say hello...say goodbye...

..in any relations there will be time to say hello and to say goodbye. The most hard part is when you decide to say goodbye, but some parts of your heart still hoping there will be time to say hello again....

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I've saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rollin as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done it get hard but it won’t take away my love I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

(3 Doors Down)

Tas Favoritmu Cirikan Minat Karirmu

dicuplik dari hanyawanita.com

Perempuan yang menyukai tas besar yang muat segala barang biasanya memandang hidup itu mengalir lancar laksana air. Sama seperti bagaimana dia mengisi 'kantong ajaib' khas Dorameon ini dengan semua kebutuhan, jika ada keperluan mendadak si penyuka big bags tak merasa panik.

Terkait karir, penggemar tas besar akan meraih puncak kesenangan di bidang pekerjaan yang memberikan tingkat fleksibilitas tinggi. Dia bisa mengatur waktu antara pekerjaan dan 'karirnya' sebagai ibu rumah tangga, mengantar-jemput anak sekolah.Penyuka big bags cocok bekerja di bidang yang membutuhkan analisis dan pemikiran mendalam, seperti ahli statistik, atau bahkan pakar komputer yang andal. Nah, dia juga bisa menjadi jurnalis atau wartawan yang tangguh, atau peneliti yang tekun, bahkan membuka jasa konsultan atau PR (public relation). Jika kebetulan ada bakat membuat kerajinan tangan atau meracik perhiasan, si pencinta tas besar bakalan betah dan umumnya sukses.

Atau jika berani memulai bisnis sendiri, seperti menjadi instruktur olehraga, ikut MLM, menjadi agen asuransi, bisa dilakukan. Karena kepiawaian dalam berbicara ditunjang kemampuan manajerial yang oke, si ratu tas besar juga cocok lho jadi seorang manajer penjualan.

Karena sifatnya yang tak suka dikekang, si penyuka tas besar lebih suka diberi kebebasan waktu dalam berkarya. Falsafah bekerja '9 to 5' tak begitu cocok untuknya, karena perempuan karir ini lebih suka result oriented. Kelebihan lainnya adalah, ratu tas besar mampu membuat keputusan penting secara bijak, meski tak ada pimpinan. Apalagi jika dia mendapat mandat penuh dari atasan.

..i think that's me.. :~P

April, 27 2005

last night around 10 pm Irene start to wish me happy birthday in advance, Arlind which is my sista, sms me too (our birthday is come), then Fred (my buddy) called me after 12 pm, "what a surprise from you..after all those year you still remember my b'day"..Ito called me with his sleepy voice (thanks) then Boru and Yulia, wish me, they are my pad friends..Bung Ray sms me too.."your sms is beautiful"

Morning comes my other buddy, Maradona sms me with his new number, after that i received sms from MOMMY, and then Dina (my junor high school best friend) sms me with words "hello beautiful" hehehe..then at office I start to call Tegar, my buddy which is we born in the same date but different year..and my mom call me..Yeah a HAPPY DAY

FRIENDZZZ thanks for remember my b'day..I feel great and hope till afternoon and night I will have another surprise from a person called FRIENDS, you guys are so special to ME..

..happy birthday to me..happy birthday to me..blow out the candle, make a wish and eat the cake..(No real cake for today)

RAINBOW by South Border

Fallin' out, fallin' in

Nothing's sure in this world no, no

Breakin' out, breakin' in

Never knowin' what lies ahead

We can really never tell it all no, no, no

Say goodbye, say hello

To a lover or friend

Sometimes we never could understand

Why some things begin then just end

We can really never tell it all no, no, no

But oh, can't you see

That no matter what happens

Life goes on and on

So baby, just/please smile

Coz im always around you

And ill make you see how beautiful

Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby

See the butterflies color's

Listen to the birds that were sent

To sing for me and you

Can you feel me

This is such a wonderful place to be

Even if there is pain now

Everything would be all right

For as long as the world still turns

There will be night and day

Can you hear me

There's a rainbow always after the rain

Ohh, whoa

Hittin' high, hittin' low

Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah

Getting warm, getting cold

Weather could be so good or bad

But baby this is life now don't get mad no, no, no

Coz oh, cant you see

That no matter what happens

Life goes on and on

So baby, please smile

Coz im always around you

And ill make you see how beautiful

Life is for you and me

Life's full of challenges

Not all the time we get what we want

But don't despair my dear coz I know now

You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm

Coz you're strong my faith in you is clear

So ill say once again this worlds wonderful and

Let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful

Ohhhh

There's a rainbow always after the rain

Monday

..every person has their own problem, big, small, medium. It doesn't matter the size, because a problem still a problem it waits us to solve them. Problem make us worried and because we worry much, we start to doubt our faith.

Talking about faith, got interesting conversation last night. My friend telling me about her problem (big problem) and in the end she starts to doubt her faith. For me faith isn't just about we believe to God, but when we believe to ourselves that's also a faith.

When you start to analyze life, when you start to doubt what you believe it will makes you weak. Often times we don't know God's plan, many times we wait till we are dying but still God don't give an answer.

But when we start to discuss or telling our problem, we realize that everybody has their own problem. We can only doing the best thing, and wait for the best, although when we do something still we don't know if what we do is the best THING!

..I know I couldn't give a good answer to your question, but I have two ears and one heart to listen your problem..

..a b o u t LOVE

yup..i'm going to write bout love.. some said love conquers all, others said love is not enough.
for me????? to deal with love you must Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts.
often times, i love someone but that person refused it or someone loves me but i don't feel that way. so i think, if someone loves you it's not so special but if you love someone that is special. Because if you wished to be loved, love..

I'll Do Anything FOR U

Anything for you
Though you're not here
Since you said we're through
It seems like years
Time keeps draggin' on and on
And forever's been and gone
Still I can't figure what went wrong

I'd still do anything for you
I'll play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way
I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And, though you'll never see me cryin'
You know, inside, I feel like dying

And I'd do anything for you
In spite of it all
I've learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don't you ever think that I don't love you
That, for one minute, I forgot you
But, sometimes, things don't work out right
And (I) just have to say goodbye

I hope you find someone to please you
Someone who'll care and never leave you
But, if that someone ever hurts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And I'd do anything for you
I'll give you up
If that's what I should do
To make you happy
Don't you ever think that I don't love you
That, for one minute, I forgot you
But, sometimes, things don't work out right
And (I) just have to say goodbye

some can work this thing out but some failed... to bad we are not in the same team. But I would not regret the past, just closed another chapter of my life and begins with the new one!
I let you go..

