAMAT BERLIBUR

akhirnya liburan di depan mata.. mulai Sabtu depan gue udah di rumah, terus santaiiiiiii, nonton tivi, makan.. ga kuliah ga kerja..
FREE!!!!!

05 November 2004

AKU TAKUT JATUH CINTA LAGI

Aku takut bila nantinya
Aku jatuh cinta lagi
Walau itu indah
Dan ku pun inginkan
Tergelitik rasa di hatiku, tuk bertemu dengannya lagi
Kita kan bercanda bercerita, segala impian kita


03 November 2004

Timbul Tenggelam

Tidak yakin akan sesuatu hal bukan berarti tidak tahu apa yang akan dilakukan
mungkin tidak untuk saat ini
mungkin tidak harus berpikir terlalu dalam
mungkin ini akan segera berlalu
mungkin hanya harus dijalani
menikmati semuanya tanpa harus menganalisa
----
timbul tenggelam


02 November 2004

Putaran Waktu

A little girl ask to her mommy..
She said, "Dear mommy.. what my life will be when I grow up?"
her mom said..what ever you want to be that is you when you grown up
she can't understand it at that time
and then..life goes by...she wasn't a little girl anymore
she's now a working woman, she gets up at 6 am and working till late at night
she has a cute smile, she has a delicated skin and she has a sexy body..
after all still she asking her mom opinion.."mom, what kind of man, my husband will be?"
her mom answer : "the person that loves you and can understand you"
she doesn't believe it because the last time she has a boyfriend, her boyfriend hurted her very much although at first, he promised to love her and never leave her alone.

Time goes by..until one day.. she understand that life isn't just achieve what you want to be and having a handsome boyfriend, but life is when you can share it with other person, and gives your hand when someone needed and be thankful that God loves you.

29 October 2004

Listen to your Heart

Ketakutan-ketakutan yang membayangi..
Ketakutan yang seharusnya tidak perlu ada
namun sampai saat ini tidak bisa menghilangkan kekuatiran itu, tetap masih tinggal di hati.
Malam-malam dilalui dengan berharap kekuatiran akan terkikis..waktu-waktu berjalan seperti penentu..menandakan kekuatiran itu masih ada
Kapankah semua itu lenyap, terurai?

Dengarkan kata hatimu..walau kecil..seperti tak terdengar..kadang terkalahkan dengan suara-suara lain.
Suara hati itu tetap ada, menetap di hati, namun kadang timbul dan tenggelam.
Tenggelam ketika suara lain mengambil alih perhatianmu.
Suara hati tetap tinggal, asalkan kau mau mendengarkan dan menjaganya.

Man can't do two Things in The same Time

My friend said, he will not continue his job and just focus on his studying. He said also he didn't have a time to read book. I think he is afraid he will failed (on his study).

Berapa banyak di dunia ini seorang cowo yang bisa mengerjakan 2 hal sekaligus?? rasanya ga banyak, makanya mereka dikodratkan untuk menjadi pencari nafkah saja. Coba bayangkan kalo mesti pergi bekerja terus sampai rumah masih juga mengurus pekerjaan rumah..
sebaliknya seorang cewe apalagi saat ini..banyak sekali yang bekerja keras di luar rumah mencari nafkah dan sampai di rumah mesti mengurus rumah juga, mengurus keluarga..

22 October 2004

Forgive me (maaf-memaafkan)

Fasting Month kembali lagi..maaf-memaafkan sebelum menjalani puasa..
harusnya sih beberapa minggu lalu gue bisa memaafkan tapi kenapa ya susah banget..it's hard to say I'm sorry.
Bener juga tuh kata lagu, it's hard for me to say I'm sorry..........
Kasus sudah selesai, buat lagi langkah baru.


Before you ask God to forgive your sin, forgive your friend first


15 October 2004

Persimpangan Jalan

Jalan bercabang empat dinamakan perempatan, jalan bercabang tiga dinamakan pertigaan. Kalau Hidup diibaratkan mengendarai mobil di sebuah jalan, setelah jalan mendaki, menurun, berkelok, tiba juga di sebuah persimpangan. Hendak kemana arah tujuan?
Lurus, akan sampai tujuan dengan jarak yang dekat tapi macet. Belok kiri, berarti sedikit memutar tapi akan tiba juga di tujuan. Belok kanan, mungkin tidak akan sampai tujuan...

Mungkin saja, kalau memilih belok kiri, akan ditemui pemandangan yang indah, petualangan yang baru, mungkin saja akan ada orang yang menumpang dan bisa menjadi teman seperjalanan, teman berpetualang...


13 October 2004

Kalo Kamu Pahami

My friend asked:
If They Think I'm Beautiful, Smart, Funny and an Easy going Person, why I'm still all Alone..?


because..God wants you to meet a few wrong persons until the day you meet the Right One and you could say..dan mengucap syukur "Terima kasih Tuhan kau telah mempertemukan Kami"

11 October 2004

Meet a New Friend (dikenalin)



Selama dua hari, Sabtu dan Minggu kerjaan gue adalah kenalan-- Funny isn't tiba-tiba aja temen-temen gue dengan semangat 45 mau ngenalin ama temennya. Seminggu yang lalu rencana sudah dibuat, tempat sudah ditentukan, pokoknya "Henny tinggal datang aja" kata temen-temen gue.
Oke..why not paling ga, bisa nambah temen. Ditengah kesibukan yang lumayan padat, karena harus kerja kelompok (lagi). Sabtu siang kemaren kita ketemuan di Plaza Semanggi, setelah sempat nunggu setengah jam.. akhirnya ketemuan deh. The big 'O' in my head..................................
The first O.. this guy..the second O..about his job, the third O is his attitude (very polite)
I thinks he's not gonna call me, bout I'm pretty sure we'll gonna meet again. Kenapa gue punya pikiran seperti ini? I don't know but somehow I can feel it.

Satu lagiiii..yang ini di Citos, nah kali ini orang yang mau dikenalin dah menunggu. Obrolan lebih seru..kita ngobrol di kafe kopi dan nyante aja..drink..capucino, eat..nasi goreng, wings goreng..mm perut full. Jam 4.30 akhirnya pertemuan harus disudahi walaupun orang yang dikenalin masih mau ngobrol terus. Yah waktu terus berputar ga bisa lama-lama karena banyak banget kerjaan yang harus diselesaikan.

Cinta ibarat kupu-kupu. Makin kau kejar, makin ia menghindar. Tapi bila kau biarkan ia terbang, ia akan menghampirimu disaat kau tak menduganya. Cinta bisa membahagiakanmu tapi sering pula ia menyakiti, tapi cinta itu hanya istimewa apabila kau berikan pada seseorang yang layak menerima. Jadi tenang-tenang saja, jangan terburu-buru dan pilihlah yang terbaik.