When I heard about his illness and after that I start to receive a sms, told that he was died (rumor), I do not really pay attention to that. I think he is old anyway, what can you expect from a person in 84 years of age. Till it really happen, that he is gone, I heard this news when I attend a morning mass, last Sunday. Oh God I feel pain in my heart. He is a great person, a great Pope. He fought till the very last minute of his life.

by eyank

Be Not Afraid

Christ at the center of all things was a theme to which John Paul II returned until the very end of his life and which served as his unceasing prayer for the church and the world. On Oct. 22, 1978, only a few days after his election as pontiff of the Roman Catholic Church, Pope John Paul II called upon the world: "Be not afraid. Open wide the doors to Christ. To his saving power upon the boundaries of states, economic and political systems, the vast fields of culture, civilization and development. Do not be afraid.

An atheist's tribute to the good shepherd
I’m 60, a man who long ago stopped believing in God, the types of God fashioned by man, the type of God believed in by John Paul II. But, on this day of grief, April 3, 2005, I honor, in my own way the passing of this great man.

Even an atheist must honor a man like John Paul II. This man, this pope, lived the ideals that he professed, the ideals of Christianity, and did so aggressively. No sitting in Rome for John Paul II. He traveled the world with relentlessness; he movingly kissed the soil of each new land arrived at. He reached out to the sick, the poor, the dispossessed. He lectured the rich and powerful. He was conservative in the finest sense of that word, even for me a liberal, for he loved sinners and forgave them even while setting, through his agenda, very strict standards.

His conservatism never seemed ugly, punitive, unforgiving. What stunning leadership. He fought communism and I wonder if the full story of his leadership against that doctrine will ever be fully known? A son of Poland, perhaps her greatest, his life span had allowed him to see close up the evils of the 20th Century’s enslaving doctrines.

He used that insight wisely and relentlessly. Across the globe, wherever he went, the faithful would gather to catch a glimpse of this man who spoke of a better world. And so, even non-believers like me mourn his passing. We join the ranks of those who will miss him. And we smile with appreciation knowing that stubborn and skeptical though we may be, John Paul viewed people like us with love, tolerance and above all faith. He,through the experience of his decades, knew that ultimately faith is so much stronger than doubt. He was and will remain the good shepherd. —Peter Twomey, Marshfield, MA
(taken from http://www.msnbc.msn.com/)

I believe that nothing in life is Unimportant...
by eyank

Doing The Best Thing..

Time will never come back! what i have is now (today), yesterday is the past, and tomorrow is too uncertainty. But I know, what goes around comes around...
Yesterday, I'm browsing some website, and I found very interesting quotation:
Work like you don't need the money
Love like you've never been hurt
Dance like nobody's watching
Sing like nobody's listening
Live like it's heaven on Earth

The first time I read that, I said it's impossible!! but after deep thought, I know that is what Gandhi, Mother Theresa did it..even when they are not in earth anymore but time has written their name in the stone.

If we put our name in the sand, the wind will easily blow out, but if our name written on the stone, wind can't take anywhere...

Someone That I Used To Love

When I wake up each morning/Trying to find myself/And if I'm ever the least unsure/I always remind myself/Though you're someone in this world/That I'll always choose to love/From now on You're only someone That I used to love

As for me, it's getting down/To the last unspoken part/When you must begin to ease The pain of a broken heart/Tell me why should I even care/If I have to lose your love/From now on you're only someone That I used to love

I wish it was enough for you/All the love I had to give/And I did my best to keep you satisfied/I guess you'll never know/How much I tried, I really tried/And if ever our paths should cross again/Well, you won't find me/Being the one to get lost again/Once I had so much to give/But you just refused my love/From now on you're only someone That I used to love

And I did my best to keep you satisfied/I guess you'll never know How much I tried, I really tried/And if ever our paths should cross again/Well, you won't find me Being the one to get lost again/Once I had so much to give/But you just refused my love/From now on you're only someone That I used to love

Tonight you're someone in this world/That I'll always choose to love/From now on you're only someone That I used to love/Hoo, from now on you're only someone That I used to love

Easter Blessing..

Wooww..it sounds that God hear my plea. This I called an Easter Blessing.
I take this life by making one small step each day I woke up. My life is like a serendipity, this is true. Though I want him, but consider the depths between us, I never ask for more and I never expected too much.
So..if this is my cross, I take that risk, I'm trying to build the bridge between us..
Xmas, New Year, His B'day, Valentines Day, Easter Day..it's a blessed from up above for me and him.

Between Friendzz

About me and friendzz..
I'm not sure, what should i put in this blog, the last time i try to write bout "time", I couldn't publish my post.
I want to tell a story bout God's Two Boxes, I received this story this morning, on my email box.

I have in my hands two boxes, Which God gave me to hold.
He said, "Put all your sorrows in the black box, And all your joys in the gold."
I heeded His words, and in the two boxes, Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day, The black was as light as before.
With curiosity, I opened the black, I wanted to find out why, And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,Which my sorrows had fallen out by.
I showed the hole to God, and mused,"I wonder where my sorrows could be!"He smiled a gentle smile and said,"My child, they're all here with me."
I asked God, why He gave me the boxes, Why the gold and the black with the hole?
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings, The black is for you to let go and let GOD ."

After I read that, I begins to count my blessings, my first blessing this morning, I woke up in healthy body then my second blessings I arrived save in the office, then it's a blessings, I can chat with two my lovely bestfriends, and in the lunch time..It's a blessing that, finally I can call him. The Blessing still continue..
I believe if I put all my problems in God's boxes, his hands will carry me out of my problem.
He sent an angel, call friendz..to help me out and solve my problem, to motivate me, to stand besides me, so I don't feel lonely...

Manage my Time

Though just have a few time, but i want to put something on my blog..
I want, one day, if my script (skripsi) get done... i want to looking back at my "busy" time,
When every minutes of my time seems so precious.

Soulmate

What is a soulmate?
"A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks."
Somedays ago, my friend told me, her soulmate could be He or She.
I think it's true..because I realize, that a soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.
For other person, we could be a soulmate or even an angel.
Yes, we are an angel with one wing, we can only fly if we hold each other wings.
Today, I have found out my soulmate and my angel..

In time of trouble I will turn on you (irene) asking your wing, so we could fly together.
In the hard time, I found out that God always carry me out, he always send his angel..

I can’t stop lovin’ you

There’s a time and place for everything, for everyone
We can push with all our might, but nothin’s gonna come
Oh no, nothin’s gonna change
And if I asked you not to try
Oh could you let it be

I wanna hold you and say
We can’t throw this all away
Tell me you won’t go, you won’t go
Do you have to hear me say

I can’t stop lovin’ you
And no matter what I say or do
You know my heart is true, oh I can’t stop loving you

You can change your friends, your place in life
You can change your mind, we can change the way we say
And do anytime Oh no, but I think you’ll find
That when you look inside your heart
Oh baby, I’ll be there, yeah

Hold on I’m holding on Baby,
just come on, come on, come on
I just wanna hear you say
I can’t stop lovin’ you
And no matter what you say or do
You know my heart is true, oh I can’t stop lovin’ you
Oh, I’m so twisted and tied

And all I remember
Was how hard we tried
Only to surrender
And when it’s over I know how it’s gonna be
And true love will never die
No, not fade away And I can’t stop lovin’ you

No matter what I say or do
You know my heart is true, oh I can’t stop lovin’ you
And I know what I got to do
Hey ray, what you said is true I can’t stop lovin’ you, oh Oh,
I can’t stop lovin’ you

It's me on monday afternoon, using bang Idon's camera
by eyank

HAVE YOU EVER ?

Have you ever been just sitting there and all of a sudden you feel like doing something nice for someone you care for? THAT'S GOD talking to you through the Holy Spirit.

Have you ever been down and out and nobody seems to be around for you to talk to? THAT'S GOD wanting you to talk to Him.

Have you ever been thinking about somebody that you haven't seen in a long time and then next thing you know you see them or receive a phone call from them?
THAT'S GOD. There is no such thing as coincidence.

Have you ever received something wonderful that you didn't even ask for, like money in the mail, a debt that had mysteriously been cleared, or a coupon to a department store where you had just seen something you needed, but couldn't afford?
THAT'S GOD knowing the desires of your heart.

Have you ever been in a situation and you had no clue how it was going to get better, how the hurting would stop, how the pain would ease, but now you look back on it. . .. THAT'S GOD passing us through tribulation to see a brighter day

A Great Week

Mayla Hubahib Colance, or Irene..
Look I'm trying to write in English, though it's not easy, cause been so long not to use english in my daily conversation. Hope u can understand that.
All I can say, that last week I have a great time, because you are there..
You are a nice person, and thanks for mention my name in your blog :)
Thanks for adding some comments to my blog, and thanks for writing a poetry for me. That's one thing in common..
Thanks for the picture of Christian Bautista, I guess I don't want to grow old because of him :P
and thanks for being my friend!
I hope we could meet in person..

DO NOT FOLLOW ME I'M LOST TOO

when i'm in hurry to office this morning, it's late actually, in the crowded street, right in front of me i saw that sign (Do not Follow me, I'm Lost too) huaahhaa...

"What is hope?
Hope is wishing for a thing to come true;
faith is believing that it will come true."

by eyank

"Do Not Be Discouraged If Your Plans Do Not Succeed The First Time.

"Do Not Be Discouraged If Your Plans Do Not Succeed The First Time. No One Learns To Walk By Taking Only One Step."

maunya serba cepat, ga perlu revisi, langsung di-approve, dan langsung dapat dosen pembimbing. tapi itu kan mau gue :P
kenyataannya, mesti revisi, dan blum tentu juga abis revisi langsung di-approve, nikmatin aja kali yee..

Good News

not just good but great news..
I'm so happy to hear that..
I believe in every path that you choose, you get the best and you can make it into the BEST
and you always get my support in every way that you choose.

Kapan yaah

Terima kasih Tuhan saya punya teman-teman yang menyenangkan, punya teman-teman yang mau mendengarkan, punya teman-teman yang memperhatikan dan menguatkan.
Ketika hidup seperti....................
ketika lelah menunggu...............
ketika ga tau mesti mengambil keputusan..........
ketika sangat-sangat bosan....
kau ingatkan masih ada satu kata..BERSYUKUR..
bahwa:
masih bisa merasakan hidup
masih diberi kesempatan menunggu (walau tak tahu kapan dapat jawabannya)
masih diberi pilihan
masih diberi rutinitas,,,,,,
above all Tuhan meminta kita menunggu karena mempunyai alasan.

TEA, toast and Honey, make it SUNNY in the rainy d a y..
by eyank

(sosrowijayan) 30 Jan'05
by eyank

WHEN TIME TO c h o o s e

Here I'm in the moment to choose
When time to choose comes, yang ada ga segampang bayangan tapi ga sesulit yang dibayangin
LOOOHH? maksudnya gimana nih
kalo ada 2 pilihan: A dan B
tetap masih ada pilihan ke 3
dan pilihan itu adalah tidak memilih A dan B atau malah memilih kedua-duanya.
Kalo tidak memilih A dan B, sounds fair for A and B, but not for me..
Kalo memilih kedua-duanya naah ini baru fair for me, tapi ga buat A & B (but who cares bout that) as long as make me happy....
so selfish!!

CinTapuccino

GRRRRR..
baru baca kata pengantarnya aja dah gue banget..quarter life crisis..
baca ini novel bikin gue bisa berdamai dengan "keinginan hati" dan mempercayai segala sesuatu ada waktunya juga mempercayai proses.
Toh kalo jodoh, ada aja jalannya untuk ketemu!!
setiap orang mempunyai kisah cinta sendiri dan itulah indahnya hidup..
Ga selamanya yang namanya obsesi itu berarti negatif.
1. Apakah gue pernah mempunyai seorang "nemo" ? YUP..
2. Apakah gue pernah menjadi "rahmi" ? sure, I was..(and don't like it)
3. Apakah masih terobsesi dengan seseorang? yeaah

CINTA itu tidak datang atas unsur paksaan atau suatu alasan, tapi CINTA hanya akan datang tanpa kita tahu Kedatangannya..
by eyank

Love Takes Time

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others including Love.
One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment. When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help.
Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.
Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness, let me go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"
Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!
Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you."

It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that Love even forgot to ask the elder her name.
When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Love, realizing how much Love owed the elder, asked Knowledge, another elder, " Who helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with great Wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

I really care bout YOU

Aneh..
awalnya I can't go on another day without thinking about you, seing you, and hear your voice
selalu menantikan kesempatan bertemu..
dan kini..malah lega melihatmu tidak berada disampingku..
walau aku masih merindu tapi aku lega.
Mungkin..
aku mulai terbiasa tanpamu, tanpa percakapan yang hangat, tanpa kata-katamu yang merindu.
Aaaggghh..senangnya mempunyai waktu sendiri tanpa memikirkanmu.
Aagghh leganya..
I CARE BOUT YOU BUT NOT SURE YET!

Yogyakarta 28 - 30 januari 2005

jam 6.15 dah di Cengkareng, padahal pesawatnya baru jam 9 take off..weh suwi men.
"monggo, malioboro, alun-alun, pathuk, taman sari", kata bang becak..eehhmm ini bener-bener yogya, kota yang ngangenin.
Hari pertama tiba, my schedule, makan (laper dari jam 5 dah pergi dari Depok), trus check in dan nyekar ke mbah putri dan om, sebelah selatan yogya... don't see my family there because my uncle have to go to city soon! then go to Salam (daerah Magelang) menghadiri acara siraman nuke dan nemenin midodareni..
Jam 20.30 dijemput lagi dan lgs menuju hotel, eeh sempat juga muter-muter nyari toko buah yg masih buka (walah) ternyata bu nuke, lupa blum beli buah buat persembahan. Trus sampai hotel, ganti baju, dan jalan ke malioboro, nyari makanan buat temen-temen yg baru aja datang..lesehan di malioboro, sumpah bakal kecewa, ga enak, dan mahal, disitu harga ayam goreng bisa 9000..lohhh!! ini kan jogja bukan jakarta..jelas mahal banget! tapiii mas pengamennya boleh juga..heuhehhee..mitra bestari ampe speechles, jadi mo request satu lagu neeh.
Sabtu pagi..ke pemberkatan nuke di salam, foto-foto dan kemudian pulang ke sosrowijayan, terus ke kota gede, cari perak, beli cincin terus ke kasongan lihat pernak-pernik, kalo dah punya rumah sendiri pengen juga nih dekor dengan pernak-pernik yang cute dan etnik. Malam ke resepsi di Balai Sinta...foto-foto..emang cewe-cewe ini banci kamera semua ga nahan liat ada kamera!!
Malam minggu, ke alun-alun ngidul, niatnya mo buktiin jalan lurus melewati dua pohon beringin tapi ga pada punya nyali, ramai banget di lapangan, dah deh ga usah ntar malah nubruk orang!!!Weeh ramenya alun-alun..berderet penjual wedang ronde, akhirnya lesehan di tikar pesen wedang ronde (cukup 2000 saja semangkuk kecil), ngobrool sambil liat orang-orang yg pada nyasar lewatin pohon beringin then go home sleep tight! (Ngantuuk berat)
Minggu pagi, jam 10..ke Taman Sari naik becak pulang pergi 10 ribu! rutenya sosrowijayan-taman sari-jalan pathuk-es eni. Selama 3 hari disana langganan di es eni, cukup murah untuk ukuran jakarta terus ditambah banyak pilihan makanan dan lumayan bersih!
Sore, yang lain pada lanjut ke malioboro ngeborong oleh-oleh but I stay at hotel..malezzz hehehe tidur aja ahhhh...malioboro dah sering banget gue ukur panjangnya, lagian nyokap n bokap baru aja dari yogya, ga perlu beli oleh-oleh kan (males apa duit dah abis??) :P
Jam 5 sore, siap ke airpot, wah pulang lagi deh ke Jakarta!!!

Please dech..

..please deh..don't asked me with that silly question "kamu kenapa?"
... please give me S P A C E..
Please jangan suka mau tau urusan orang lain, semisal curi-curi liat ada apa di monitor gue.. ini udah yang sekian kali nich..dan kali yang terakhir, I will scream louder!!! and if you read this stop doing that thing!!!
gue paling ga suka sama orang yang pengen bangeeeeet tau urusan orang lain!
SO WHAT ? yang penting be responsible khan..
PLEASE STOP DOING THAT THING...

F R E E

Rasanya koq lebih enak seperti sekarang..FREE..
Free to decide,
Free to go,
Free to choose,
Free to sing,
Free to eat,
Free to date,
Free from heartache,
Tomorrow will fly to the city I most miss besides Bali.
Hope tomorrow the weather is good, and we will have so much fun there.

I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don't always say, what's on my mind
You know that I've been hurt, by some guy
But I don't wanna mess up this time

And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
Cos I don't want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

I might look through your stuff, for what I don't wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid, from what I've been through
Don't know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (and I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think I'm kinda scared (but I'm scared with every touch)
Cos I don't want to lose you (cos I don't want to lose you)
If you really really really care (if you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
It's nothing to you (it's nothing to you, you)

My heart's at a low (low)
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (I think you should know)
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love (I'm falling in love)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged (I think you should know that)

TRUST IN YOUR HEART & ALWAYS FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS
by eyank

La..la..la..la

Last night, nonton TV Global, acaranya film Korea, ga tau judulnya, karena gue nonton ga dari awal..that movie is so funny, gaya ceritanya seperti komik Jepang. Talking 'bout komik, jadi kangen baca komik Jepang lagi.

Balik lagi ke cerita film Korea, sebenarnya ide film ini sederhana, dan ga ada yang terlalu istimewa, gue pikir film semacam meteor garden ternyata lebih.., walau ceritanya masih mengenai percintaan...wekeke..

Di film ini ada seorang pemuda, ganteng untuk ukuran orang Korea (kalo di Indonesia sih ga ada apa-apanya), trus kaya lagi (khas film Asia) and terus kerjaannya berantem, sampai-sampai harus dipanggilin guru les privat, karena si cowo ini bego!

Lucunya ini film kalo menggambarkan adegan perkelahian..hueebaat..seperti film kugfu, jagoan selalu menang, dengan gaya tendang yang muter-muter, ga ada guru privat yang betah, karena keberandalannya dan keisengannya..

until one day..datanglah seorang cewe, yang imut, lembut, dan ketakutan, karena mesti ngadepin si cowo yang 'nyebelin', seperti bisa ditebak kelanjutan ceritanya..akhirnya si cowo ini walau di awal jual mahal + sok playboy dan pura-pura ga butuh, akhirnya at the end of story when his girl friend asking to him "pilih siapa, saya atau dia..mm..si cowo dengan mantep bilang, pilih dia" (maksudnya si guru privatnya).

Walau, si cewe ini juga awalnya denial kalo dia jatuh hati sama si pemuda ini dan ga mau 'jalan' sama cowo yg lebih muda, tengil, ngerepotin...tetapi menyadari di akhir cerita kalo he's the one! the one yang bikin hatinya ga keruan, ketika si cowo ini kabur dari rumah, trus ketika dia broken heart karena cowonya mutusin sampai-sampai dia mabuk dan minta dijemput..siapalagi kalo bukan muridnya. Belum yang megangin payung..di saat hujan..(romantis banget).

Sama juga buat si pemuda, guru privatnya ini berarti banget, dia yang bikin ujiannya sukses, sehingga dia ga jadi dibuang ke luar negeri, si cewe ini yang nyariin dia waktu dia ngambek diusir dari rumah, terus waktu dia berantem dan hampir kalah, si cewe ini yang nendang tepat di titik lemah si lawan muridnya...wuakakaka..sayang gue nonton sendiri, jadi ketawa sendirian.

Film ini bisa dibilang komedi romantis, ga terlalu menye-menye..tapi bikin ketawa ngakak!!

[Love isn't a decision. It's a feeling. If we could decide who we loved, it would be much simplier, but much less magical]

Kisah Ila

Orang bijak berkata : kita mengetahui dia jodoh kita atau bukan adalah ketika kita berpisah dengannya...bukan saat kita bertemu dengannya

Kisah Ila seorang istri dari pasangan muda yang baru hidup 1 tahun, suatu malam...ketika sang suami sudah tertidur lelap disampingnya, ila masih terjaga, ditatapnya wajah suaminya, dan Ila hanya bisa menggerutu dalam hati melihat sosok sebenarnya jauh dari idaman, palagi ketika sang suami mulai mendengkur dan mengeluarkan ingus semakin jijik rasanya, akhirnya dia menutup wajah dengan bantal dan mencoba tidur dengan segala kebisingan galauan suara hati. kemudian dalam mimpi, dia hidup dalam suasana yang sangat membahagiakan, ditemani sosok idaman yang begitu mempesona sesuai dengan yang dia inginkan, begitu terasa hidup mimpi itu, sampai-sampai tersenyum berkali-kali dalam tidur. Namun, suatu ketika dia terbangun, karena kaki sang suami menimpa tubuh, memang seringkali sang suami tidur jumpalitan tak karuan, dan ini yang keseribu kalinya mimpi indah lenyap gara-gara kejadian yang sama, dia pun melolot, dan tanpa sadar untuk pertama kalinya membentak sang suami dengan kata kasar.

Sang suami pun terbangun dan meminta maaf, dan dengan sabarnya membujuk untuk tetap tenang, setelah uring-uringan, untuk yang pertama kalinya juga, akhirnya Ila bisa meredam emosi, kemudian dia bertanya atas pertanyaan yang akhir-akhir ini ingin disampaikan, "mengapa kamu menikahiku?", sang suami pun menjawab "memang kamu bukan cewek idamanku sayang... tapi dari sekian waktu kita habiskan bersama aku memilih untuk menjadikanmu pasangan hidup, yang akan selalu kuperhatikan, kusayangi , kucintai selamanya, karena memang aku sudah memilihmu... aku sadar kalau aku selalu mencari sosok idaman, ada kemungkinan kan kudapatkan, tapi ada kemungkinan juga aku kan selalu mencari hingga Tuhan memanggil, karena bisa jadi aku takkan pernah punya kesempatan bertemu dengan sosok idamanku itu , atau malah sosok idamanku akan menghindar tuk mencari idamannya juga, jadi kapan waktuku tuk membina keluarga? menyayangi dan disayangi seseorang? hanya Tuhan yang tau sayang..." terhenyak Ila mendengarnya, penjelasan yang jauh dari keegoisan, kata-kata yang sangat jauh dari kepentingan sudut pandang pribadi,
akhirnya Ila pun terharu dan mulai saat itu tak pernah mengingat-ingat sosok idaman, sosok itu telah dia kubur dalam-dalam, dan dia dapat menerima suaminya dengan segala kekurangan yang dimiliki...

Jadi, tidakah kau mengerti, bahwa pasangan hidup kita adalah memang yang terbaik, tak perlu menghabiskan waktu dan energi untuk selau memikirkan kekurangan yang ada, karena tidak akan pernah kau dapatkan pasangan yang sesuai dengan keinginanmu, karena pasanganmu adalah apa yang ada disekitarmu, yang sebetulnya bisa kau raih bila kau membuka mata dan hatimu atas segala kelebihan dan kekurangan yang kau dan dia miliki. Karena pasanganmu adalah yang ada didepanmu, yang semestinya kau dapat ,bila kau memberikan hatimu, untuk mengisi yang kurang dan mengurangi yang berlebihan atas apa yang ada pada dirimu dan dia.

Oke begitu aja ceritanya, pokoknya be responsible on your choise-lah, selalu ada banyak pilihan untuk kita, selalu menggerutu atas kekurangan yang ada atau menerima kekurangan yang ada dengan ikhlas sehingga hiduppun terasa sederhana, tidak memberatkan dan lebih menyenangkan.

Gimana bahkan sehirup napas dalam diakhir cerita pun akan selalu menyegarkan pikiran kita...yuppp!!
bagi petualang cinta, teruskan aja, kau sudah memilih untuk hidup mengelana, tidak ada yang salah ko, cuma lebih sadari aja bahwa hidup bagimu lebih menyenangkan dengan berpetualang!
bagi yang memilih untuk menikah, sadari aja bahwa kau telah memutuskan untuk menikah, bukankah itu adalah keputusanmu sendiri atas sekian banyak pilihan yang ada?
bagi jomblo mania, tau...aaahh kenapa se ndak pacaran? ndak laku kali...hehehe sorry, that is your decision to live alone, sadari itu! bukankah selama ini kau menikmati kesendirian itu? semuanya adalah keputusanmu sendiri! dari sekian banyak pilihan yang ada. Sadari dan bertanggung jawab aja, tak ada orang lain yang menentukan arah hidup, semuanya ditanganmu sobat!

The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is,
not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if
I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next.
Amen.

by eyank

Friday

Much...much better than a week ago or two days ago..

Today is new, unlike any other day, for God makes each day different.

Today God's everyday gracefalls on my soul like abundant seed, though I may hardly see it.

Today is one of those days Jesus promised to be with me, a companion on my journey, And my life today, if I trust him, has consequences unseen. My life has a purpose

I am Back

Mimpi yang aneh! dua hari cuti, semalam bermimpi kerja di kantor yang lama. Kantor itu dah gue tinggalin setahun yang lalu, tapi di mimpi semuanya serba jelas, gue lagi ngapain, gue ngomong apa ama mantan bos, sampai gue pake sepatu apa tergambar jelas!

anyway keputusan yang gue coba ambil, the easy way out, blum juga gue berani ambil, semuanya masih blum pasti, it's so hard to make up my mind!

so now I count the day, hoping that miracle soon comes. I try to listen my heart, tapi susah juga, bener kata nyokap, kalo suara hati itu kecil..hampir tak terdengar, dan bila terdengar itupun samar-samar. (love is not enough but without love is not right too).

Well Done

Kumpulin tugas (udah)
Telpon Dosen (udah)
Siapin undangan sidang (udah)
Jilid makalah (udah)
yang belum bikin surat ke mahasiswa baru
moga-moga besok sehat dan bisa fokus 100% ga kayak sekarang aga-aga tulalit!
Terima kasih Tuhan kau membantu dan membuatku bisa menyelesaikan semuanya

Terrible!

Demam! suhu tubuh meninggi! and I'm dying Inside..
paling enak kalo sakit ini diperhatiin sama orang yang kita cintai.
Sayangnya I am far away from home dan rasa sakit ini mesti ditahan.
Harus kumpulkan tugas, harus kejar dosen..harus masuk kerja!
secara fisik saya ada disini, tapi kepala berat, ga bisa mikir.

Wacth Out!!

Another task!
Urgent thing!
Everything must be done as soon as possible!
I will be so busy during this month!
Outside I look so cool but inside no body knows!
Seperti pagi ini Bibi nanya apa ga cape tuh kerja dan kuliah kapan belajarnya?
you want me to answered the truth?? I never study, I never have enough time to do my paper! I'm almost give up! and I put the one I love at the end of the line! I never have time to go out and enjoy my day without thinking paper, task, job ect..

Instead of saying that I said to her, I do it whenever I have time! and everything is fine so far!
Denied that I need a break!

Ketemuan yang singkat..

terserah kita berdua bagaimana selanjutnya..

i feel okay but what about him? (Friday night at 8.00 PM)

well just see and wait, be patient I get a plenty of time..

because love takes time, they said.

Meantime just tidy up my heart so when it really comes I am well prepare and ready to win..

The First Day

Hari pertama masuk kerja di tahun yang baru and I went early to office! (tidak terlambat lagi Sebenarnya if you think you can then you can... walau kadang rasa males itu lebih besar!

Hari ke-3 di tahun yang baru seperti tahun-tahun yang lalu ada begitu banyak yang mau dicapai, termasuk salah satunya mewujudkan resolusi tahun lalu yang belum tercapai. Mungkin belum terwujud because I said No to the good, so I can say Yes to the best!

The most important, resolusi tahun ini adalah peningkatan kualitas pribadi : menjadi pribadi yang bahagia dan percaya kepada diri sendiri dan semakin rendah hati. Lebih rajin lagi berdoa! Think positive! Belajar mendengarkan kata hati! and the last but not the least .......... Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test me, to help me grow. Don't find love, let love find me! (That's why it's called falling in love because I don't force myself to fall. I just fall)

Choose to

R E S O L U T I O N S FOR

AVOIDING M I S E R Y

Choose to love—rather than hate.

Choose to smile—rather than frown.

Choose to build—rather than destroy.

Choose to persevere—rather than quit.

Choose to praise—rather than gossip.

Choose to heal—rather than wound.

Choose to give—rather than take.

Choose to act—rather than delay.

Choose to forgive—rather than curse.

Choose to pray—rather than despair

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Tuesday morning!!

should finish my paper today, 3 papers and then pick up my laundry!
of course in the meantime doing my job and listening to favorite song.
Tonight gonna think deeply what I'm going to do next year..
Make some resolutions so I could be a better man each year..
Gonna drive my car with anybody who willing to stay with me (sound so simple)

This is what I gonna do............

Take twelve, fine, full-grown months,
see that these are thoroughly free
from all old memories of bitterness, rancor, hate and jealousy;
cleanse them completely from every clinging spite:
pick off all specks of pettiness and littleness;
in short , see that these months are freed from all the past;
have them as fresh and clean as when they first came from the great storehouse of Time.
Cut these months into thirty or thirty-one equal parts.
This batch will keep for just one year.
Do not attempt to make up the whole batch at one time
(so many persons spoil the entire lot in this way),
but prepare one day at a time, as follows:

Into each day put twelve parts of faith,
eleven of patience, ten of courage,
nine of of work (some people omit this ingredient and so spoil the flavor of the rest),
eight of hope,
seven of fidelity,
six of liberality,
five of kindness,
four of rest (leaving this out is like leaving the oil out of the salad, don't do it),
three of prayer,
two of meditation,
and one well selected resolution.

If you have no conscientious scruples,
put in about a teaspoonful of good spirits,
a dash of fun, a pinch of folly, a sprinkling of play,
and a heaping cupful of good humor.
Pour into the whole love ad libitum and mix with a vim.
Cook thoroughly in a fervent heat;
garnish with a few smiles and a sprig of joy;
then serve with quietness, unselfishness, and cheerfulness,
and a Happy New Year is certain

satu hari setelah Christmas

Hari Minggu di saat sedang asyik mengerjakan tugas kelompok bersama Mitra Bestari, ada kabar dari radio kalo terjadi gempa di Lor, Aceh. Korbannya cukup banyak katanya..berita masih simpang siur mengenai korban tetapi jumlahnya mencegangkan, ribuan..

Ribuan jiwa manusia, belum lagi kerugian materialnya.

Kita bisa kehilangan orang yang kita cintai secepat kita membuka lembaran buku!

Minggu, 26 Desember 2004

25 Desember at Home...

Hari Natal, mami menyiapkan hidangan handalnya, Gudeg. Sebenarnya I promised to help her, tetapi karena sesuatu hal, saya telat sampai rumah dan gudeg sudah selesai dibuat.

Tanggal 24 Desember sebelum misa mulai, sms telah mulai masuk, dari jam tiga sore, handphone dah mulai berbunyi.. tapi malam natal kali ini ke gereja cuma bertiga bersama dengan mami dan ayah. Sepiiiii..walau di gereja banyak sekali umatnya but I miss something real, I miss the spirit of christmas.

Tanggal 25 Desember, pagi-pagi dah hujan, rasanya malezz sekali menjejakkan kaki di lantai kamar, pengennya menghangatkan diri di bawah tumpukan selimut dan lanjut tidur. Tapi Noel dah membangunkan, wah dia jalannya dah lancar, bener-bener jadi the center of attention, everybody loves him. Tamu-tamu berdatangan jam 11 siang, sebenarnya hanya keluarga dari Ayah sementara dari keluarga Mami belum ada yang datang di hari Sabtu. My second brother with his wife also come. Well dapat tenaga tambahan nih, karena ga ada pembantu, jadilah saya menjadi assistant manager untuk urusan menyiapkan makanan dan mencuci gelas dan piring. Yah kenapa Mami lupa tidak beli aqua di dalam gelas plastik, kalo ada aqua kan ga perlu terlalu sering cuci gelas.

Sore hari rumah kembali sepi, tamu-tamu dah pada pulang. Tapi kenapa belum damai juga hati ini, seperti ada yang kurang. Jam lima sore, satu sms yang dinanti dari kemaren tiba..ooh akhirnya, ada juga sedikit "perhatian" darinya. Lengkap sudah Natal 2004...that sms completed my day!

Refleksi diri...

What's the meaning of christmas this year??

jawabannya dimulai dengan 'merefleksi' diri, mencerna kembali..apa yang telah di dapat dari Januari sampai dengan 23 Desember 2004.

Banyak sekali yang telah terjadi sepanjang tahun ini. Tuhan telah mencukupi segala sesuatunya, bahkan melebihi apa yang saya minta.

My list of thanks will be longer than my list of hope..

I Like Monday

semalam jadi juga "jalan" setelah muter-muter, dari kampus ke mekarsari baru ke plaza EX. Weh nungguin karimun datang, kita berempat udah melahap sekoteng, martabak telor sama nasi goreng. Begitu karimun datang ternyata supirnya ga 'available'...

Jam 11 malam baru jalan dari Mekarsari naik taxi, sampai disana dah hampir jam 12!

yah koq suasana sepi-sepi aja nih?? gerak-gerak badan dikit, walau ga matching ama lagunya :P

ga terasa dah jam 2 pagi. Lagunya standard 'hardrock' mirip-mirip ama yang sering diputar oleh stasiun radionya. Grup bandnya ga jelas darimana blum pernah liat sebelumnya. Penampilannya standard cafe, yang cowo macho dan nge-rapper, sementara yang cewe, sexy, memperlihatkan lekuk-lekuk tubuh :) dengan make-up yang standard cafe juga ! dan lagu penutupnya the reason (and the reason is you..........)

Pengalaman yang...menyenangkan...and the most important we have something to show and tell, walau cuma tidur 3,5 jam..

Wuuuaaaahhh..ngantuk..mesti kerja lagi dan kuliah!!

Unlock the door of your heart -
Enter the gentleness within.
Open the window of your soul -
Breathe in the season of miracles.
No matter how far you've traveled,
It's time to come home now,
Where Christmas abounds in love

by eyank

I'm missing something rEaL

Gosh..
can I survive if I choose this way?
How long should I wait? two or three years??
what should I do next? I've been thinking this over and over
it's not an easy thing to go..
maybe I'm worried to much??
if I meet a great person, do I have any courage to hold him?
to work out things and make it real?
now..I'm missing something real..

A minus

....unbelievable.. A minus for this..

Dua Hari Menjelang Lebaran

Sinar matahari dengan malu-malu mulai memperlihatkan keindahan sinarnya, menembus tirai tipis yang terpasang di daun jendela. Hari baru telah datang, dan semua kegiatan akan segera dimulai dalam hitungan menit demi menit. Kusingkirkan selimut, kurentangkan kedua tangan selebar-lebarnya dan mulut terbuka menguap.

Segera kuraih handuk, kuambil peralatan mandi, dan melangkah menuju kamar mandi. Sepuluh menit kemudian, keluar dari kamar mandi, tubuh terasa segar terkena guyuran air dan kulit terasa lembab karena telah dibersihkan dengan sabun mandi, siap memulai aktivitas selanjutnya. Pagi ini agenda harianku adalah pergi ke kantor, bekerja, dan kemudian sepulang bekerja langung menuju rumah untuk berlibur.

Liburan memang sudah membayangi hariku, hanya perlu menjalani delapan jam dan selanjutnya bebas. Tidak ada kewajiban pergi ke kantor untuk bekerja, tidak ada kuliah dan tidak perlu bangun pagi selama seminggu. Ide-ide sudah bermunculan memenuhi kepala, apa yang akan kulakukan selama seminggu nanti.

Namun sayang, lamunanku harus terputus karena ojek motor yang membawaku menuju kantor telah sampai di pelataran parkir depan kantor. Suasana di pelataran parkir tidak seperti biasanya, kali ini tidak nampak satupun mobil walau waktu telah menunjukkan pukul sembilan pagi.

Suasana di dalam kantor sama senyapnya dengan keadaan di luar. Beberapa teman telah mengambil cuti, dan yang tersisa belum semuanya hadir. Segera ku menuju ruanganku untuk menaruh tas kantor di dalam laci meja, dan kemudian mulai membuka berkas-berkas yang telah menanti untuk diselesaikan.

Tak terasa 20 menit telah berlalu, dua lembar surat telah selesai kuketik dan selama itu tidak ada satupun telepon masuk mengganggu pekerjaanku. Mulai aku menyadari bahwa dua hari menjelang lebaran, rupanya membuat orang sibuk menyiapkan datangnya lebaran, dan melupakan sementara pekerjaan. Apalagi besok adalah hari terakhir berpuasa, tentunya banyak yang memakai hari ini untuk berbelanja kebutuhan merayakan hari Lebaran.

Pikiranku kembali melayang, jauh ke masa lalu, mengingat makna lebaran sewaktu aku masih berusia tujuh atau delapan tahun. Lebaran di masa lalu, berarti memakai baju baru, memasak ketupat, membuat kue-kue kering yang enak, dan bersalam-salaman, meminta maaf di hari Raya. Betapa menyenangkan masa lalu, semuanya kelihatan indah dan polos. Tiba-tiba terdengar suara Manajer Personalia dari intercom yang mengatakan, bahwa kantor hanya akan buka setengah hari untuk hari ini dan karyawan diperbolehkan meninggalkan kantor jam satu nanti.

Melonjak kegirangan hati ini mendengar berita tersebut, segera kuraih gagang telepon dan menelepon ke rumah, meminta dijemput pukul dua nanti. Tak sabar hati ini, menunggu jam dua. Pikiranku kembali melambung, menuju sebuah kebun teh di kawasan Puncak, dimana terdapat sebuah vila mungil dengan tiga kamar tidur, sebuah taman yang ditumbuhi bunga mawar merah dan ditengah taman ada pancuran air yang terbuat dari bambu kuning, dan kolam ikan mas. Tempat yang sangat kurindukan untuk menghabiskan liburan, jauh dari keramaian kota dan hawa yang masih sejuk bebas dari asap kendaraan bermotor dan asap pabrik.

Minggu-minggu Tersibuk dimulai lagi...

sebentar lagi ujian akhir, ga terasa tahun udah mau berganti lagi, umur berkurang lagi.
semester ini ujian setelah natal..huh..sebel..walau ga semua mata kuliah ujian tertulis, tetap aja beraaaaaaaaat bikin tugas. Dimulai lagi deh masa-masa kurang tidur, kamar tidur berantakan, buku-buku bertebaran diseluruh penjuru kamar, peper ooh peper.

pengennya tanggal 20 Desember tugas dah kelar tapi rasanya pesimis..karena setiap Sabtu kumpul ngerjain tugas kelompok. Hikss hikkss sedih..kapan waktu santai nih??

satu tugas selesai, sudah menanti yang lain..weeeh mana ga ada libur natal lagi..kalo tgl 24 ga libur gue mau meliburkan diri nih... bolos kerja :P

Happines and Sadness

Saat bahagia membawa canda dan tawa, saat sedih membuatmu menangis dan semakin kuat. Seperti matahari yang selalu bersinar dan malam menggantikan siang. Cerita kehidupan berputar...

Life is Beautiful
Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind.
Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind...
Life can be blissful and happy and free...
Life can put beauty in the things that you see...
Life can place challenges right at your feet...
Life can make good of the hardships we meet...
Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin...
Life can reward those determined to win...
Life can be hurtful and not always fair...
Life can surround you with people who care...
Life clearly does offer its Up and its Downs...
Life's days can bring you both smiles and frowns...
Life teaches us to take the good with the bad...
Life is a mixture of happy and sad...
Life is beautiful if you want it that way...

tibalah saatnya penilaian performance kerja. Sounds good so far, although I just got average but it's fine for me. They said I go along with my job description and I got 3 items that above from average.
by eyank

Jangan Berpikir Terlalu Dalam

Hidup itu lebih "indah" bila dijalani.
Jangan menganalisa hidup ini..apa yang sudah terjadi terima saja, dan anggaplah bahwa itu bagian dari suatu kehidupan.

The big things appears because of the small one
Ide besar muncul dari ide-ide yang sebenarnya sederhana..

Kalau kau menganalisa hidup ini, dan terus mencari jawabannya, kau mungkin bisa mendapatkan jawaban yang memunculkan pertanyaan lain..begitu terus hingga akhirnya kau sadari hidup bukan hanya untuk mencari jawaban.

So it's better to make some action rather than discuss about life :)

I write this, not because I don't like with your question, tetapi karena hidup ini lebih indah bila kau menikmati saja apa yang hidup berikan untukmu.

Life just gives you time and space, it's up to you to fill it...

Take Two Lemons and Make Lemonade

I like this story much, so I would like to share it with others...

let's go make an action, fill in our life and you'll surprised with the result...

(By Elaine L. Galit)

Our house invariably had an aroma of "home." Scents like the mouthwateringzest of frying onions at dinner time, and crisp vanilla spice that wafted through the rooms during the day. But after six months wading through the loneliness of widowhood, I realized I didn't like the whiff of sad staleness now permeating the house.
I'd drifted through those last months as though half of me was missing. Not strange, I suppose, after forty years of marriage to the same man. But a day arrived when I realized I had to decide what the rest of my life would belike. Did I want to wander the empty rooms being half a person, or did I want to get out and see if I couldn't become whole again? And if I did want to repair my psyche, how would I go about achieving this metamorphosis?

My children and grandchildren helped me decide."You love to write, Mom," they chorused.

"Write a book."Write a book? I thought. At my age?

But how many times had I told my children to live their dream? It wasstrange, however, to realize I might be able to live my old dream; a visionswallowed up for so many years with housework, husband and children.
Not that I would change a minute of it; that was my life and I loved it.But it wasn't my destiny anymore, and, as the homily goes, the sooner I realized it the better. Time has a way of slip-sliding through your life and before you know it, your children are married and have children of theirown.
Let's face it, if life is made up of seasons I've got autumn challenging me,I thought. Did I want to find out what else life could possibly contain for me, or windup a shriveled, bitter old person? That question made me shudder. I'd always been an active optimist. Over the years when my children jumped from sports to dance and back again, I'd volunteered for everything from Girl Scouts,through mentoring youngsters, to vice president or secretary of the many clubs and organizations I'd joined.
Then, for eighteen years I'd run my own business, a candy and gift shop. Later I'd handled events and promotions for a local bookstore. I had what is now referred to as "life experiences."

So, did I want to start an other business? Volunteer somewhere? When my husband was alive, I'd published a few articles in various magazines. However, my children were correct; I'd always wanted to write a book. Before I had a chance to dwell in other areas, a new world opened up.

An editor, hearing about my desire to link my love of children with my love of Houston, approached me through a mutual friend. Would I write about Houston and what children could see and do in my city? Interesting - I'd tossed adesire into the universe and an answer had drifted down. Without anywarning, I had my chance to write that book. From then on, my life took off in another direction.

I spoke with a good friend and we tossed around ideas. Before I knew it, we were on our way. We'd write a special book. Forget the lists, we'd base ourbook on the core curriculum here in Houston. We researched, interviewed and photographed our way though museums, parks, science exhibits and the manyhidden treasures to be found in our city.
When the book was published, I glowed with pride and my children stifled"I-told-you-sos." But I was even more thrilled when a national bookstorechain named us "Authors of the Month" in our area, and a major literary group asked us to be featured authors for their annual literacy event.
Before we knew it, we had a second contract, and my world and work continued to expand. At the same time, trying for a social life and further development of my"right brain," I went to Sedona, Arizona, for an Elderhostel art sampler.While watercolor wasn't my thing, I loved working with colored pencils. Backin town, I joined an Artist's Way group facilitated by my co author and began colored pencil painting.
Once again the universe sent help in the form of a supportive and synergistic group of people who are not only talented, butshare their love of art and joy of living. At the urging of one of theartists in the group, I agreed to enter a local art show. To my great surprise, I won three ribbons and sold a painting. I could have stayed at home and felt sorry for myself.
Thank goodness I didn't. Oh, don't get me wrong; I did stay at home, but it wasn't to moan about my loss, but rather to work at fulfilling my life's dream.
While doing so, I was also filling my life with something meaningful.I've always known we have many choices in this world. The trick is to select correctly; don't opt to drain life, choose to fulfill life.

As I write this, I'm pursuing both my writing and art careers. And loving every minute of it.Yes, the fall season of life is a challenge. But I realize that when those lemons start falling from the trees in summer, it's wise to collect them. Autumn, especially here in Houston, is still hot. What better than to mix some lemonade with ice tea and sip while working on the latest project?

Action, the joy of living life, throws winter far into the future.

To Be With You

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

Chorus

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

What have I got to do to make you love me?
What have I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you are not there

I WANT YOU....

I want you to know, that I let you go not just because I don't love you
I want you to realize that one day in the past you really bright my life
I want you to think that life is sweet even if I'm not there
I want you to see that I care in my own way...
I want you to smile when you see me although we're not lover anymore
I want you to forgive me for not being there when you needed me..
I want you to understand that you can have a happines without me..

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Putaran Waktu

A little girl ask to her mommy..
She said, "Dear mommy.. what my life will be when I grow up?"
her mom said..what ever you want to be that is you when you grown up
she can't understand it at that time
and then..life goes by...she wasn't a little girl anymore
she's now a working woman, she gets up at 6 am and working till late at night
she has a cute smile, she has a delicated skin and she has a sexy body..
after all still she asking her mom opinion.."mom, what kind of man, my husband will be?"
her mom answer : "the person that loves you and can understand you"
she doesn't believe it because the last time she has a boyfriend, her boyfriend hurted her very much although at first, he promised to love her and never leave her alone.

Time goes by..until one day.. she understand that life isn't just achieve what you want to be and having a handsome boyfriend, but life is when you can share it with other person, and gives your hand when someone needed and be thankful that God loves you.